jansoffthewall

[jansoffthewall]

[jansoffthewall]

Food for thought

I've been deprived of my liberty and been placed on the lowest form of society.

Hoping negativity won't swallow me and consume me spiritually.

Been dealing with this shit, praying I'll be strong emotionally.

But still, I'm thankful for my family for loving me unconditionally.

Never gave up on me supported me mentally and financially.

I've been trying my best to stay healthy but addiction got the best of me now I can't keep my sobriety in check even here in this penitentiary lack of discipline, apparently.

But how should I live my life accordingly if I'll would be stuck here for eternity?

Police brutality is being condemned by the president obviously he lacks empathy. Even the justice system sees it differently, they want the higher court to decide no need for sympathy.

People whom we voted, wants to take away our voice.

How can we make decisions if we don't even have a choice?

Suggested a ploy, to distract us from the real issue just to annoy.

Kept us in the dark, built walls, maintained poise.

So they'll have time to deploy troops who's ready to seek and destroy.

But we'll still hear amidst the noise, it would be blurry at first and would wipe up the moist.

We will stand together, unite and rejoice! Let us oppress those politicans who foists, wants to take away our pride and joy. Watching our children grow knowing they can't even have fun and enjoy and the one in position treats us like toys.

So what can we do in this situation?

Are you willing to speak up and do some action?

Or follow orders like our ancestors and have no reaction?

What about the next generation, are you willing to let them live with all these corruption?

Divided we stand, together we fall. Are we just gonna watch and live behind this wall?

Blame everyone and claim that it's their fault. Are we just gonna bitch and whine til it tastes like salt? Now it's your call to end this all and stop living in default.

Gotta step out of this vault, no need to revolt. All we need is love, compassion and support. Simple yet doable for a low cost and no blood lost.

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More time decade ago, more time weeks ago, and more time if ever we'll cross paths on the free zone. Time was really not on our side before and today, call it fate or destiny it's just the same..

But you made a huge impact on me the moment I got to know you, made life from dull to colorful. Used 5 of my senses isn't wonderful? Learned things that I didn't knew call it educational.

Today I'm still grateful for having the chance to rekindle, realize where I am still lacking, things that wants improving, knowledge and skills that needs practicing, and learned when words should be said, talk about timing...

I'll see you around, maybe after 10,000 hours or couple more months. Hoping our appeal will be on our favor, gotta keep my faith strong. Time can only tell what's gonna be, to be able to take leap, or walk away and settle for what's given just call it fate.

I wish we had more time,

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A phase I shall overcome. For my family, my son, friends who remained, and for my mother fucking self. I will raise again, that I am sure. Comeback is real.

#me

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Lmao, not that I'm suicidal but I tend to sleep all day, be distant, abuse my body, mind & soul when depression hits me.

But I love it when I'm on a manic state. I got the feeling that I'm on the top of the mf world. All of it was mine for the taking kind of feeling..

But it's really different when you're in a situation where your every movement is monitored by your so-called officers, on-duty guards, and fellow men who supposed to be your blood brothers..

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“Sometimes it was hard to express how much you loved someone. You said the words, but you could never quite capture the depth of it. You could never quite hold someone tightly enough.”

— Diane Chamberlain, The Midwife’s Confession (via wnq-writers)

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“Someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready. They can love you in a way you have never been loved and still not join you on the bridge. And whatever their reasons you must leave. Because you never ever have to inspire anyone to meet you on the bridge. You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love, more love that you have never seen, out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready.”

— Nayyirah Waheed (via thelovejournals)

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But not today, no

“It’s nice,” I began to say, “to find someone whose soul dances on the same floor as yours. To find someone who lets you be the person you truly are, without the hidden temper and without holding in your deepest thoughts.

To find someone who is so easy to love, who makes you realize it all is truly simple even when you feel as if you are hard to love. To have someone who makes you laugh on the rough days and listen to all of your stories, even the darker ones, and still be there for more. It’s truly a blessing.

And to love, to truly love and be loved back. That’s not easy to find, but when you stumble upon it, you have to hold on to it. You’ve got to see the magic even when all you can feel is darkness.”

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“What happens when they leave When your secrets go with them You don’t get them back And you can’t return the pieces they left Instead you’re stuck with remnants of them Favorite ice cream flavors and deep dark fears The old sweatshirt they left behind haunts you But somehow moving it seems like a betrayal It’s funny how ghosts live among us And memories travel with us Unchanged by the passing of time”

— @sixwordssayitall (via sixwordssayitall)

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“You deserve something you don’t have to question. You deserve someone who is sure of you.”

— r.h. Sin (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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You've grown so much my love, but we grew apart. We could be the bestest friend, but our situation made it impossible. But it is okay, someday you'll realize none of it is my fault. You have my blood flowing through your veins, that's why I know, someday we will be together. Love you kid, always has and always been. I'll see you soon. https://www.instagram.com/p/CBO_VoOlGRzGkonwyCmFwmy5EgjNIoY2phJTCg0/?igshid=1sgta4df5rh9v

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I've found peace in knowing that I cannot control whether people keep it real with me or not, so as long as I promise to always keep it real with myself, then I'm constantly going to be in the right hands.

MR