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Last 2 days!

7-25-17 Tomorrow is my last day. So crazy! I've been going to a lot of shows and events and it's a lot of fun. I don't know why I didn't go to all of this stuff earlier in my contract instead of the week I'm leaving lol. I went to a love and marriage show it was hilarious. I've also gone to some comedy shows and the crew also put on a singing competition tonight called the voice. I should've done it but it kinda slipped my mind. They had the spinny chairs and everything. After I got some pizza with some people and talked. I'll really miss these people. Hopefully I'll see them again on another boat. After that we all went and hung out in my first roommates room. Who would've thought that my second to last night I'd be spending my time drinking and laughing with my first roommate in my first room. It's currently 4am and I have to be at work at 8am so fuck me lol. I have to pack the rest of my stuff tomorrow. And also go to a sign off meeting. I think I'm signing off with the creepy magician which irks me. He's so scary and he always tries to talk to me and stuff. I'm signing off with a guy I know so maybe that'll be good. 7-26-17 Currently laying in bed for the last time. By comfy little top bunk bed. Tomorrow I'll be sleeping in my own bed at home. Without a roommate, without the noise of the elevator dinging, and on land with no chance of being sea sick. It's only been 2.5 months but I feel like I've been here forever. It's so sad to spend your time with these people literally 24/7 and then just leave. I definitely won't miss the food and the rocky boat but the people I've met will definitely be missed. I know I'll be in touch with many of these people after leaving. Packing was rough. I literally shoved everything in my 2 suitcases and carry on. I had to sit on my luggage so it would zip. I'm nervous to see how much they weigh. It's so weird to think tomorrow I won't be registering anyone, I won't be dancing at sail-away, and I won't be eating dinner at 6:00 right on the dot with the youth staff. I won't be waking up from drill announcements, and my toilet will actually flush the first time I try. I'll miss going to the shows. I've literally memorized every song, every harmony, and every dance move. Stuff like that makes me look forward to coming back and doing this all again. It's gonna be weird having to learn a new ship and new rules but I know it'll all be worth it. I'll miss you carnival Imagination.

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7/13-7/24

7-13-17 I got off work today at 10pm. I made rain go take pictures with me and see a comedy show. The comedian is from Chicago. Nice guy. The transformers and my little ponys were supposed to premier today but there was an issue on space and where they could change into their costumes. I can't wait to see what they look like. One of the guys who does one of the ponys is new. He's Israeli but lives in Canada. There's actually a handful of workers here that I've met who are Jewish. Lots of Israeli family's too. I looked on our tablet and the oldest person on this cruise is 104 year old. So crazy. No one from Missouri either. This boat has a shit ton of repeat cruisers because they all live so close to the port. I don't start until 2 tomorrow so I'm just gonna sleep in. I can't even tell you the last time I did that. I leave 2 weeks from today. So crazy. It's going by so slow thoughhhhhh. It's gonna be so weird being here for my last week without rain. And having a random roommate for a week too. 7-14-17 I have officially been here for 2 months. So crazy that I've only been here that short amount of time and I feel like I've been here forever. I met a family from stl. They didn't seem to care when I told them I was from there too lol. Their kids are in the hazelwood school district. Tonight I work the kids party which I've never done before. It's such a small space for the amount of kids that come to it it's insane. The kids love it though. I got to sleep in today which was so nice. Showed up late to lunch so I had to eat in the crew mess which was packed and didn't have a single table open. So I sat at the end of one of the long tables and tried to scoot away from the men sitting there. I've gotten really good at not making any eye contact with them. I'm seriously a pro now. I'm super excited because tomorrow I get off early enough to go see the epic rock show. I've seen the new cast do it once so I'm looking forward to it. Tonight I did the kids party for the first time. We had almost 50 kids in our tiny little room. There's not enough room at all. And it doesn't help that the room is long and narrow rather than having a big open space. Tomorrow is a sea day :/ hopefully the weather will be good so the parents take their kids to the pool. 7-16-17 I got to watch epic rock last night. Absolutely amazing as always. This cast has improved so much. They're so much fun to watch. I was supposed to get off today in Long Beach but my plans fell through with my friend so I ended up sleeping all day (I needed it, especially with going out the night before). Rain leaves in 4 days it's so crazy. During the sail away party today we had a camera crew come and record the ponys and transformers. It was the first time I had seen them and they were so freaking cool. This hasbro thing that we signed on to is a huge deal. Even the candy shop is completely filled with my little pony and transformer things. Seuss is not happy that we have another company on the boat. There's a lot of competition between them. 7-20-17 It's currently 6:30 in the morning and rain has officially left the boat. That was not an easy goodbye at all. I cried yesterday but this morning we were fine. I just got back to the cabin and it already feels so lonely. She's literally another version of me but from Texas and has a lot more hair than me lol. I know I'll see her again but it's just weird. I've been with her since day 1. We stayed up until 430 last night just talking. We have a new girl coming today. On the schedule it says she's moving into my room but I was never directly told of it so not sure if it's actually happening or not. It's her first contract. Hopefully I'll be able to help her out. It's been craziness around here. I leave a week from today. One more cruise in circle c and then 1 cruise in camp. I'm gonna be an emotional wreck. Lack of sleep doesn't help either. I've gotten so close to some of these people it's hard. I finally went parasailing with nick (gaston). Such a cool experience. I'll definitely be doing that again. I'm really sad to leave him. He's so talented it's insane. Watching him in the shows is so much fun. This past cruise was an interesting one. There was a girl from Australia that looked so much like my sister it was creepy. There were so many times I almost called her Jeri. We also had a boy who had a stroke when he was 9 and wasn't supposed to be able to walk or talk again. His hand and leg don't work that well but he still would help out with everything it was the sweetest thing. Our imagination Prom was really successful. We made it an under the sea theme and the girls made the funniest posters with tons of puns about the ocean and voting for them. I put up different colored blue streamers and blue balloons all around. This was my first group that actually danced to the music instead of just sitting there. 2 nights ago we had a stoplight theme party at the crew bar. You wear what color coordinates to your relationship status. So I wore green because I'm single. The shirt I wore was brand new and broke so that was nice. The DJ was set up outside which was really cool. It's where the smoking area is though :/ they had tons of stop light decorations it was so cool. I finally got to see the ponys and transformers in person. They're insane. It's impossible for me to get a picture because everyone is always wanting a picture and obviously the guests come first. The event they had was chaos. There's not enough room for the amount of people that actually show up to it and how things are set up is tricky too. This might be my last time off in Long Beach. I think me and Kody might get off around lunch and go eat somewhere. I kinda wanted to stop by the aquarium too. 7-20-17 I can't believe rain left today. I feel lost without her here. It's so weird. Me and kody woke up this morning to say bye to her when she left the ship. I know I'll see her again it just makes me sad that I don't know when. I went to lunch with kody and our new director. Then I went to Starbucks to check my laptop in which I discovered someone in Washington state used my debit card to by an XBOX game for $89.99...great way to start my morning. Xbox is refunding me but now I have to get a new card which is a huge hassle considering I'm leaving a week from today then going right to Chicago for the wedding. I also stopped by the aquarium to look at the gift shop. It's such a neat place. I don't think I'll be able to actually go though since this Sunday we have a meeting and I'm not sure what times I'll be working because I'll be in camp for that cruise. My kids this cruise are already super awesome and laid back. It felt really natural sitting there with them all night playing games and talking. I'm not sure what my last cruise schedule is so tomorrow could possibly be my last time in Ensenada. I'm starting to get nervous about packing. I don't even know where to start. It definitely helps that rains stuff is out and there's more space but it's still not gonna be fun. 7-22-17 Just finished my last cruise in circle c. Very bitter sweet. I'm ready to go home but at the same time it's gonna be so hard to adjust when I get back. We have people from corporate coming tomorrow so I had to stay even longer than 1 to clean extra well. There hasn't been air conditioning in circle c this entire time I've been here and recently it's been so bad. I've told numerous people about it and it still is not getting fixed. I get hot even when it's snowing so imagine how I am in there. A disgusting sweaty mess the entire time. 7-24-17 I can't believe I leave in 3 days. I don't think it's hit me yet. I packed and thankfully had enough room. I'm starting to get nervous thinking about saying bye to everyone. It's just weird thinking that I'll most likely never see them again. Possibly on other ships but you never know.

