ilaiyayaya

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oh don't worry, im one of the "chill" trans women. im one of the good ones. i guess im the only trans woman in this group of friends, so i have to set a good example. you think trans women are mean? sorry, ill be more of a pushover to try and fix that. am i being too pushy? im sorry. yeah, i just want to be a normal girl. ive never met those bad trans women you're talking about but. i guess i shouldn't be like them if i ever want to have friends. hmm? why am i single? oh, dating is scary for trans women... im sorry i didn't mean to imply trans women have it harder, i just meant... im sorry. am i being too loud? am i taking up too much space? im sorry. i was just excited, ill try not to laugh so loud next time. im sorry. im so glad i got to meet another trans woman for once, she was really nice. what? oh, you didn't like her? you thought she was creepy? im sorry, i didn't know... i won't talk to her again. desire? i have none. sense of self? whatever you find acceptable. what's my type? what you've deemed appropriate. why do i always look so sad? im sorry, ill try to smile more. ill be good.

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I really need to make a new Discord, like I've planning to for like, a year or more now but it's literally just becoming more appealing over time. I have way too many people added on my current account that I really really wish I didn't have added, but also can't really unfriend without causing problems, so just making an entirely new account would be the easiest option by far. I'd end up losing a lot, I have a lot of old friends that I haven't talked to in years but don't want to completely lose contact with, as well as message history in old servers, but 1. I can live with that, and 2. I don't really need to delete my current account, I'd probably just set it to always show as offline. But I am getting really sick of suddenly getting messages from people I haven't spoken to in several years about how they hit on a possibly underage bookstore employee (I'm still not over that, it's been 5 months and I still won't let that go, why the fuck did he message me of all people about that???) and it gets really tiring having to clarify every time I add a new friend on Discord that, no, the "any" in the pronouns section of my profile is not accurate, and that if they call me by he/him even once I am going to take a fucking branding iron to their skull WHY IS THAT ALWAYS THE DEFAULT PEOPLE GO TO WHEN THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT PRONOUNS TO CALL SOMEONE BY??? I guess women and agender people really don't exist on the internet le sigh.

#made the fatal error of paying for a year's worth of nitro 2 months ago so now I can't convince myself to make a new one #the good thing however is that the only feature I use anyways is emotes WHICH WOULD BE A MASSIVE LOSS but like; idk i'll live #:gweseswave: got deleted anyways so like; what's even the point. no other emote will ever be as iconic

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Mods, autogenerate a manic rant about UMD-PGs while I'm at work for me, thanksies.

#use a monkey x typewriter setup to generate it please #I'll need it on my desk in 2 hours or every mod is getting banned

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Lambda Bern as Zepar and Furfur :3

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ushiromiya rosa

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Reject Metamorphosis

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I just spent 20 minutes cooking while listening to a video, and I was so engrossed in the video that I didn't realize for those entire 20 minutes that the stove was not on and I was so confused why nothing looked cooked even they'd be there for 20 minutes. Keep in mind I was watching them this entire time I didn't like walk away for 20 minutes, I was there, looking at them not cooking for 20 minutes, somehow not realizing they weren't cooking that entire time, I was flipping them around the pan and everything and just never noticed.

#IN MY DEFENSE tofu covered in a lot of seasoning sometimes looks kinda like it has burn marks on it but no that's just the seasoning #i will now go back and ACTUALLY cook for real #it was a REALLY interesting video okay; I love learning about gba video

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God I am so tempted to watch Dungeon Meshi as it's airing even tho I know if I do I'll stop halfway through and never finish it because I am physically incapable of watching anime as it airs BUT LIKE IT'S SO WELL ANIMATED I'M GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF IF I SEE ONE MORE WELL ANIMATED CLIP THAT I'M NOT ALLOWED TO SEE IN THE SHOW ITSELF BECAUSE I WON'T LET MYSELF UNTIL IT'S OVER!!! First it was the Chil(l roomie, you can have another helping)chuck crawling away from the crab on the floor scene AND NOW I KEEP SEEING THE SAME 5 FUCKING GIFS OF CHIMERA FALIN RUNNING AROUND AND RIPPING HER TITS OFF AND ALL OF THEM LOOK MORE IMPRESSIVE THAN WHATEVER DUMBSHIT THAT LOSER LEONARDO DA VINKY MADE IN LIKE 1602 OR WHATEVER!!! Trigger at their peak is like cocaine, I'm like Laios except instead of being gay and autistic for monsters I'm girl gay and autistic for really well animated monsters and also non-monsters, but like well animated monsters specifically get like 10 extra points drawing chicken chimeras is like extra hard and thus extra impressive and also extra hot!

I'm going to fucking tear off all of my skin if I have to resist seeing good animation for 1 more fucking day I can't take it anymore I'M GONNA DIE I'M GONNA ROT AND MELT AND MY CORPSE IS GONNA GROW NUTRITIOUS POISONOUS MUSHROOMS ALL OVER IT!!!

At this point I don't even care about anything else, the amazing story, the characters, the gay gay homosexual, none of it matters to me anymore it's all bonus IT'S ALL WORTHLESS all I need now is to watch that giant chicken climb up a wall and be able to actually stare at it and analyze it and rewatch those 2 seconds over and over for an entire hour and not just be able to scroll past and glance at it and say "no no no i cant see that yet, I must not, I must resist" I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE I FEEL LIKE IM FUCKING HAVING A SEVERE PRESCRIPTION DRUG WITHDRAWAL There is more lust in my brain for the animation frames than the actual hot monster girl subject of them

Woah hey! Do you think marcille would ask falin if she could soap her tits and then say "wuh hey!" I think she would i think marcille would be a devilman fan and also british

Got out of bed, ate (like a Senshi-aligned producecore foodcel), exercised some, now I'm normal again and can think with common sense and rational logic. And normal me believes EVERYTHING I SAID IS TRUE I STILL STAND BY ALL OF IT EVEN WHILE NORMAL IT'S ALL TRUE EVERYTHING IS TRUE, SHE WAS SO CORRECT!!! AND ANYONE WHO SAYS OTHERWISE IS WRONG AND CAN DIE!!!

I'D FUCK THE SHIT OUT OF THAT CHICKEN!!! non-sexually. and sexually.

#I'M RIGHT!!! I'M NOT INSANE I'M CORRECT IN EVERY WAY!!!!! #dungeon meshi #this is why i live; i'm so glad i can still be overly obsessive and cringe about animation #GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD #dollgore #falin's iconic wall climbing maneuver #why does she say woah hey like that SHE WANTS TO FUCK THE CHICKEN #chickengore

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Stories

This one is more of a reminder to myself lmao

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トゲトゲサンセット

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was wondering why my nijika plush wasnt in my bag then my little sibling kindly reminded me i left him crucified and hanging above my monitor

#true art

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#so true venomoth; correct as always