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Mattin was a bit embarrassed at the state of his room. Well, it wasn't untidy, in fact, it's very tidy but it's bare and there's no chair for the guest to sit. "Ahm, ah," Mattin scratched the side of his head, "I have no chairs, sorry," he started, then pointed at the bed. "Please sit down," he offered awkwardly and then thought of bringing the stool downstairs but that would be uncomfortable, right? He decided to swallow whatever embarrassment he was having and settled on the bed as well, leaving a big space between him and his visitor. "Okay, I'm glad you're okay... There's - no trouble, right?" He continued to ask then responded to the question about his day. "Not so busy. Mrs. Kim decided not to open today so I did inventory and cleaned," he shared with a nod of his head, arms rested on his knees, extended while hands clasped together. He was anxious and feeling a bit tense. Why was he nervous?

Mattin did not expect who he saw at the side door when he carefully swung it open. It took him a moment to reply - was he just thinking about the young doctor? He nodded his head at the first comment. "I'm alright - is, are you okay?" Now he was worried... What's happening that the man dropped by without telling him? He swallowed at the following things the other confessed. What does it mean? When the other motioned to come in, Mattin right away pulled the door a lot more open. "Oh, yeah, sure, I'm sorry - come in," and stepped to the side to let the man in. "No, you don't have to leave. I was just - we didn't really open today so I just cleaned up the place and got showered... Drinking some stuff before bed," he didn't know why he felt the need to explain himself. He closed and locked the door behind them and pointed towards the stairs going up to the apartment upstairs. "Do you want something to drink?" He asked as he made his way back to his simple room. There was no spot to really sit down but his bed. There was a small table situated close to his bed with his drink and some snacks. The TV was still on but the volume low, the sound a comforting hum that brushed through the anxiety he was feeling.

#jae004

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i've been thinking about taking you into my mouth and letting you cum in my tongue and then kissing you afterwards...

He's trying to remember how to breathe.

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"be honest..."

you wanna fuck that help so bad you don't care if you cheat.

"And if I did...Why would I tell someone I don't even know. I'd tell the person I wanted to fuck. Even better I'd show them."

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how's your boyfriend doing?

"You might know more than me. He's probably staying at his parents again tonight. Blaming his father's illness and helping his mom when really he's avoiding another fight. So why don't you tell me how he's doing or here's a better idea, ask Sonny I'm sure he knows."

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anything you want to say about your new 'friend'?

"How about this, you walk away and keep any opinions or negativity to yourself. My new friend doesn't need you."

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♥

For every ♥ my muse will confess something they find sexually attractive about yours.

I think it's better if I don't say a name. Hopefully...I think they'll know -

His mouth. And maybe it's not only sexual. I find myself waiting for the next word. Patiently waiting while he considers how to phrase or how much to say and when I don't control myself, my mind...I want to know if he'll be that intentional with where kisses or placed. Where he tastes. Or if that's a time he won't be so worried about what he says or does and must allows himself to enjoy. Would his mouth feel as good as I think it does...

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#jae tag #mattin: LICKS THE ARMS

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★

The Handsome Young Doctor

If we kissed:

[] This wouldn’t happen.

[] Oh disgusting.

[ x ] Again, again.

[ x ] Kiss you back.

[ x ] Let’s take this to the bedroom.

[] Slap/Push you away.

If you asked me out I’d say:

[] Um no.

[ x ] YES.

[ x ] HOLY ASDFGHJK YESSSSS.

Can we cuddle?

[] No.

[] Ew.

[] Sure.

[ x ] YES.

Sex?

[] Let’s do it.

[] No. You can’t handle my d.

[ x ] FUCK YES.

[] No.

