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everything is so much quieter at night and I love it

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It’s all inevitable and all his fault

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I still can't believe what happened yesterday lol

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i think merlin should have been wrapped in blankets more often, you know? for the plot

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everyone talks about cutting off a toxic parent

but no one ever talks about the pain of wanting a parent but knowing yours cannot love you the way they should

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Sorry to break yall's hearts but this is too well written of a post to not include in here.

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At 25 I learned that self care isn’t bubble baths and chocolate

It’s wrapping bandages on the marks on your arm so the pain would stop abit

It’s singing to yourself to stop crying

It’s forcing yourself and loving yourself and parenting yourself

To be your own father, your own mother, and your own .

And it’s so fucking hard …

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Where did y'all find this picture of me? *Le sigh*

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I'm barely alive at this point

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suele me curo raja como a los 10 minutos d empezar hrmn KSJSKSKSK si tengo moretones random es pq ae pasó bien eee

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probablemente yo

time to play the annual game of which of my family members are gonna get absolutely wasted to the point they can’t get home and have to spend the night on our couch

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no offense to myself but like what the fuck am i doing

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Listen to me. Listen. Listen to me. Please.

You don't have to earn the right to call the suffering you went through abusive.

I keep seeing people say, "I don't think I have a right to say I was abused because it was never physical," and "I don't have the right to say I was abused because it wasn't that bad," and most infuriatingly, "I don't have the right to say I was abused because I know I was loved."

Please. I am begging you.

I was abused in countless different ways for a long long time, and I am telling you, you are allowed to call your situation abusive.

You don't need permission, and I don't care if someone else 'has it worse.'

You are allowed to call it abuse.

It's okay. You aren't disrespecting anybody. You aren't taking attention away from "real victims." You can acknowledge your situation is fucked up. You can call it abuse.

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the urge to put myself in dangerous situations just to feel something

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