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last time i was on this blog i was 128.5 im crying now im 135 it’s been like 3 weeks D:

i think it’s time i actually take control on my diet again. i manipulated it before and go to as low as 120 while eating 3 small meals a day and burning half of the calories i ate. but it was pretty extreme i’d be happy just to maintain 125-128 tbh /:

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“i thought i was around people i could trust”

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how the fuck did i only eat 800 calories a day and still exercise

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when my mom cooks i’ll go sit in an empty parking lot and just park there for an hour or so i just lie and said i ate with a friend

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my body checks from last summer.. i lost 20 lbs in two months oh god

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why didn’t she take me to the hospital

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im crying sober,?,, this hasn’t happened in so long

I CRIED BCOS I STARED IN THE MIRROR TOO LONG DURING A BODY CHECK

IK STARTING TO HATE MYSELF AGAIN YES I CANT WAIT TO BE SKINNY

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back on my ana bs

lost 6 pounds this week

138 to 132

gw is 128/130 by the end of this month

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your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself.

you don’t need extra food.

keep going.

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im so tired of my ed

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The guy am talking to right now literally told me his weight twice and it triggered the fuck out of me when the past couple of weeks I’ve been eating at least once a day so now I’m going to you know keep fasting until I feel like I’m going to pass out I guess

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:(( me at my lowest weight

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woke up and weighed myself

130.7 bmi is 20.5

i want to get really bad again

i want to look like a skeleton

i want the surgeons to tell me i’m too skinny to operate on

this was me at my lowest weight. i look malnourished and sleep deprived bcos i was lmao. like look @ my arm and cheeks i was starting to look like my body was eating at itself

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i don’t necessarily miss being in love but i miss feeling arms wrapped around me at night

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i want to bleed out

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nothing ever goes my way

doomed with isolation forever