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7/6-7/11

7-6-17 I haven't written in here in awhile. There hasn't really been much to talk about. We have our new director who is much better than the one before her. I'm starting to want to go home. Things are really good right now but I'm bored and tired and just want to sleep. When I do have time off at a port I want to get off and do stuff but realistically I should be sleeping. I'm starting to get bags under my eyes and they're noticeable. My aunt and uncle picked me up today and we went to in n out and Target which was very nice. I needed to go shopping and I feel much better now that I have more stuff. I went shopping with rain on Sunday too. We went to the pike outlets. For the 4th of July we stayed in Catalina until night time so we could see their fireworks. It was so amazing having everyone out on the lido deck to see them. I've never been so close to fireworks it was awesome. I haven't been away for fireworks in a longgggg time. It's a tradition I have with my dad. There was also a 4th of July party for crew in the night club which was really fun. Just sucks that it started at 1130 and I don't get off until 1. Huge negative about working in circle c rather than camp ocean. 7-8-17 I'm so excited to go home. A lot of people are starting to leave and it's making me want to leave even more. I've been having a good time but thinking about being home and seeing everyone excites me. 7-9-17 Today felt like a long ass day. I'm in camp this week which means I get off early (10pm). We have a new thing onboard. Only our boat is doing it because they wanna try it out. It's through Hasbro. We have 4 new costumes: 2 my little ponys and 2 transformers. Each costume is around $60,000 it's insane. They're huge and very dangerous. The people doing the characters have to go through a lot of training it's insane. There's gonna be tons of events with the characters as well as games and prizes based around them. This will all be on the lido deck. Sounds like a lot of work but I guess we'll see. I only have 5 cruises left including this one. So crazy. I don't know how people do these long contracts. My situation was also very different than normal. I was told the other day that I was supposed to shadow the circle c leader for 2 weeks before starting but because everything was so out of whack I didn't. They just threw me in. I don't feel confident in what I'm doing because I don't know the things I should. I learn more and more everyday but there's things I should know that I just don't and people in camp get mad at me for. 7-10-17 Today was a good day. The schedule for this cruise is different because of the captain that passed away. I don't remember if I wrote about it in here or not. When I first got on board we had a captain who after about a month of me being here left temporarily for medical reasons. He ended up dying from cancer last week. I never met him but obviously he was our captain and that's a huge deal. I can't believe it's 10:00 and I'm already in bed. This has like never happened. I got off at 9 and went to the training center to do some of my trainings. I only have 4 left. Started with 15 so it's going somewhere! Today when I was with the 2-5 year olds one of the boys peed his pants and neither myself or the 2 other teachers noticed. Then one of our staff members who's a huge fucking old bitch came in and goes "Joey you're not paying attention to your children and he pee all over himself and the floor" as if I'm the ONLY on responsible for this child. The other day I was trying to figure out an issue with a parent and I missed the beginning of cleaning. When I came in that same lady goes "clean up your mess over there. You work here ya know?? So do your job." I just ignore her and don't give her the satisfaction that she wants. One of the new girls was talking to me about her and some of the others and she said we have 1 director and that's it. No one is in charge of you besides her therefore no one else should be telling anyone what to do. She's also not a fan of that lady. Our new director is great though. She's easy to talk to and very respectful. There's a lot of stuff we've been doing with our old director that was wrong. I'm glad we're learning the correct way now though. I'm pretty sure I'm ACTUALLY gonna go parasailing tomorrow. I'm going with one of the playlist performers. He looks like gaston from beauty and the beast. He's not into woman so don't get your hopes up. I start at 2 tomorrow so we have to go kinda early. I get off tomorrow at 1030 and rain gets off at 6. So jealous. 1030 isn't bad though at all. I can't believe I only have 4 more cruises after this one. And rain only has 2 after this. I cannot wait to be home. Leaving the boat is gonna be really tough though. This is all I've known for the past 2ish months. Working everyday. Eating shitty food. Not getting enough sleep. And being surrounded by all these different people. Also being with the same person every single day, rain. I'll also miss little things like getting off in Ensenada and seeing the seals. And going to the "resort" to lay out. I know the ins and out of this ship. It's been my home. I really think it would be amazing to see newer boats though and all they have to offer. Camp ocean on our boat looks like a doctors office waiting room no joke. It's ridiculous. There's no toys, no room, and everything is just so old. I wish there were pictures to compare our boat to the newer ones. It's insane how different they are. There's a family on this cruise as well as the last cruise with the last name Saltzman. I met the family on this cruise. They're last name comes from Germany. They're not Jewish. There's also a family with the last name Tran Saltzman. Kinda weird. Met them too. It's an Asian family. One of the Saltzman's on the boat is from Missouri too! But I haven't met him yet. Such a small world. I met a girl from Missouri the other day. It was so comforting to have her around to talk to. 7-11-17 The boat is SOOOO rocky right now. I got off at 1030 and came to my cabin to lay down. Rain and Kody convinced me to go to crew bar with them so I did but left because the rocking was just so bad. I got off in Catalina today to go parasailing. When we got there they told us the time slots they had were already when we had to be back for work :/ I talked to the excursion guy and he said to come talk to him on Sunday and he'll make a reservation for us. I'm so excited I've been wanting to go for so long.

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Day 38-46

6-22-17 Day 38: the wedding got approved so I'll be leaving July 27! Only 1 week after rain which is nice. 6-23-17 Day 39: I have been super busy recently. I've been trying to get off the boat when I can and if I don't then I'm sleeping. Our supervisor leaves in 6 days 🙌🏾 sometimes she's actually okay and I feel bad for talking badly but then again she's terrible. I'm so sick of her ending every single sentence with "heh?" Rain and I say it all the time now as a joke because it's so ridiculous how much she does it. Last night new kids came on. We only had 2 girls come in for registration...so I was stuck with boys the entire night. I think 2 of them are gay though and they're both fun to talk to. I like having girls in the club though that I can talk to and stuff. We have a boy with autism in my club this cruise. He's high functioning but does many awkward things like sing out loud in full blast and his body movements. He was also getting upset at the wii and the wii remote so he started hitting it. He has a brother in there but he doesn't always see him getting mad. These people in the crew mess put gloves on and eat their food it's so weird. They like squish it all together and shove it in their mouths it's absolutely disgusting. I've never seen anything like it. Today me Rain and Britny went out in Ensenada to the shops. I bought tons of souvenirs. The people working there a re so annoying. If you don't bug me then I would love to go in your store. They just nag at you and cat call. Rain got some piercings too which was kinda sketchy but it's all good. Had to go to work for 2 hours and not a single kid showed up so I went to my room shhhhh. It's elegant night so I have to look nice. I'll be seeing the new cast perform divas as well which I'm excited for. Hopefully it's better than the rock show. 6-24-17 Day 40: the diva show last night was actually really good. Some of it even sounded better than the last cast. But still doesn't compare. Woke up this morning to the worst Charlie horse I've ever had. I was screaming so loud I'm surprised no one heard me. I wore wedges last night so maybe that's why I got it but that never happens to me. I barely have any kids this cruise. Finally we had a girl join us yesterday and another one today. So 2 girls and tons of boys. The boys are so funny though and always bring me stuff. One of them is really into himself though and the money he has. He gave me a fidget spinner though so that was nice! I asked him if I could have it though lol. He has like 10...and he also has numerous pairs of Yeezys (shoes) that are hundreds of dollars and some are even thousands. We have our new supervisor coming tomorrow. And then Carolina will leave after the next 4 day cruise I believe. I'm excited to meet the new supervisor and see how she changes things and how the vibe of work is. 6-25-17 Day 41: this week I'm in camp ocean. I asked my supervisor to schedule me earlier in the day because there's tons of trainings I have to do for Circle c and the training center isn't open when I'm off work. I just tried to go and do my training and the videos will not load. The lady said you have to give it time and patience and I did try but the stupid thing doesn't work. She said the internet sometimes works and sometimes doesn't and I just have to test my luck. But I got mad and left. And she's not a nice person either and I didn't feel like dealing with her. I got off at 7pm tonight which was amazing. I haven't had a single day where I could just relax and not have to set an alarm for the next thing I have to do. The new supervisor came today and it's her bday. I think we might all go to crew bar for it tonight. I had to do embarkation this morning and hand out flyers. These people are so stupid. The questions they ask are mind boggling. And the rudeness is taken to a whole new level. Workers have actually been getting better with the rudeness. Crew still sucks but certain staff members are very sweet and polite. 6-28-17 Day 44: I've been super busy and haven't had much time to write in here. There's been a lot going on and not that much sleep. I met a boy a little over a week ago and we've hung out everyday since. He says I'm his gf but not really sure what his definition of gf is. He's from Ukraine and speaks Russian. He's a very nice guy, it just makes me nervous getting to know someone and having to possibly say goodbye and never see each other again. But for now I'm having fun and we'll see. He tells me a lot about Ukraine. There's war going on there. He was in the army before he got this job. He said Ukraine is very expensive. He said a police officer makes $1000 a year and a teacher makes $100 a month. So technically he's considered rich because of all of the money he is making here in America. He thinks America is very cheap. He's taught me a little Russian but it's not going so well lol. His English has definitely improved since we met though. We use a translator if he doesn't understand. I've never noticed how much we use slang until I met him. I have to really think about what I'm saying before I say it. I got off at 7 tonight which was really nice. Some of these kids we have are so bad it's mind boggling. We had one kid going around hitting people, throwing stuff at them, and snatching toys from everyone. His dad did not care one bit. It's hard for me to comprehend how these children act so terrible and their parents don't do a damn thing about it. We've had lots of drama this cruise. One family in particular have filed over 10 complaints to carnival. Ranging from the music played in the night club, to someone making fun of her handwriting, and even that her daughter is being bullied. A lot of extra drama that causes many issues at camp because there's always someone to blame. I've been thinking a lot about what I wanna do with my next contract. If I do circle c I'll be on my own. I'll plan my own activities, play my own music, and be around teens that I can talk with. But I have the same schedule every week and get off at 1 every night. If I did camp I'd have a different schedule every week and I'd be working with other people. But that means changing diapers and having to deal with annoying screaming children. Getting off early is really great though and makes me feel like I actually have a life. I have a lot to think about. 6-29-17 Day 45: 28 days left. I jinxed myself by talking about my bf. Last night he came in my room to tell me they were sending him home early. As in today. I was a hysterical mess all night it was so sad. He assured me everything will be fine. But it's hard to believe when he's across the world and we can only communicate through an app. He said he wants to FaceTime and keep talking. He said I should ask my supervisor to send me to his next boat which he goes on august 29. He also said he would look into getting a travel visa to America and vise versa. I'm so heart broken. I haven't felt like this in so long. Everyone would say the way he treated me and the way he looked at me they could just tell how much he liked me. Always calling and wanting to see me. We would stay up and just talk for hours (well try to through the language barrier). It feels so weird being in my room alone without him. I don't know when he'll be able to talk next. He left cali today at 6. His flight is 10 hours to Europe and then a few to Ukraine. There's also a time change and he didn't sleep last night so I know that'll take a toll too. When he gets wifi he said he would add me on viber so we can talk but I just don't know when that will be. I'm honestly ready to come home now. He made this so much fun for me and made me so happy. I'm gonna have anxiety until we finally talk. And even then I'll still be freaking out. Wifi on the boat is terrible. It just makes me nervous. Now I have even more to think about when it comes to my next contract. Relationships on these boats are real, it just depends how much you actually want it to work or not. I haven't been able to think much of anything else. He kept telling me not to worry and be happy but it's hard. I'm happy he gets to go home to his family and dog though. 6-30-17 Day 46: Today was a better day than yesterday. Still waiting for him to message me on viber but I know it'll take some time. Work was good today. Had some trainings and got off at 6 which is so nice. I really think I'll do camp next contract rather than circle c. But we'll see on what options I have.

