photography captures all those little moments that we all fail to grasp the magnitude of the complexity that is existence in all the perceptitudes of grandiosity that encompass the fragility and pervasive nature that is existence both fervent and tragic in its temporary omnipresence.
In Spanish we don’t say “I love you” we say “donald trump es un pedazo de mierda ojalá que un día se convierta en un insecto y lo puedo matar con mi chancla y después untar su sangre de insecto en una toalla y tirar esa toalla en un fuego grande que hice con los cuerpos de un millón de republicanos pedazos de mierda come culos hijo de putas” and i think that’s beautiful.
me: I’m mentally ill and struggling to get the energy to do tasks that are necessary for my everyday life
a neurotypical: having you considering taking on several time consuming and tiring hobbies, such as running, getting up at 5am to do yoga, and making green smoothies with 20 ingredients every day
• purposely starting arguments with someone because negative attention is better than no attention
• immediately believing someone is angry with you because they did something like put away the dishes louder than normal
• hearing someone sigh and thinking “oh fuck what did i do”
• craving attention when being ignored but feeling uncomfortable or unworthy when someone actually gives you attention
• holding in your thoughts and emotions until you finally explode because expressing them is manipulative
• believing that the slightest shift in someone’s behaviour (ex: raised voice, subtle change in facial expression, etc) means that you’ve done something wrong to make that person angry
• causing arguments because you deserve to be yelled at
• feeling panicked and paranoid that someone is going to abandon you and then splitting five minutes later and hating their guts
• engaging in self destructive behaviour because if you die it would be fine, but if you live then you might get attention
• moulding yourself into the person you think others would like best, thus having a different personality for each person you’re around
• being completely numb one minute and overwhelmingly emotional the next
• not knowing who the fuck you are or what to ever expect