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Mattin did not expect who he saw at the side door when he carefully swung it open. It took him a moment to reply - was he just thinking about the young doctor? He nodded his head at the first comment. "I'm alright - is, are you okay?" Now he was worried... What's happening that the man dropped by without telling him? He swallowed at the following things the other confessed. What does it mean? When the other motioned to come in, Mattin right away pulled the door a lot more open. "Oh, yeah, sure, I'm sorry - come in," and stepped to the side to let the man in. "No, you don't have to leave. I was just - we didn't really open today so I just cleaned up the place and got showered... Drinking some stuff before bed," he didn't know why he felt the need to explain himself. He closed and locked the door behind them and pointed towards the stairs going up to the apartment upstairs. "Do you want something to drink?" He asked as he made his way back to his simple room. There was no spot to really sit down but his bed. There was a small table situated close to his bed with his drink and some snacks. The TV was still on but the volume low, the sound a comforting hum that brushed through the anxiety he was feeling.

late visit

Timeline: 2020 December 15, Friday, around 10:30 P.M. Location: Convenient Store… Mood: A bit hungry… Alone, quiet. Attire: See this post. With: @acqvaintcd

It's been a few weeks since the time he saw the young doctor. It was the same night he slept at the doctor's place. It was out of necessity; he was in a situation where he could get in big trouble if the man didn't interfere… He didn't know what happened after that. Did he do something wrong? Said something wrong? Maybe the doctor was busy. There's a pandemic after all. And well, him? The store barely stayed open. He worried for his employers because they weren't really making money and they still let him live upstairs to watch the store although they weren't making a lot of business. Somehow that thought pushed him to the edge of - it's not depression but maybe loneliness. He misses his sister and the one friend he thought he made, he hasn't seen in weeks… Should he text him? He thought of having a drink. He has a few bottle of soju Mr. Kim gave him a couple of weeks back. In case he felt like drinking, the old man said. He opened one and while sitting upstairs, watching some show on the TV the old couple let him borrow, he drank his soju while eating some dried squid. He accepted the fact he'd spend Friday night on his own when he heard someone knocking on the side door. Didn't the sign outside the store said they were closed? He quietly ran down to check who needed something at this time of the night…

#jae004

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Send me a ★ and i'll answer...

If we kissed:

[] This wouldn’t happen.

[] Oh disgusting.

[] Again, again.

[] Kiss you back.

[] Let’s take this to the bedroom.

[] Slap/Push you away.

If you asked me out I’d say:

[] Um no.

[] YES.

[] HOLY ASDFGHJK YESSSSS.

Can we cuddle?:

[] No.

[] Ew.

[] Sure.

[] YES.

Sex?:

[] Let’s do it.

[] No. You can’t handle my d.

[] FUCK YES.

[] No.

Should you reblog this?:

[] Yes. I want to send you one.

[] Yes.

[] No.

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late visit

Timeline: 2020 December 15, Friday, around 10:30 P.M. Location: Convenient Store… Mood: A bit hungry… Alone, quiet. Attire: See this post. With: @acqvaintcd

It's been a few weeks since the time he saw the young doctor. It was the same night he slept at the doctor's place. It was out of necessity; he was in a situation where he could get in big trouble if the man didn't interfere… He didn't know what happened after that. Did he do something wrong? Said something wrong? Maybe the doctor was busy. There's a pandemic after all. And well, him? The store barely stayed open. He worried for his employers because they weren't really making money and they still let him live upstairs to watch the store although they weren't making a lot of business. Somehow that thought pushed him to the edge of - it's not depression but maybe loneliness. He misses his sister and the one friend he thought he made, he hasn't seen in weeks… Should he text him? He thought of having a drink. He has a few bottle of soju Mr. Kim gave him a couple of weeks back. In case he felt like drinking, the old man said. He opened one and while sitting upstairs, watching some show on the TV the old couple let him borrow, he drank his soju while eating some dried squid. He accepted the fact he'd spend Friday night on his own when he heard someone knocking on the side door. Didn't the sign outside the store said they were closed? He quietly ran down to check who needed something at this time of the night…

#jae004

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#jae004

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All the numbers - Jae, Sonny, Jin

fuck, marry, kill - Jin, Jae, Sonny. marry, cuddle, sleep with - Jae, Jin, Sonny. fuck, take a bullet for, murder - Jin, Jae, Sonny. adopt, be adopted by, marry - Sonny, Jin, Jae. kill, betray, have on your zombie apocalypse team - Sonny, Jin, Jae. seduce, steal from, serenade - Jae, Sonny, Jin.