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Day 30-35

6-13-17 Day 30: I was told that I wasn't approved to leave a week before my sign off date for my cousins wedding and papas birthday. My mom already bought my plane ticket and everything. My mom emailed the lady who denied the request so hopefully something can be changed. We're technically over staffed so there's no reason for it to not get approved. I would only be leaving a week early, that's it. I also went to st Nicholas (the resort) and laid out. It was so relaxing. And it feels good to wake up and not sleep all day. After work me and Rain went to the crew mess to see what food they had. We started walking and saw something weird from the side door. So we kept walking and sitting there was an entire pig completely cooked and cut open. It was terrifying. And it was stuffed with all of this weird stuff. I completely lost my appetite. Tomorrow is day at sea so it's gonna be a long day. And of course I'm still awake at 3am. It's hard when I don't get off until 1ish and I'm wide awake. 6-14-17 Day 31: sea days fucking suck. I started at the slide. We have 3 with only a worker at 2 of them. Some random worker comes up to me and just hands me a walkie talkie and then walks away. Doesn't say a word. I was switching through all of the channels until I finally heard a police signal. They were looking for a red mustang and were saying all of these codes. I was so confused. Finally I found a worker and asked him which station I should be on. I then had a parent come up to me complaining about how there wasn't an attendant on the little slide. He said there were tons of kids getting hurts as well as one of his. He was not happy and was putting it out on me. I apologized and said I would let someone know. And at this time I didn't know which channel we were supposed to use for the walkie talkie. The communication here is terrible. And the language barrier obviously doesn't help. Some girl came up to me and said you're the first American worker I've met! Which is true. We have a steward that comes and makes our beds everyday and changes the towels. For the past 4 days he's come in and made my bed as well as given us fresh towels but has not touched rains bed. We never see our steward so we haven't been able to ask him. It's so confusing yet so humorous at the same time. Our room looks so nice and then rains bed is all over the place because he hasn't touched it! We have this thing where guests can submit feedback and if they mention our name we get a shout out. If we get 10 shout outs we get a day off. I got 2 last week and 1 this week. It seriously feels so good that I was the reason someone had an amazing vacation. And that these guests went out of their way to recognize me and my hard work. A mom came in today and gave me and Alina gifts. They were rocks she had painted herself. They were so cool. She was Israeli too 😋 I met a family in camp today. They have 9 kids and another one that passed away. Their mom home schools them because they're moving to Honduras in September for a mission trip and are living there for a year. The oldest is 21 and the youngest is 1. It's so cool to get to know these families. And when the kids hug us goodbye and the parents thank us and truly mean it, it's means the world to me. I also met another family with 9 kids. It's crazy to me. And the youngest 2 were twins and were so cute yet so annoying. I miss my kids back at home so much. Typical kids are so annoying and have so much drama. My kids at home are exciting and bring something new to me everyday. There's actually a huge amount of kids who come on the boat who have autism but I don't always have them in my age group. Right now it's 3:03am. I went to crew bar after work. I met a new girl a few days ago from Tennessee. Her name is Candace. She sings in one of the bands. She's super nice and I love having another American around. Because she's a singer she has her own room. Today we got a list of boats and the positions they need. Rain and Alina are signing on to the breeze in September and October. That boat has a circle c position starting in November which is a huge possibility for me. I need to request it tomorrow before it's too late. I need to find somewhere to bring my laptop and eat where there's good wifi. Thankfully packages will come tomorrow too. I haven't been taking a few of my medications the past few days because I ran out and they didn't get here in time. Which is probably why I had a bladder spasm today and yesterday. NOT GOOD. Also got some paperwork today that said MR again. I've corrected them so many times and they can't get it right. Kinda like the Filipinos (I finally spelled it right) who don't know the difference between he and she and her and him. The notes they write to the parents are comical. "You child great. She love play with toy. The boy make a friend and has polite." No joke that's what they say. There's also tons of mistakes in the schedules we give out to guests which is super frustrating. This week my name wasn't on the schedules given out to the parents which sucks because they reference those when it comes to writing reviews. There was names of 2 girls who I've never even met...aka they were on the boat 2 months ago. If I see a mistake I just circle it and put it on our supervisors desk so she doesn't know who did it. Oops 😶 I want it to be tomorrow so I can sleep and get stuff done! I also forgot to write about what happened this morning. In the Kiera of my dead sleep I hear loud weird music. I sit up and realize it's coming from the announcements. The bridge (where the captains are) accidentally turned their awful music on and everyone who was in their cabins could hear it. It went on for a good hour as I smashed my head between the pillows. It was comical at first and then I was just flat out furious. 6-15-17 Day 32: today I got off in Long Beach by myself. I took an uber to a local outlet mall where I sat at Starbucks and got some stuff done with the wifi. We were given a list of positions needing to be filled for the rest of the year so I went and did some research on all the boats. I also set up my account on how to get paid from here. They give us a debit card that the money goes on. We can do direct deposit but it wasn't working for me :/ I also sent my dad a Father's Day gift card online. Then I went across the street and ate at California pizza kitchen. I got to face time my mom and update my phone and stuff. Then I learned there's a bus that I could've used for free that goes from the terminal to the outlets. Poop. I didn't know how to use it though so I just took an uber back too. I asked my supervisor about requesting a boat and she said I can't do it until I have my evaluation. When I asked her when my evaluation would be she said "before you leave" well no fucking shit before I leave. I told her the position I want is going to be taken by then and she didn't respond and just kept looking at her computer. She's such a shitty person it's like humorous. We have this other lady we work with who acts like she's our supervisor and she's not. I've literally never even had a conversation with her yet she thinks she can boss us all around. She confronted me about how I turned off the tv and how I didn't do it right. There was a sign saying to not turn off with a certain button and that's the one I turned it off with. Obviously if I would've saw it I wouldn't have touched it. It was a mistake lady...speaking of mistakes, so we are all required to write notes to the parents about their kids and how they've been doing (it's meant to help us get good ratings) well today I decided to read some and I was totally taken aback. These people do not know how to speak English. I felt embarrassed giving them out to the parents because the letters make absolutely no sense at all. It's so awkward. And one of the ladies wrote all the same things on all the cards and put a line where a name would be. Once she met the kids she went in and wrote their names on the line. Like obviously a parent is gonna know what that means, it means everyone is being given the same card and they're just going in and writing all the names down which isn't the point of them. Went to go pick up my packages today and my medication still isn't here. So I haven't been on 3 of my medications since Sunday. And my mom called Sunday and they said they would over night them here which obviously didn't happen. None of them are super serious but I've definitely been getting bladder spasms now that I'm off one of the medications. I'm also off my thyroid medicine as well as my medication that helps me stay awake during the day. I'll have to call my mom tomorrow and tell her but there's nothing she can do because we can't get mail until Sunday. 6-17-17 Day 34: I had no time to post yesterday. I've been so exhausted I sleep every chance I can. Even when I need to eat a meal or shower I've just been sleeping instead because it's so needed. There's been so much unnecessary drama around here it's crazy. Yesterday we had a mom come in asking to talk to "Ms Candy" because supposedly she called her daughter big and chubby. We apologized to the mom on behalf of ms candy (she wasn't there anymore) and explained to her that there's a language barrier and was probably the main reason behind the comment. The mom was understanding but that's hard for a 10 year old girl to hear. I can't believe our playlist cast is leaving tomorrow. I've gotten to know all 8 of them so well. It's very bittersweet. I'm excited to see how the new cast performs though. It's hard to imagine that anyone could possibly do any better than what we have now. I met a family yesterday who has 5 biological children and fosters 3 on top of that. And their youngest son has autism, so of course I'm already obsessed with them. It's crazy how many kids come on the boat who have autism. I love being able to interact with them. Everyone always asks me advice on how to work with them and make it a great experience for the child. I seriously talk about my kids back at home so much I feel like everyone is so sick of hearing it lol. I saw a shit ton of dolphins today. They were right next to the boat. I might get off tomorrow and go to the beach at Long Beach. I HAVE to get my hair cut it's like humorous how awful it looks. It's like I'm a human paintbrush and my hair is the bristles. Rain did my laundry with hers :p so blessed lol. I went to the candy store today on board. They have the cutest stuff there. They're starting to put them on all the ships. We have some people from the office on the boat. They told us that they have 4 new boats that they're working on. They said eventually they're gonna have a boat that sails to china. I'm actually really content on work at the moment. Yeah I'm really tired but moving in with Rain has helped a lot. It feels good to have someone I can go do stuff with and I conveniently always know where she is. There's obviously a lot of negatives about my work environment and my supervisor who has a stick up her fucking ass, but there's so many positives that come with it as well that make this experience so much fun. I worked night owls this whole week (10pm-1am) last pickup time is 1245 and the parents are told this every time. Yet we still are calling parents at 1 having to remind them that their children are in our care and they need to come pick them up. It's so irresponsible. And half the time the parents are wasted. Parents are also allowed to check out a phone but just return them before 10pm on the last night which never happens either. Tonight one of the late parents came in and literally just threw his trash on the ground. These poor kids are passed the fuck out, so tired, and their parents leave them there all night. I'm off now and I'm eating at crew mess alone. Which I'm okay with besides the stares. I've had a headache all day though so I needed to eat something. We have to be at a meeting tomorrow at 930 to meet with some people from the office. I seriously need to sleep in so badly but not sure when that's gonna happen. I start in circle c tomorrow. It's so weird switching back and forth. And being alone in there is hard as well. Especially during high count which is now. 6-19-17 Day 35: I finally got my haircut yesterday. Winslow picked me up. Got about 3-4 inches off. The lady charged me way too much though and she didn't even wash my hair. I was so mad. I didn't question it though because I was in a rush ugh. I started my week at circle c yesterday. No joke had 30-40 kids in there at one time it was not okay. One of the moms asked if I was alone and when I said yes I could tell she was worried for me. She told me I was doing a good job though which was nice. A lot of the kids think they're too cool for my club and it makes me so mad. Like then don't come if you think it's too babyish. I got to sleep in today 🙌🏾 I had a training at 130 that only lasted 30 minutes. Such a waste of time I could've been sleeping! It was an environment training. They train us on the weirdest things. Yesterday 2 of the people from the office came. They're the ones that hired me. I talked to one of them about not getting approved to leave for my cousins wedding and she's going to look more into it for me. She thinks the week I'm requesting to leave we'll actually be overstaffed because of an event on board so it may work in my favor! We got to talk to one of the ladies about issues we're having. She said Circle c is going to be getting an iPad that kids can request songs on. Right now we're using cds...and the most recent is from 2015. The office thought we had one this entire time...she was also confused as to why I was only here for 3 months and why I'm switching on and off from camp to circle c every week. Seems like the office doesn't know their shit. Even today when I signed in at my training it said my position was club O2. And the other day one of my papers said MR. So frustrating. It's 230 and I have work at 4. I'm gonna take a nap because I have nothing else to do and I'm tired af. Tonight I got to see the rock show with the new cast. Not. Good. They don't even come close to our old cast. It kinda made me so sad. People come and go here so fast it sucks. I have 2 brothers in my club. One of them has autism and the other one supposedly doesn't. The one who "doesn't" is out of control. He is constantly in my space and not listening to me. He asked me for just dance 16. I told him we didn't have it. He asked me at least 4 more times why we don't have it and if we have it. I told him no and then he asks if he can look in the office just to make sure we don't have it. I told him no and that they are not allowed in there in which he walked right in. There's also been numerous times where I've been talking to a parent and he'll come over and interrupt because he wants me to do something. I don't have a problem with having him in the club but I wish his parents would use a little common sense and supervise their kids more. They come and go as they please which is okay, but the mom never knows where they are and doesn't understand how their behavior towards me and the other kids is hard on everyone. At first the boys registered themselves so we didn't even know that one of them had a disability. On top of that I have tons of kids this cruise which makes it hard and I'm getting sick.

