jbko82

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Anxiety, the reality of it is that it isn't just one feeling. It is many different thoughts competing against each other. It sends people into turmoil. It is hard to recoup. Stress, dispare, anger, sadness, depression, and anxiousness.

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I constantly question the world lately.

I know this sound Judgemental or even considered as “click bait”. But hear me out people! As what people would consider as a middle aged mother, I have watched the world and even the country I love change for the worst. I remember a time that you could walk down the street and not have to worry about the scary reality of someone picking you up on the side of the road and kidnapping you. Now kids it isn’t that it didn’t happen it is because it wasn’t like it was something that you seen on the 5 o’clock news like every day.

I can honestly say I am scared for our children. What kind of world are we living in that our own children are afraid to go to school because of gun violence? What kind of world do we live in that the biggest argument about a blockbuster movie is that it should be taken out of theaters because people claim it promotes violence against women, when in reality it is just a movie? Are we living in a world where we are now going to have to walk on eggshells just to keep everyone happy? 

I happen to like action movies and I happen to like movies where the protagonist can and is presented as a complete nut job.  The reason I don’t get bothered by something as simple as that is because it isn’t real. It isn’t real events. And if someone goes into a movie theater and snaps and does something that isn’t ok, is it the movie’s fault? Or could it just be society to blame for failing one of our children honestly?

Now this is not to say that this kid didn’t have a good life and is a complete sociopath, or psychopathic maniac. I am merely point out that we are spending way to much time blaming movies, music, cartoons and video games for something that cannot be solely put on them.

Go ahead people call me a keyboard warrior. Say sure lady you can say whatever you want behind your keyboard and computer screen. Can I back up what I am saying? Well I mean would I say the exact same thing in person that I say on here? I couldn’t give scientific proof if that is was someone wants to inquire about but I mean as far as my opinion will always be the same. You cannot blame real life violence and violent tendencies on something that isn’t real.

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Suffering Chronic Pain

So I found myself over the last decade suffering from chronic non stopping pain. No amount of over the counter medications do anything to help. It affects my mood due to the fact that I am constantly in non stop pain. I think to myself I should try CBD oils like everyone has be telling me to do so. You see thankfully we live in Canada where it is legal to consume marijuana. I mean this doesn't open up people to walk around surrounded by the big cloud of smoke as they drive down the street in their cars. But it does make people capable to go into designated store and buy what they need or desire... I actually have yet to go in to purchase anything from NSLC Cannabis and it has been legalized in Canada for almost a full year now. I guess it is because in fear judgement. But I need to do something, with permanently injured ankles, knee and now a rotator cuff injury I am potentially falling apart at 37 years old. Wish me luck though. I will eventually get to NSLC Cannabis to get the cbd oil I need to try for my pain. But if I am in pain it means I am not dead yet right?!