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Send me three names + a number...

fuck, marry, kill

marry, cuddle, sleep with

fuck, take a bullet for, murder

adopt, be adopted by, marry 

kill, betray, have on your zombie apocalypse team

seduce, steal from, serenade

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#jae tag #mattin wants the d

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Mattin came downstairs with the backpack over his shoulder which the other reached and took from him. It was surprising and he was about to protest but by the look of the young doctor, there was no stopping the other. Mattin let it happen; was he bothered by the man's actions? Not really. He's not used to it so he felt a bit awkward but it was nice. He quickly ran around the store to make sure everything's locked before returning to Jae and answered the other's questions. "I could eat," he spoke honestly, "I'm not picky. I'd let you decide," he said as he headed towards the door, the reality that he's going to spend the night with the young doctor started to sink in and he was feeling - excited. "Are we - walking? Taking the bus?" He knew Jae had a car but he wasn't sure how the other got to the store this time tonight.

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HARD-HEADED

Mattin watched as the other man walked around the store as if to check if things were in order. Mattin was slightly confused but also amused. He lifted a hand to scratch the back of his head. Is there any point arguing? Well, he didn’t really want to argue but he did want to insist that he’s going to be okay staying by himself at the shop. He’d done it for so many weeks. And besides, he thought that if the doctor knew what he’d been through in the past, the man would probably feel sorry for whoever would want to attack him… He didn’t let his mind linger on that thought and instead, kept his eyes on the doctor who now stared back at him with a questioning look - Did he need to get something before leaving the store? He released a sigh, nodding his head, he guessed he wasn’t winning tonight but did he really care? It felt good to have someone worry about him. Someone who truly didn’t know him and probably still had that positive thought about him. But what about later on? When the doctor finds out what and who he was? Maybe there’ll be regret and - more, hatred? “I’ll - get some clothes… I’ll be back,” he muttered a response, his forehead lined with a frown of worry. He quickly grabbed a set of clothes for sleeping, his toothbrush, and clothes for tomorrow as well, stuffing them all in a back pack before heading down. “Thank you - for doing this,” he then said, nodding his head once again, the last thought he had hanging in his head… 

Impulse had prompted Jae’s reaction. Extending the offer to spend the night at his place. He’d pulled his phone out more than once, opening the window to the messages he’d exchanged with Jin earlier that day and he was reminded of the tension and the constant arguments birthed from what he’d always known, Jin wasn’t over Sonny and he probably never would be. Jae had known as much going into the relationship, choosing to shower his boyfriend with affection and gifts, proof that he was someone and something different than the man who was undeserving of Jin’s heart. It had been enough at first or maybe Jin was really good at playing the role of happy boyfriend. It also didn’t hurt that distance had been put between Jin and Sonny. Something he believed Jin’s mother had done to allow her son time to heal. But there was no healing from first loves. Was he doing the same with Mattin now. Looking for someone else to save or someone who would be a salve to the wounded ego that had been created from Jin’s growing rejection. He placed the phone back in his pocket, reaching for Mattin’s backpack when he came back down. “Are you hungry? I know a place you might like. We can grab something on the way to my place.” He was avoiding the thanks and appreciation because he knew it was equal parts chivalry and manipulation. He was controlling people again, just like his father. His only hope, maybe Mattin was someone who enjoyed being controlled. His mind drifted to a dangerous place. Thoughts filling his head that he had no business contemplating with the current relationship he claimed to be committed to but he let those thoughts linger as he studied Mattin’s face. Dark eyes washing over the other’s features as he waited a response to his suggestion, “Unless you’re ready for me to get you home.”

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mattin and his penis: mad horny