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Day 23-29

6-6-17 Day 23: I totally forgot to write the other day about passing out fliers. You have to pass out schedules for circle c around the lido deck. I went up to these 2 girls and said "are either of you in between the ages of 12 and 14" one of the girls looks at me and says I'm 20...and she's 18" I just said okay! And walked away. I was so embarrassed. Training was good today. Besides the fact that I couldn't keep my eyes open. After that me Elle and Rain took a long ass taxi ride to where all the shops are as well as baby tigers! We got to hold one and it was amazing. I'll seriously never forget that. The view on the way was incredible as well. Ensenada is pretty nasty but driving up the mountains and getting to see the entire area was so cool. There's random houses all over the mountain. It's a really dirty area though. Lots of random animals and just crap everywhere. It's so weird to me that people live there and have a life there. The ocean there is very dirty. And not a beach people go to for pleasure. It's full of seals and it smells horrible. The kids in my club are fucking crazy. I'm sitting up on the sports deck because we were playing capture the flag. One of the boys from the older club sat by me and we were talking (we met the first night he's hilarious) He started telling me that earlier when I wasn't there one of my kids climbed over the railing and was facing towards the ocean with his arms holding him from behind him...I seriously had no words. The boy told me that people were bugging the guy and he thought they would think he was cool if he did it. I saw the boy later and asked him about it. He told me he has no self esteem so he did it. At first I was joking around with him and said "so I heard you were hanging around today". And then he got all serious and I felt bad. He told me it meant a lot to him that I cared. Some of the other kids told me another one of my kids was doing it too. I later found that kid sleeping in a booth on the lido deck lol. It's 1:48 and I'm laying in bed. My roommate has slept out ever since I told her that her bf snores. And tonight he's sleeping here. She didn't say anything to me about it, he just came in and they're in her bed. I'm praying my room switch request gets approved so I can move in with Rain. I'll be much happier. I start work at 12 tomorrow so I can sleep in a little. It's a sea day tomorrow so lots of work and little rest. 6-7-17 Day 24: these hot flashes are literally taking over my life here. This morning I took a shower and put some lotion on my face then went and ate. I sat down and touched my face and the lotion was melting down my face it was so gross. There's literally no reason for this to be happening. It affects my whole day. Because then my hair gets nasty and I have to put it up and I just feel like I look like shit. Me and my kids watched the magician today. He's seriously amazing it freaks me out. And now he says hi to me whenever he sees me with his big ass eyes and his top hat. We also had team building an hour ago. They bought snacks for us while we were in Ensenada and they're so much better than American chips. The Doritos and cheetos in Ensenada have a tang to it. And a little spice. Our next meeting will be saying bye to Eleanor :( I'm very excited tomorrow is a port day in Long Beach. If it's nice enough I might go relax at the beach or something. My kids this cruise were seriously insane. They never listened to me which was really upsetting. They would literally throw their candy wrappers and stuff on the floor and never cleaned up any of their shit. Rain said I need to start being more strict and tell them that I will call their parents if they're not going to listen. Of the couples in my club kissed last night. It was the girls first kiss. She was so excited to tell me it was so cute. Yesterday I was given a binder that said O2 and circle c and the word shhhhhh on the front. There was a page in there discussing an incident on a prior cruise and that the family was coming back. Little did I know that one of the daughters was in my club and that me and her dad had been chatting the entire cruise. He even told another family to come and see joey at circle c. He tipped me $10 too. I'm so happy that I was able to make their experience better this time. Last cruise they went on was the dad grandma and 2 kids. They were in 2 rooms that were connected. The shower head in one of the rooms burst and completely flooded the room. The boat they were on did not have any open rooms that were connected and the family said it wasn't possible for them to not be together. So carnival paid for someone to pick them up at the next port and drive them back to Long Beach, completely missing the entire rest of the cruise. This time around was much better for them and I'm super happy that I was apart of that. There's been lots of drama going on. The other circle c girl supposedly "hates me" because I brought to my directors attention that the hard drive was missing in the stereo that plays the music. The other circle c girl was having the DJ put new music on it. For some reason she thought it was a huge deal that I went to our director and she told one of the girls that she hates me lol. She also thinks I do certain things in the club when really it's our supervisor or housekeeping. She had boxes she was saving and questioned me where they went. Answer: housekeeping threw them away. Same situation happened with something one of the kids made her that kept falling off the door. And the most recent was how our director took her name off of the door (in huge letters she put her name up) and she thinks it was me. She also questioned me on where the twister game was when it was on the shelf the entire time. Like bitch this is my position. You were subbing until I got here and now you need to step back. It makes me so mad because I didn't do anything wrong. And if I did I would own up to it. No roommate and bf tonight :) which means I can sleep in peace without hearing moans from her bf in the middle of his sleep. But we all know she'll come in tomorrow morning and turn the light on as if I'm not even here. I can't wait to move in with Rain. But it's bittersweet with Eleanor leaving. I might get off tomorrow. I need a new water bottle. The one I've been using that I bought right before I left is leaking. This little piece of rubber came off the lid and now it leaks if it's not upright. It was seriously the size of a grain of rice. I need to also buy those balls you can put in your shoes to make them smell better. I've never had issues with smelly feet my entire life and now it's taking over my cabin. I'm even wearing brand new socks so it has to be my shoes. I wear them all day everyday so that's most likely the issue but damn it's an awful smell. 6-8-17 Day 25: I am so bipolar about this job. When I'm having fun I think it's the most amazing thing in the world. And when it's bad I want to leave so badly. Today was good for a little. I went out to eat with Rain Elle and my roommate Stephanie. It was nice to eat out somewhere. I forgot to set up circle c before I left and thankfully my supervisor didn't realize. She wants me to try and pass out at least 20 fliers and it's impossible. I can't tell who's in between 12-14 and half of them are in the pool. I'm supposed to document 20 though. I met my kids and it's a really small group. They're pretty weird and immature compared to my other groups. My supervisor called me to let me know that they moved down a 17 year old who has autism to my club (there are special times when we are able to do this). I sat in my club waiting and a dad and his son arrived. Right away I knew that's the family my supervisor was talking about. The boy was extremely close to me and shoving his card in my face. He instantly went from one game to the next and it made everyone feel extremely awkward. I went through normal procedure and asked the dad (who was also odd) if his son had any food allergies or special needs in which he said no. The dad left and I called my supervisor wanting to clarify that the family I just met was the one she told me about prior. She said the 17 year old with autism was a girl and that the boy that was in my club was someone else. I immediately started to freak out inside. This boy was the definition of high functioning autism. He was extremely close to everyone and didn't understand personal space. All of the other kids kept looking at me because they were so uncomfortable and didn't understand what was going on. I looked over and the boy was practically sitting on one of the other boys laps because he was trying to sit in the window with the others. I called my supervisor to let her know what was going on. I was in such shock that the dad said his son had no special needs. I'm not a doctor but I can easily tell when someone is special and needs a little extra care. I guess we'll see how tomorrow goes but by seeing his behavior tonight it makes me nervous, especially knowing that the parents don't admit to their son needing extra care. It's hard to explain to people from other countries how autism works. I've really tried to make it clear that when it comes to autism I know what I'm doing. People from other countries that I work with look at it as it's nothing or children that don't need special care. It's hard to explain that to them. So for me to tell my boss that this boy needs extra help doesn't mean anything to her. It's hard. If he comes back tomorrow I am going to try and explain to the kids that he is different and to try and go about their activities in a normal manner. If it becomes an issue then I will talk to his parents. After work I went to crew bar with Elle and Rain. I freaking love going to the crew bar. It's fun to gossip. There's been lots of drama with the other girl doing circle c. She told one of my coworkers that she hates me and wants to beat me up. So nice right? She got in trouble the other day because she took the hard drive from circle c with the music on it and didn't return it. And somehow that's my fault. Her boxes and something else a kid made for her got thrown away by housekeeping yet I'm to blame for it. If I did something wrong I would 100% own up to it. But I didn't and it's not fucking fare. I brought it up to my supervisors attention. When I got home tonight my name tag on my door was on the ground. I have it held up by multiple magnets so it's impossible it "fell down". I'm going to ask my supervisor if she can bring alannah in so we can talk because this is ridiculous and I don't deserve it at all. She's salty because I took her position when in reality she was subbing until I got here. And I'm here and she still switches with me every week. I don't know why it bothers me so much. She's going to my friends and talking shit and I did nothing. 