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365 days. i love you the same. happy new year.

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i love you the same and i miss you all the time. i've given my all and i'm not accepted. i stretched myself thin enough and i don't want to chase something that doesn't even want me and would rather have another. i don't want to be a maybe or a what if anymore. i want to be with people who put value in me and have faith in me, and people who want to keep me in their lives. i've chased as far as i can and begged and asked. im stretched thin, all my buttons are pushed and i've crossed every line i've set for myself. i've done all i could. i don't want to do more. because now i know that no matter how much, how far, how good i am, the ending is the same because you will simply say no. so i don't want to anymore.

and i don't want to be understanding, or sympathise or try to view how you view things. i don't want to understand your whys and reasons. you said i have better capacity to handle things than others and that i'm more "mentally mature". i don't want to handle things anymore. i don't want to be mature. i don't want to be kind, good and understanding. i want to admit that i feel something, and say that i hate it, that i feel disrespected and not valued, and that i feel like you have really stepped and spat on me. i don't care about perspective anymore. you've crossed the line and i don't have it in me anymore to understand or justify. you did something, and i react

your trash loves you still. it really is the same. but that's all.

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leaving like a father running like water

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Aki Hayakawa, you ultimately did die the worst of death.. for the chainsaw boy, that is. Though, at least, it is peaceful now.

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are you in love

right now, yes

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do u care him?

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source

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Eliza Griswold, from "Flood", Wideawake Field: Poems

[Text ID: "Love surprises us. It ends."]

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e.e. cummings, from “Sonnet” (Poem #13 in Uncollected Poems), Complete Poems: 1904-1962

[Text ID: “The trembling, yearning stars, that cannot speak”]

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“You want anything?”

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Sung Hwa Kim (Korean, 1985) - They are not gone. They will wait for you and be with you. (2022)

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－I’m sick and tired of people dying on me….right before my eyes…..

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woo young woo drawings at the end of each episode

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on loneliness, After Cameron Awkward-Rich, Dante Émile

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i love you. i cant tell you. the sun on your face will do it for me.

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