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squip fans are red flags to me at this point

#i am such a hater and totally agree w u

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not gaia just violating jason like that omg

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Hey would you wanna get into a queer situationship where everything we do together slowly consumes one of us into a deep love that we both know can’t end well while the other doesn’t love the other that much, hey do you wanna have low levels of empathy in that weird muddle between friendship love and grief paired with drugs nobody our age should be even near let alone consuming on a daily basis, hey do you want one of us to get a girlfriend and the other get slowly consumed by the grief of losing a lover who never really loved you, hey do you wanna

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In Japanese, they don’t say “moon,” they say “tsuki,” which literally translates to “moon,” and I think that’s how language works.

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this as an album outro 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

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I’m saying it first, The Prophecy is so chloe valentine coded

I'm saying it first, I can do it with a broken heart is so jake dillinger coded

#chloe valentine #new content and i immediately revert to bmc #bmc #be more chill

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I'm saying it first, I can do it with a broken heart is so jake dillinger coded

#bmc #jake dillinger #richjake #all i had to say goodbye

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Am I the only one who thinks it’s easier to write romance when you’re not in love? It was so easy before he showed up, I could write any situation and it never felt forced or insincere. Not all of it was good, but it was romance nonetheless. And then this son of a bitch showed up and now I can’t write anything unless it’s about him, and it’s so obviously about him, and how am I supposed to write anything cohesive when whenever I try to explain how I feel about him, suddenly the words that once came so easily become confusing and disordered and commas don’t work right but neither do semicolons or periods. I wrote him love letters to try and get rid of it but it’s bottomless and ravenous and even when I look back on what I wrote before him, all I can think is ‘god, I had no idea I was so right the entire time. It’s all real. I wrote it like it was fiction but it’s real’

#i just needed to get it out of my system #I’m bored in an airport and i was like ‘omg i can write now’ except #no i can’t #i mean i can still do it #i won the annual short story contest in my town #(not so subtle brag) #but i have to actively try to make the love interest *not* him #maybe i need to accept it. just write what I’m feeling. but i try to avoid doing that

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adam making up a version of himself thats successful in regular traditional society and desperately trying to distance himself from magic and art and ending up a liar and realising he cant escape it and trying just makes him miserable even tho he thought it would keep him safe. oh did i say adam? i couldve sworn that was declan

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defending jason grace online isn't enough i need a gun

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Winter Aurora.

Lapland, Finland.

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Sometimes I think about how people rank Jason as their least favorite because he’s “such a bland character with no personality”, but was he even allowed to have one in the first place?

He’s two years old when Lupa guides him to Camp Jupiter. He’s brought up to be the perfect soldier, the perfect Roman, the perfect hero. He doesn’t know life outside the legion. He’s the son of Jupiter, he has to be great. If he’s not, he’s a failure and a disgrace. If he is then he’s still not the best because there so many other heroes who did it better than him so he has to keep trying harder and harder even though no matter what he’s never going to be good enough because the moment he slips up he’s no longer the perfect hero.

The few times he actually tries to do something he wants, he’s only cut down. Changing the 12th legion to the 1st legion? No, you can’t do that. It’s tradition. You’re wrong. That’s stupid. Joining the 5th cohort? Why would you join those losers? You’re only hurting yourself. You could be great if you join the 1st cohort instead like a good Roman boy.

So why would he try to do anything that cultivates his identity? Why would he try to do anything that brings him joy if everyone around him is just going to suck it right out?

He has no best friends at Camp Jupiter. He has acquaintances. He has people he’s friendly with. Say what you want but Reyna was a coworker. Dakota was cool, Gwen was nice. But none of them make Jason want to stay at Camp Jupiter instead of Camp Half-Blood. He thinks of Reyna but only in terms of he doesn’t want to saddle her with the responsibility of picking a new praetor. He thinks about duty. When he is picking between the camps he’s weighing his options between doing his duty as he’s done his whole life or picking himself for the very first time ever and he picks himself.

And it’s honestly so fucking depressing that the first time Jason picks himself and is actually supported in his decision happens when he is sixteen years old. And most of the people supporting him have only known him for a month.

But then he saddles himself with duty and responsibilities because that’s all he’s ever known and Percy is dying and Jason is a good Roman and a good hero and his job is to sacrifice his life for everyone else because of course it is. So he takes on Pontifex Maximus to build shrines and temples to minor gods and goddesses (not that they shouldn’t be honored but… once again he’s sacrificing his identity for the good of everyone around him).

And then, just as he’s finally discovering an identity for himself—he likes physics, he’s learning about the mortal world and living in it, he’s becoming more than just Jupiters son and Juno’s perfect hero—he’s killed.

Jason never got to be Jason. He only got to be Jason Grace, son of Jupiter, Praetor of the 12th Legion, slayer of Krios, one of the Seven, Juno’s Champion, Pontifex Maximus. He always belonged to someone else and never himself.

All this to say, Jason is my favorite of the Seven and although he’s not the eldest nor a daughter, as an eldest daughter I relate so hard and feel very seen in him.

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“Finn Wolfhard cannot play a straight character to save his life” I say into the mic. The crowd boos. I hang my head in shame as I exit the stage.

“No, she’s right” I hear a voice from the back. There stands none other than Finn himself.

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When the lost hero first came out I stole my brother’s copy and to this day he still doesn’t know that it was me.

Anyways, Jason Grace

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You cannot make everyone think and feel as deeply as you do. This is your tragedy … because you understand them, and they do not understand you.

Daniel Saint

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— David Cronenberg, Consumed