6-9-17 Day 26: I had crowd control training this morning. It was actually really interesting. Especially on my ship because we have 4 and 3 day cruises aka a drunken mess of people that don't want to listen. In an emergency guests are told to go to their cabin and grab medication, warm clothing, and their life jacket and then walk to their muster station. Which I personally feel is so unrealistic. If I heard an emergency signal my ass would be up on a deck, not down into the boat. After training I went to st nicholas (the "resort" in Ensenada. I went with the other intern Sarai (britnys roommate). The weather was perfect. The people there don't speak any English. Sarai asked for queso and the guy had no idea what we were saying. The food there is cheap though and really good. And authentic! I got a salad and chips and guacamole. We have a burrito bar on board at the lido bar. It's kinda like chipotle where you can go up and pick what you want. It's only open at lunch though so I've only had it a few times. Life on board is definitely getting better. I've been having a lot of fun recently but when it comes to my supervisor it just goes downhill. The kids are super fun and everything is always great until she says 1 little thing and it just completely changes my way of thinking. She blames things on whoever is closest to her at that time. I was in club O2 the other day for karaoke and she yelled at me because the scissors were out...wtf that's not my club. I was just sitting here watching my kids do karaoke and somehow the scissors are my problem. The girl in charge of O2 was right there...she did it with Rain the other day too. The cd turned off during registration while I was in there. Rain walked in a little later and my supervisor questioned her as to why the music wasn't on...she was working on the slide the entire time. Makes no sense. It's little things like that that are unnecessary and need to stop. We have a new supervisor coming soon 🙌🏾 I can't take her much longer. I got to take my kids to the show tonight. Our cast is so amazing I don't even have words. I get chills every single time I watch them perform. We also did Imagination prom tonight. The kids loved it and the prom queen and king were so cute. He even bought her a bracelet today while off the ship with her name on it. Supposedly they kissed and all the kids came running at me screaming THEY KISSED THEY KISSED! All the guests were staring at me like wtf? Some drunk guest sat down next to me and would not stop talking to me. He just kept repeating himself and going into weird topics. As I'm sitting there trying to write notes to my kids and their parents. I went to the crew bar after work. I love getting to talk to people there and get to know them. And then there's the random weird guys that come up and try and hit on you but don't understand when to stop or to just not do it at all. Tomorrow is a sea day and for some reason I work the most out of our entire youth department.....which is annoying and doesn't make sense. I also have a cut in my nose that will not go away and it hurts so bad. It keeps getting worse too. 6-10-17 Day 27: wow today was long (sea day) we had karaoke up in club O2 and my ears were seriously bleeding. These older boys thought they were so freaking cool and would hold the microphone but have it down at their hips. They were screaming every single song and would like jump on each other while they were "singing". I kept yelling at them and I could tell they were like who the fuck is this girl? After we went back down to circle c and hung out. The boat was incredibly rocky. I had some of my kids go get me pizza because I felt so nauseous and eating usually helps. After we had a staff meeting where we said bye to Eleanor. They all know she's allergic to seafood yet as her going away food they got sushi...I also got approval to move in with Rain which will happen tomorrow morning at 845, which will be tricky because Elle doesn't leave until 10. After the break I napped and then went right back to work. I was so close to tears tonight. These kids were making me so upset. The disrespect is insane. I shouldn't have to remind a 14 year old to not throw your pizza crust on the ground if you don't want it...there was tons of drama with them tonight. Prom king and queen kissed last night. They were "together" and so was the 2 runner ups. Well today was different and the relationships changed. So then the prom king was kissing the other girl who was runner up! They were actually making out in my club I had no words. Then another "couple" were kissing and holding hands and hugging each other as if your hugging your loved one who is leaving for the war or something. While this all happened I sat there nauseous as ever sorting rubber bands by their color. There's one girl in the club who is sooooo annoying and during karaoke she thought she was a freaking pop star singing sensation. She was AWFUL. She's like one of those people that go on American idol and think they're gonna win and they don't even make it past the first round. She had this huge round belly and would do just dance all day. I tried to stay away from her as much as I could because I couldn't handle her and then she comes up to me and goes joey I'm gonna miss you so much (I didn't even know how to pronounce her name) I felt really bad after that because I was being so sassy towards her. Then I started to clean Circle c and noticed some writing on the ledge above the couch. She fucking wrote rionna was here (in pen) I seriously don't understand what goes through these kids minds! She writes her name in pen on a perfectly white surface. I could not get it off to save my life. I really wish I would've called her parents. I was so mad I just ignored all of them the rest of the night. Their drama is so petty and honestly sad. It makes me cringe watching it. After work I stopped at crew bar for Eleanor's last night. Rain couldn't stop crying. They've been together since the start. Almost 6 months. I've only been here a month and thinking of being here without Elle is really weird to me. I seriously love her and will miss her a lot. Now I have to find another English friend so I can enjoy their accent everyday ❤️ 6-11-17 Day 28: I have officially been on this boat for a month. Which is absolutely crazy to me. If I get approved to leave early for my cousins wedding then I'll only have 6 weeks left. Rain leaves in 5 weeks. We had to say bye to Elle this morning. She did not like this job though and wanted to leave so badly so I'm happy for her. And now that she left I got to move in with Rain. I already love it so much more. And I actually have hooks I can use because Rain actually knows how to share. Last night the other circle c girl came up to me and the bar and said if I've been hearing things to not listen. She said she doesn't hate me and if there's ever a problem she will just tell me. She said she's been upset because I came in and took her position so she was salty. She also got mad about the hard drive the other day, but she left another youth staff alone and she wasn't supposed to do that. I didn't get off today. I caught up on my sleep which was amazing of course. We had a new guy coke today. His name is kody. He's from Canada. This isn't his first contract though so he kinda knows what he's doing. He seems really fun though. He's only here for 7 weeks on a swing contract which is what I want to do. Rain and Alina are going on the breeze in September and October which could be a huge possibility. I just don't think I can do 6 months. Work tonight was pretty chill. I did night owls which is supposed to go until 1am but we didn't have any kids so we got to leave at like 1145. It was great. I went to crew bar with Rain and Alina. The new cast of performers (divas) came today. I met a couple of them. Nothing will compare to what we have now though. We went up after and got pizza in shorts and a t-shirt which isn't allowed but it felt so good to just relax in my own clothes for once. I swear every single time I go to get ice cream the machine is off. I just want something sweet 😳. I might get off at Catalina tomorrow. I want to lay out but only britny can get off and she has to be back at 2 whereas I have to be back at 5. I've really been thinking about my next contract and if I want to do one or not. A bigger cruise that goes to better places and is a week long compared to 4 and 3 day cruises would be so much better. The clubs would be bigger and updated compared to this boat. There's a ton of staff members on the boat but you feel like there's no one. I pretty much know everyone that's well known on here. 6-12-17 Day 29: I got off in Catalina for the first time today. It's interesting to me that it's still technically an American port because it's in Baja, California. It has these huge mountains with the most amazing houses on them. There's also tons of shops and places to eat. The shops are like actual stores though, not a bunch of people standing outside begging you to buy their stuff. We ate at a place called luau larrys. It was great to eat some normal food. Next time I definitely want to go parasailing and look at the rest of the island. Britny had to go back early so we didn't get to do much. Just looked in 1 store and ate lunch. We don't have a port in Catalina (which they also call Avalon) so we have to take tender boats back and forth from the ship. It's only like a 3 minute ride but it takes a lot of time waiting for the tenders and loading and unloading. Whereas in Ensenada you can just walk right off the boat but there's nothing to do. There's also quite a walk until you even get into town. Probably like a 5-10 minute walk. And Ensenada smells like absolute shit. There's seals everywhere which I assume has a big reason to do with that. It's also very industrial. There isn't a view there. Just shops and their main attraction which is the blowhole but it's a 45 minute drive. I definitely want to see that before I leave. I'm settled into my new room. The bathroom here is even smaller than the last room which I didn't know was possible. When I go to the bathroom I have to rest my arm up on the sink because it's not possible for me to have it down. The toilet in here also doesn't really work well so you have to put water in it from the shower to help it flush 🙃 being able to get off the ship and do fun things on the boat definitely make it all worth it. I love going to the performances, the comedy shows, and just getting to meet so many people from around the world. Our supervisor is leaving on June 29 and then we get a new one who is from America. I'm so excited about that. I feel like work will be more realistic with the new supervisor. I'm also still waiting on my uniform...I have pants and I have polos that say camp ocean (which is every other week for me) and 1 jacket that says club O2 (which I don't work in at all). I don't have a single thing that says circle c which is my actual job. And I also don't have shorts or the main jacket that everyone wears. Our supervisor said she ordered them when I first got here but now I'm not sure what to believe. I had night owls tonight. We had a lot of kids but they ended up leaving early. Then we only had 2 siblings who told their parents they wanted to stay until 1 (when we close) even though there was no one else there...very frustrating. I've been going to bed so late every night. It's almost 2am and I've just been sitting in bed for an hour. I've been going to crew bar pretty much every night. There's nothing else to do otherwise. Shows are usually from 8-11 which I can't go to if I'm Circle c and not this week either because I'm night owls. I don't start my days until later because of it but then I sleep all day rather than getting up and doing something. Tomorrow I'm getting off and going to the "resort" to lay out.

