irlnikeiyomiuri

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

guys what should i do. w my life. ….

#do i actually work like i want to or do i sleep indefinitely- #OPENING MY WINDOW WOULD BE A GOOD STATT #wait omg nvm he texted me back ❤️post cancelled. peace and love ❤️

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

uuuuu...

#need to start posting beta again i miss it........ #google doc w updates ready to post is over 100 pages. and yet thats only like. five posts. #(plus two that r mostly done they just need uhh closing scene and narration) #(WHY IS EVERY POST SO LONGGG) #well. ig thats approximately uhh #15 ish pages per post. not that bad.

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

u see if we look at kinjis ftes then that establishes the importance of having conversations to kinjis relationship with a person. he repeatedly emphasizes that he doesn't push his beliefs on others, and just would like to inform people of the path they could take. he and yuki have good conversations and yuki listens to kinjis thoughts (not necessarily follows his every word, and definitely doesnt become christian. but he doesnt just view it as kinji yapping abt nothing).

yuki and kinjis consistent conversations lead to kinji viewing yuki as a friend- his first friend, and baptizing him to make it all official. its literally "we have had an abundant number of conversations. can we be considered friend?" then cut to "oh we are? okay cool. lemme go through an informal baptism with u where i say we'll be besties for forever <3" which ive made at least one joke about before (saying that this means they're married now)

....NOW. pre despair. utsuro was being a edgy loner who didnt interact with anyone. so... was kinji without friends? is my point here going to be that he probably got close w kanata and kakeru, leading to what we say in chapter 6 flashbacks? NO. NO IT IS NOT.

THATS RIGHT BESTIES. WE ALL SHOULD KNOW BY NOW WHO KINJI HAD CONVERSATIONS WITH PRE DESPAIR. YEP. ITS ANOTHER TSUHARA POST. CONVERSATIONS IMPORTANT TO KINJI CANON. TSUHARA CONVERSATIONS CANON. TSUHARA FOREVER. TSUHARA ETERNAL. TSUHARA ETERNAL BESTIES UNDER THE EYES OF GOD. YEAAAAAAAAAAAAH

#in case. anyone doesnt know. #blah blah blah kinji was canonically the one that got tsurugi to change his views in non despair #he broke through to tsurugi and got him to reconsider things #THEY HAVE TO HAVE SPOKEN. #IT TOOK KINJI AND YUKI LIKE. TWO CONVERSATIONS IN KINJIS FTES #IN MY HEART OF HEARTS......... #sorry for sdra posting wont happen again #tsuhara #dra #kinji uehara #tsurugi kinjo

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

spins twirls bounces

#the adhd did me well today #highest nnwm count this month after almost a week of Barely hitting word count goal #organized my closet a bit did a Lot of laundry took a nice shower #OH aaaand i just have like. half a segment left to write of the post that’s been killing me #which. half a segment is good seeing as this horrible post has had like. easily 14 different segments #each of which have been rewritten at least three times #this one gets scrapped and that one gets added back in and this gets moved to here and on and on and on #smiles. yayyy

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

anxiety bumps for the first time in like a year because of work. 👍

#hits my head against the wall hits my head against the wall hits my hea

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

i am full of so much anger and for what reason.

#save me cafe vlogs save me

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

okay yes i’ve done literally nothing today but at least i DIDNT DECIDE TO COVER A SHIFT W NO NOTICE AGAIN

#how are u gonna text me two hours before ur shift and go 🥺 can u pls cover for me #like. #hmmm would u scrap ur plans to show up wet hair wet clothes and work for four hours for under 100. #BC IM NOT DOING THAT. DIE. #guys can u tell i feel bad and i’m trying to justify not going in

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

i am full of so much anger and for what reason.

#i was not like this months ago what. what. ..

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

cw ed

i love. having anor3xia it’s reallh fun it’s so fun i feel so great right now.

#spent the past two hours just trying to Ohysically Feel Okay with 0 success. so. 👍

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

insane in the head

#^i want to work on beta. but i dont.

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

cooking.

#i need Everyone to Understand th e next few beta posts. if anyone is Wrong they're getting blocked. #SLASH J. #anyways back to cooking

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

my favorite "joke" at work is to say "okay now say smthn nice about me" bc i always work w this one girl and whenever one specific manager is with us she always compliments my coworker like crazy. also ignore me i need to go hit my word count but this wouldn't leave my head. im so funny. she micromanages me to hell and treats me like im incapable and gives me the short end of every shift then has a meltdown if i look at her to see what she's doing when she forgets to work on the order i need to hand out.

#the other day i was going to go okay say smthn nice blah blah blah #but she went ...'i like working with u too (wrong name) haha' like a good thirty seconds after complimenting coworker #sighs. siiiighs..... she did catch her mistake but. sighs.. #its so funny :) we have a lot of fun :) lots of laughs :)

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

oauuh the voices .

#i need to get my cartilage repierced NAOW. #auugh but once i get them repierced i need to wait for them to heal before i can switch them w new piercings and. auahhGH #sighs. screams.

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

tumblr isn’t letting me boop people it keeps giving me error messages so if u see u got whacked by me like 30 times it’s bc i got my rights back and got trigger happy

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

i loev. tdov.

#did not do anything for it sorry. that’s a lie actually i drew both tsu and zuna. actually i drew maki too. #tried to draw koba but oh his hair. #but still that’s 75% of that quartet. on their day. i’ll call it 80 in honor of my attempted koba.

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

no longer an idea i’m considering.

could quit…. or i could look into transferring stores and have better job safety + proceed to utilize food + drink policies when i’m in college….. mmmMmMmm…

#i genuinely almost walked out of the store today. so. #more than anything it’s can i make it at this store until i transfer but like. #to what end. to what end.

[irlnikeiyomiuri]

was lying. sorry.