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Photo of me in bathroom is to show you how I can pee and brush my teeth at the same time. Or if I wanted to take a nap while peeing. Red photo is of me and one of the Divas (the performers) he's absolutely amazing. The gold background is me and Rain at a crew party. The one of me alone is in Ensenada. There's not much beauty to it. And the other is me and Rain in the elevator

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Day 19-22

6-2-17 Day 19: I was able to get off the ship today in ensenada. We went to the "resort" that we went to last time. This time I got burnt. Only one person said something though compared to when I was burnt on my cruise in march and no one would leave me alone. The lady goes "are you okay?" And I was so confused until she touched her face lol. I got a strawberry daiquiri while I was at the resort and when it got to me there was salt on the rim...I thought it was sugar so I took a huge lick of it. Why the hell would you put salt with a strawberry daiquiri?? Then I sipped it and there was salt in the drink! I was so confused. Maybe it's Mexico thing? So I told the guy at the bar who doesn't speak and English that it was disgusting and salt doesn't go with a strawberry daiquiri and they said I didn't have to pay for it. I can seriously still taste it. After that I did the build a bear workshop. They had me stitching the bears which I had no idea how to do. I finally got the hang of it and at the end I was told I was tying them all wrong haha. I was with the 9-11 year olds again. And again we had people come in and say "this is it?! What is this?!" In which I have to explain that we do games that don't require much. Like one game we do where everyone ties a balloon to their ankle and you have to try and pop the other people's balloon. Whoever is last wins. The kids absolutely LOVE the games we do but it's hard to see when you walk in and see a conference room with a few games and a lot of space. One boy so rudely in front of his mom talked back to me about it, and by the end of the night he was the happiest kid in the world. The parents also get mad at me when I say we can't move their children into different age groups to be with their siblings. Like bitch I don't make up the rules why am I getting yelled at for this crap. One of the kids was 8 and wanted to be moved up. He walked in sucking his thumb...like wtf no turn away. For night owls tonight (10pm-1am) they were having a "party" for the older kids. The amount of kids in that tiny room was insane and probably proceeded the amount of people you can have in that room. Then on the other side we had 2 babies under the age of 2 as well as other young children with only 2 staff on each side. It is very important to always have someone at the door which means there's really only 1 person with the kids it's insane. There's a lot of things that could be changed to make work A LOT easier. I always think of undercover boss how they go in disguise to work at their own company's and they see all these terrible things that need to be changed. One huge example I have is when we do build a bear. There are 2 huge carts that we literally have to push from one end of the ship to the other. You have to have 2 people on each cart and they weigh easily 200+ pounds. The wheels on the bottom are old and barely work and we can't get the carts over the door frames on the way to our destination. They also barely fit through the doors so if you're not careful you'll literally squish your finger very badly. We also carry another huge cart that doesn't have any sides so we have to put tape all around it. Then when we're done we have to bring it back to camp and shove it into a tiny closet that of course is located right in the walk way that's about the size of a small dressing room. Carnival's first priority in their company is safety yet they have us doing this. It wouldn't be so bad if we had the things stored where we had the actual workshop. It's seriously ridiculous and it infuriates me that no one has said anything to the office about it. It's 12:11 right now. I need to go to bed. Tomorrow is day at sea which means working all freaking day. And then the next day my aunt and uncle are picking me up in Long Beach! So excited :) I haven't seen my aunt in about a year and I haven't seen my uncle since I was a freshman in college so it's been a while. Getting off the boat in general is always great. I'm also super happy because they fixed the light in my bunk and our desk. It usually takes them awhile but they got it done within a day. Today my roommate told me that she doesn't get pimples anywhere besides her butt. Like how do you respond to that? She's super sweet and very funny. Also very outgoing. She looks like a 10 year old. She is so tiny it's crazy. Much better than the last roommate that's for sure. 6-3-17 Day 20: got woken up this morning at 730 to the light being turned on. Then my roommate left for work and kept it on...I'm pretty sure I'm gonna move into rains room. I really like my new roommate but I need sleep 😳 it's not possible to do this job without sleep. Especially on a sea day like today where we work 10-12 hours. The boat is also really rocky today. I'm so nauseous. And it doesn't help that I keep having hot flashes. Like literally dripping sweat. I don't get it. It also doesn't help that we have to wear these stupid pants and ugly ass polo. My room legit smells like feet. 6-4-17 Day 21: I'm getting off the boat in 2 hours :) my aunt and uncle are picking me up. Yesterday was a long ass day. I finally started feeling better after I ate dinner yesterday. But now I'm feeling icky again. It feels like we're still moving but we're docked. I'm also low on sleep because my dumbass decided to go out last night instead of going to bed early. It was really fun though and I met a lot more people. It's pretty nice to be at a bar and then just walk down to your room within a minute. Before I went out me Rain Elle and britny went and saw the epic rock show. I've seriously never seen something so amazing. Our boat is known for having the best performers and performances. The vocals on these people are insane. I couldn't keep still in my seat. I got a little too into it. I'm really sad though because that cast is leaving in 2 weeks and a new cast is coming on board. On the bright side I'll be able to meet new people! Usually the guys are gay so no bf for me. But still more friends and maybe even another American :p I just realized that last night when I got back from the bar I took my pills that I'm supposed to take in the morning...I've never done that before. Speaking of medicine, I found out one of my friends from college passed away. I met him on the first night freshman year and he practically lived in our building. He was such a fun guy. I was told that they think he purposely overdosed. He just graduated in may and move to a new state just 2 weeks ago. Another friend gone by suicide. I so badly wish that we could do more for these people that need help. I also recently heard that someone I knows family member took his life just last week. I was reading one of my magazines the other day and there was a whole article on 13 reasons why. When I got on the boat no one really knew what I was talking about because they've been on here without access to internet (or at least internet that works well enough to watch shows). It's kinda cool how you escape from the outside world when you're on the boat. On a different note I think I'm going parasailing tomorrow in Catalina! I haven't been off at that port yet so I'm super excited. One of the guys I met who was in the fun squad had to leave the boat the other day because he lost his passport 😳 I literally thought this guy was in his 20s and he's 41.......my mind was blown. I thought he was messing with me. A lot of people on here look really young for their age. Getting off the boat today was great. My aunt and uncle picked me up. We ate outside and talked for hours and I got my nails done. Still need to get my haircut majorly. An hour ago I went to close the club (it's open for embarkation for like an open house) and it was fucking trashed again. Poker chips all over the place. Jenga pieces cover the floor. Uno and playing cards all mixed together. I just want to know wtf is going through these people's heads. And where are their parents? I don't think I'm going parasailing tomorrow either :/ I was gonna go with britny and now she has a training. I might go by myself though and lay out on the beach :) I open the club in an hour. I really shouldn't take a nap because it's just gonna make me more tired but I have an hour so I'm gonna. I got to meet the kids today. They're actually really awesome. One of the girls told me I'm the chilliest person ever lol. On captains dinner nights we have imaginary Prom. Tonight the kids got really into it and one of the boys made up a whole promposal for one of the girls it was hilarious. He made me play romantic music and he got down on one knee and asked her. And then they slow danced. It was so cute. I have a shit ton of kids. My club is way too small for the amount I have this cruise and really for any cruise. I don't have work tomorrow until 4 😍 I might get off in Catalina and go lay out at the beach alone or I might just lay out on the ship. We have to take tender boats to the port and it can get super chaotic. I'll get off another time when I have a friend to go with me. 6-5-17 Day 22: it's almost 1 and I'm still in bed. I had my alarm set for 1030 but that didn't happen obviously. I was having a really weird dream that I couldn't wake up from. I've had the weirdest dreams since I've been here it's freaky. I start at 3 today. Thought I started at 4 :/ I've already wasted my day away so I'll probably just sleep some more. I need it big time. I seriously love my kids. Besides the fact that they don't clean up after themselves. They loved the whole imaginary Prom idea. We had a prom king and queen it was great. Nominations and then voting. I wanted to rig the votes so the couple I like could win but some of the girls asked if they could help tally up the votes so it didn't work. I met someone moving to stl for a mission trip. He'll be living there for 2 years. Kinda interesting! He's Mormon. After work we had a party in the crew bar lounge. It was a lot of fun and I got to talk to a lot of people, especially one of the guys that's actually a potential option but he was wasted out the ass and definitely won't even remember talking tomorrow. I have training in 5.5 hours. It's 308am. But I had fun tonight so whatever.

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Beached theme crew party

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I even sleep in my name tag

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Day 16-18

5-30-17 Day 16: It's 320am. I just went to a crew party. I got to talk to a lot of people. I went with rain so of course we had a good time. I met another girl with autism today. We clicked and we hung out the entire night. She said she wanted to stay and I told her I was leaving in which she gave me a huge hug and we talked about seeing each other the next day. 20 minutes later my roommate storms in saying that after I left the girl went into complete panic mode: trying to kick and punch everyone around her, throwing anything she could find, and screaming at the top of her lungs. Because of her age group she is allowed to sign herself out before 10pm. After that a parent has to pick you up. She was not aware of this and had a meltdown. I wish I would've been there to help her. I ran into her mom tonight and we chatted. I told her that I would really like to see her daughter again. Back at home she has a service dog that is able to detect when she is going to breakdown. She's not used to being without her dog which is probably very different and difficult for her. It makes me fall even more in love with my kids back at home. I think about them every single day. I compare things to them constantly and all of my friends know about them. They're my first babies and I miss them so much. I think about their faces when they see me again. I tried to get pizza tonight. There was no line so no reason for him to be rude. And of course he was a fucking prick and questioned me on my contract...saying I can get the pizza I want later on in my contract. Then all of the employees behind me got whatever they wanted. One of the guests noticed and mentioned to me how rude that was of him and how many employees have been rude to her and her friends. Sadly she's not the only one who has said that to me. 5-31-17 Day 17: Today has been a long freaking day. Mostly because it was a sea day and I've been nauseous since I woke up. The rocking has been really bad this cruise. Today I saw dolphins next to our boat. It was really cool. They were all jumping out of the water. I honestly don't even remember what I did today. I got stuck in the elevator for a little with 2 other employees. We were all looking at each other like oh shit. Well it's 11:17 pm and I'm about to pass out. 6-1-17 Day 18: new passengers came on the boat today. They always ask the stupidest questions it cracks me up. During the safety debriefing youth staff hands out wrist bands to kids 12 and under. It's a safety thing that is in the policy. People see that our hat says youth and we're only going up to little kids yet everyone says what's that? Do I need one of those? Or puts their arm out. Some lady put her arm out today for me to put the band on her and I looked up and said are you 12 or younger and she just walked away. She looked young and was short so she easily could've been! Another lady asked me what time the loud buzzer goes off. I guess these are reasonable questions it just gets annoying. Because camp ocean is so small we've been having the 9-11 year olds go to the conference room. Which of course is my group for the week. Which means everyday we have to load up games and shit onto a trolley and take it down there. And then when we're done bring it back up and so on. We have like 2 board games, nintendos, and crafts. So parents show up and are like wtf is this. Some dad walked in today and goes where's all the toys?! Then I have to awkwardly explain everything and also talk about how we do other activities not needing materials. I did registration today which I like, it's just kinda nerve racking sometimes because if you don't tell them everything then that's an opportunity to complain and trust me they'll complain. One lady came in today to register her kids. We asked if her son had any special needs or food allergies in which she said no. 10 seconds later she says well my son has autism spectrum. First off it's "he has autism" or "he's on the autism spectrum" not he has autism spectrum. Ugh. And that is a special need. Not sure what world she lives in. I told her if she wanted more details she could read the schedule provided in which she said I ain't finna read dat. These guests are crazy. I have a safety drill tomorrow at 10. I fucking hate them. Anything having to do with my uniform is terrible. The polos are hideous and make my big boobs look even bigger than they already are. I ordered magnets from amazon and got them today. I wish I could explain the look on my face when I opened the box. I took everything else out that I ordered then picked up this tiny box of what I thought were 2 nails. I opened it and it was my magnets. All 100 of them. The size of my pupils. No joke. I could not stop laughing. They work fine it was just so not what I thought I was ordering.

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The mess I found after open house. So respectful. I forgot to get the penis on film. It was pretty graphic 😐

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"No lifeguard on duty, therefore it is the guests responsAbility to be aware of SECURITY SINGS" no idea what the hell that means

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First time at crew bar with Rain and Alina (she's from Ukraine and I'm obsessed with how she talks)

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Eleanor looking hot in her Cat in the Hat suit. Rains dream is to be it one day.

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Bye Ruby :(

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Day 11-15

5-24-17 Day 11: I planned to wake up early to lay out but I couldn't get myself out of bed until 1. I laid on the 12th deck which is allowed. I had to wear a dress up there though. It's annoying. The 2 emo kids saw me and their faces lit up. They ran over to me and laid out with me for a little. They even brought me lunch. They're so cute. They also showed me this really cool view at the front of the boat. They said they're dating now and are gonna save up money to visit each other. They're literally like the same person it's so weird. I'm finally starting to figure out my way around as well as the rules. One of my jobs in circle c is to write notes to the parents of the kids. I've done 8 this cruise which is the goal amount we're supposed to aim for. Then I have to go slip the note under their door. Kinda weird but whatever. Every time a cruise leaves we have a meeting with all of youth staff and Carolina (our supervisor) reads all the emails she got from the former guests and their thoughts on the staff. If you get 10 compliments then you get a day off. We have new people coming tomorrow. Which means I need to figure out how to get the new schedule. I also have to fill out some paperwork tonight because it's the last night of the cruise. Which is also confusing. And on top of that I have to clean the entire club. There's a checklist. And when I mean clean I mean everything. Even the clock is on the checklist...lol well I'm gonna take a quick nap. I have to open the club in 50 minutes. It's 1:42am. Just had to say bye to my kiddos :( one of the moms came in and said her daughter and her friend absolutely adored me. She said they talked about me the whole trip and loved the note I slipped under their door. They tipped me $20 too which was so sweet. One of the girls was so sad when we had to say bye. I'm like a big teenager to them. Filling out my reports wasn't as hard as I thought. Just takes extra time. Tomorrow we have to be out of our cabins from 10-1130 because they're working on the air conditioning. Which is so freaking annoying. I have to go set up the club tomorrow morning too so that the new people can come in and look around. I'm also port manning tomorrow so I can't get off :/ I have to work the slide tomorrow too which will be interesting. I wish I was getting off. Rain and Eleanor are going to the outlets and I really wanted to go. Tomorrow is gonna be a long day. 5-25-17 Day 12: it's my mommos birthday today. Wish I was at home with her to celebrate :( I woke up early this morning to shower and the water is off. So that's nice. Guess I'll just be gross and smelly until it turns on. I work in an hour at the slide. I'm gonna try and sleep a little more until I go. Well it's freezing out and cloudy as can be. No one even went down the slide. It's too cold to get into the water. Had to eat in the crew mess hall instead of staff today. Staff closed before I could get there. The crew mess hall consists of all men from other countries who work behind the scenes. They stare at me like I have 3 eyes every time I walk in there so I've learned not to make eye contact with anyone. I sat alone and ate mashed potatoes, which has really been my only meal so far besides when I'm allowed to eat on lido. The food they give us is terrible and I'm scared to even try it. So mashed potatoes and bread it is for now. Sometimes they have really good rice though. All the meat is mystery meat so I'm scared to even try it. I just took a shower and now I'm laying in bed. I have the cabin to myself right now which is nice. I don't get service in my room which really sucks. So I can either go sit in the mess hall and have everyone stare at me or I have to put my uniform on and find somewhere on a different level that has service. There's so many rules it's ridiculous. I break them everyday. I took an apple from the mess hall today ❌ I hugged one of my kids goodbye ❌ I chewed gum while working the slide ❌ and I'm pretty sure I wore the wrong shirt. They still don't have my uniform so I've been switching between the same 3 shirts and 2 pairs of yoga pants...it's getting kinda gross. It's really hard to do laundry here too. They're always taken. I'm gonna take a nap. I have to be up in an hour ugh. So because today is embarkation for a new group of cruisers, circle c is open from 11-6 for guests to come in and check it out. No one is in the club working, it's just open. So at 6 I'm supposed to go lock the doors until we open for registration. I just went to lock the door and the place was a fucking mess. There were rubber bands covering the floor (from an art project that was put away in the closet that someone must've got out themselves), there were about 12 different board games out and all of the cards to the games were on the ground and mixed up. There was also a drawing of a penis on one of the art projects I put out for show. There was food on the couches and just shit everywhere. It's upsetting to know that the kids I'll be hanging out with for the next few days would do this. I got to meet my kids tonight and they're seriously so much fun. There's 90 kids in my clubs age group for this cruise which is insane. So we have this rule that 11 year olds are allowed to move up to my 12-14 club if they request it. We had a family come in and their daughter wanted to get moved up. I said it was okay. The parents were not too happy with the come and go as they please policy. They asked if I could walk her to the bathroom which is not allowed. I'm not a babysitting service. I'm there for fun. So the parents left and the girl came up to me and asked if the music we play is anything different than Christian rock...I explained to her that we don't play that kind of music...she then lectured me about cuss words and how she's not allowed to listen to the kind of music we play in the club. She then went on to tell me different words she made up to replace cuss words. She also questioned me on the movie playing in the club because if it's pg-13 she can't watch it...then cover your eyes like wtf. It was on the small TV too that no one even watches. Then one of the 14 year old boys was talking about "French kissing" his girlfriend. The 11 year old got in his face and completely went off on him on how inappropriate that is. The little girl then asked "do your parents know?!" The boy responded and said yeah my dad does. The girl goes and what about your mom. The boy replied and said uhhhhhh she died so I don't have a mom. It was so heartbreaking to hear as I sat in the background. Another boy then interrupted trying to stand up for the 14 year old boy. That boy, who looks like a mini Justin Bieber, went on to tell the girl that there's nothing wrong with that. The girl then got in his face going off about how she doesn't need a boyfriend in her life and she has 4 goals in life: to go to Harvard, Yale, and Stanford, become a doctor, become a vet, and love god. The boy then teased her about her boy name in which she retaliated with something having to do with Jesus crossing a river? Lastly, the Justin Bieber boy responded with there is no god, in which the little girl went OFF. I just sat there not knowing what to say. I really need to talk to the girls parents because she is way too immature to be with these older kids. She needs to be in club ocean. I just don't know how to say that to the parents without sounding rude. Ugh it was seriously so awkward. After all the chaos we went and played man hunt on the sports deck. When I left all the kids yelled we love you! It was seriously so cute. They said I'm really cool 😋it's 1:44am and I'm just laying in bed. I put some pics of me and my kids on my wall. We take pictures on captains dinner night and I get to keep one. I still don't have a uniform so I've been wearing the same 2 pairs of pants for almost 2 weeks and it's totally disgusting. On Sunday I switch to camp ocean which will be interesting. I really love being with the older kids but I also like having a different schedule which comes with working in camp ocean. 5-26-17 Day 13: I think it's time for me to say something to my new roommate about her bf sleeping over every night. He leaves our room at 530 am every morning which obviously wakes me up. He also snores and moans in his sleep. I randomly wake up and hear her whispering but he's snoring at the same time so I'm confused. I'm in the mess hall right now eating. Mashed potatoes as always. I added carrots and ranch to the mix today. The amount of food these people eat is insane. It's like they've been starved for a week. This lady just walked by me with 6 chicken breasts...and the girl at the table next to me has an entire plate of crispy chicken and mashed potatoes as well as another plate full of cake and a cup filled with ice cream. Oy. Today has been a long freaking day. I just went to the crew bar and Rain and Alina left. So of course I was awkwardly stuck talking to some older guy I didn't understand at all. Then another guy tried to talk to me asking if I had a bf and blah blah blah. Not interested at all. So I made up some dumb excuse. One of them told me a story of a time he was in Brazil and a car pulled up to him and shot the man sitting next to him in the car. I barely understood him so I just shook my head and was like oh wow omigod damn blah blah blah. Today we had a team meeting and said bye to one of our members, Reuben. He's seriously such a fun guy and reminds me of one of my best friends that moved away. Like actually a replica. We all hung out and got to eat a special dinner because of it. After everyone left, me, Reuben, and Rain stayed and sang karaoke for over an hour. Me and Reuben sang tons of songs and he harmonized. It was a freaking blast. After that I went and bought alcohol in the gift shop. It's so freaking cheap and then on top of that we get a discount. Also, when I first started my supervisor told me I needed to take out some of my earrings. After a week of not having some in I decided to put them back. One of my piercings I've had for over 2 years now. When I went to put the earring back in it was totally starting to close up. I had to jam my earring into the hole to re-pierce it and now it feels like that feeling when you first get it pierced. It hurts so bad. At least my forehead doesn't hurt anymore from banging it on that metal shelf. I do have a weird huge bruise on my arm that people keep asking me about that's kinda concerning. It's in between the size of a golf ball to a baseball. So pretty freaking big. I'm super excited tomorrow is a port day. We have a drill at 10 though :/ like wtf I can't catch a break. Hopefully the weather is nice because I really wanna lay out. It's 2:51am. Either there's a heard of elephants on the floor above me or there's a weight lifting competition. No sleep for me tonight. Hey at least my roommates boyfriend isn't snoring. I probably just jinxed myself though. 5-27-17 Day 13: Today has been a pretty good day. The roommates bf woke me up this morning at 530. And then she woke me up at 630. The alarm definitely does the trick, and then she turns on the light and it's all downhill from there. Me, rain, and Eleanor went to a "resort" today in Ensenada. It was my first time going there. It's a shit hole. We took a taxi for 5 dollars to a hotel with a pool. We get in free there because of the cruise and we also get a towel to use for free. It was nice to wear my own clothing and not have to worry about rules and wearing my name tag. I wore sunscreen too for all of you that give me shit. Before going to the hotel we had an employee drill which was chaos. For some reason my info in the system is wrong so I had numerous adults coming up to me saying I was in the wrong spot when really I was. I already feel like I stick out and then on top of that I have people calling my name at an all employee safety drill. Wonderful. I had some trainings today which were okay. And then I got to eat at kids dinner. I had stuffed mushrooms which were freaking amazing. I hate mushrooms but these were great. Now I'm laying in bed. I have to be at the club in an hour. My roommate is in here too. I don't know how to tell her that I don't want her bf sleeping in here. It's so awkward. I haven't had a good nights sleep since I've been here and it's taking a toll. I finally got my uniform today thank god. Half of it wasn't even right though. It says the wrong club so that's annoying. But I'll get it all eventually. Tomorrow I start work at 12 so no getting off the boat for me :/ The big group of kids in my club wanted to hang out with someone who wasn't allowed in so they didn't come tonight. Which really sucks. They didn't even stop by to say bye or anything :/ The religious girl in my club went at it again with a boy. In which he responded "you'll be my trash person one day". I just sat there not knowing what to say or do. She was totally instigating him and was the one that started the entire altercation. After work I went to the crew bar. It's our friend Reuben's last day tomorrow. He's seriously such an amazing guy. I've only known him for 2 weeks and I feel like we've been friends forever. We heard we have 2 guys coming into youth staff so that will be good. We have too many girls! I just got back to my cabin and it's 2:30. And my roommates boyfriend is snoring. I'm gonna say something tomorrow. I feel like it's just common curtesy to not bring your bf home every. Single. Night. Ugh I don't know how to make it stop. And on top of that there's all these loud noises outside and above. It seriously sounds like bombs or fireworks are going off. It's so loud. I'm so confused. One second I hear my roommates boyfriend snoring and then the next second I hear them kiss. And then one second later he's literally already snoring again. And they'll randomly whisper and then snoring seconds later. Like wtf are you talking about at 2:38 in the morning. And he moans in the middle of the snoring it's just freaking me out. 5-28-17 Day 14: woke up at 530 to my roommates boyfriends alarm. Then woke up at 630 to her alarm/turning the lights on. Then she woke me up at 930 by coming in the room and leaving the door wide open...and everyone is super loud in the hallways. I swear she's fucking dumb. I asked her if her bf could start staying in his room more. I said he snores and it keeps me up. Her reply "he snore? I do not know that. I talk to him". Ugh. I worked the water slide and then did registration in camp ocean. That's where I'll be this week. We have some re-signs that came on today, one including an assistant supervisor. She's much nicer than Carolina. Just now I was standing outside of camp next to the elevators talking to my mom and Carolina gave me the death stare. I was probably breaking some dumb rule. I don't get good service down where we live though so I have to go up higher. These days feel like eternity. They go by soooo slow. Today we had 3 new people come. One is from Michigan. She's interning. Another is the assistant supervisor and she's from the phillipens (however you spell it) but she's really sweet. And the last girl is one of our staff members sister. Also from phillipens. It's 10:21 pm and I am in bed. This hasn't happened since I've been here. I worked with that returning employee today. I could tell she wasn't too happy with me not knowing any of the games...even though she knows I've never worked at camp ocean and the only time I did was my first freaking day. She told me I need to learn them. I was with the 9-11 year olds tonight. They're really sweet and call me Joey Kanga(roo). I can tell a few of the little girls really like me. I heard one of them telling her mom about me lol. Elle and Rain are already sleeping :/ of course I'm not tired right now. I need to make some more friends that I can do stuff with like go to a comedy show or something. Cuz on a cruise ship 10:00 means the night is just beginning. It's hard though when you can't communicate with people through phone. I told the new girl she could stop by when she gets off. I wanna be there for her because I was just in that position 2 weeks ago. I'm really starting to freak out about being on this boat for so long. I know 3 months is short compared to everyone else but I've only been here for 2 weeks and it feels like forever. There's times when I'm having so much fun though and I look around and have to remind myself that I wanted this job so badly. There's so many amazing things I get to do while working here but being away from my family and friends is hard. And especially my 2 kitties :( ugh I miss them so much. Things are definitely getting easier, I just think I'd have more fun if I had more friends to do stuff with. Eleanor is leaving in 2 weeks :/ and her boyfriend is leaving this week. Hopefully me and the new intern can hang out a lot considering we're both learning still. We just went and got ice cream. There's so much I wanna help her with. She knows one of the other interns on the boat so she's in a better position than I was. She's in a temporary room where the crew works. It looks very different than staff. They also share a community bathroom...staff have many more privileges than crew does. Crew has a bigger mess hall though but we're allowed to eat there too, which consists of men staring at me. The people here are so fucking rude. These men will run into me while I'm walking or step in front of me. No one says excuse me or sorry. Also no one knows to walk on the right side of the stairs and the right side of the hallway. The kids I work with are more polite than these grown ass rude men. Also NO BOYFRIEND TONIGHT WOOT WOOT. 5-29-17 Day 15: I was quiet as always last night and this morning just to find out my roommate slept out lol. I had tendering at 830 this morning. No one told me what the hell it was so thankfully Eleanor called me this morning and told me where to go and what time. It's basically standing by the elevators and telling people where to go to get off the boat. For 3 hours. It's ridiculous. This is a mess. We have to take tender boats while in Catalina which causes all of this chaos. And people are told all different things so it's confusing to the guests. Right now I'm taking a little break. Of course the one time I have free I'm not getting service. I got to eat lunch at lido today. I tried the burrito bar for the first time. Kinda like chipotle. It was pretty good and actually something somewhat healthy for once. Work was good tonight. I worked with the returning sister again who once again questioned me on why I didn't know anything. She knows I've never done this shit like give me a fucking break. One of the kids had autism so of course I automatically fell in love with him. He started dancing so I was totally cheering him on and then his pants ripped. He instantly grabbed his crotch and I knew if I didn't help right away there could be a possible meltdown within seconds. I asked him if he was comfortable with the pants or if he wanted to change into new ones which is what he wanted. While we waited for his parents (who never answered their phone) I gave him my jacket to wear around his waist. I told his mom about my job back at home and asked if I would be back tomorrow. Hopefully he won't wear his "church pants" as he calls them tomorrow. After work I went to the comedy show with the new intern britny (the one I took under my wing). She actually moved in with the other intern who is part of the fun squad. We also went to the comedy show after. The comedian has a son with autism so of course I had to tell him about my job back at home. He gave me a huge hug. Then me and britny went to the crew bar which is pretty cliquey. One of our girls was there. I thought she was from the phillipens this entire time and she was totally offended when I told her I had no idea she was from Indonesia. She was laughing though. She tells the kids her name is Jennifer Lopez. She has 3 kids back at home and one is only 3 months old...her husband is on this boat too. Her kids live back at home with her sister. It's so crazy. After that we went and got pizza at the lido deck but the pizza guy gave us the weirdest look when we got up there it was so uncomfortable. Me and britny just stood there in silence because we were so taken aback. Tomorrow I don't start until 2. I'll probably sleep until then honestly. I have to do laundry tomorrow. I only have 1 pair of underwear left. And my room smells like dirty socks. I think it's my shoes that I have to wear everyday. Pretty gross. I'm praying there's a washing machine open. Also, today while I was working with the new sister girl she was talking to one of the parents about her son and she kept saying "she" and "her". The phillipinos don't know the difference between he she him her. It's like comical. So the one is staring at her all confused. These are grown women and they don't know the difference, and then back at home this is a program I work on with my kids at work.