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keepingitdelusional · 4 months

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Sometimes I just don't get my life, I know I should be greatful for the things I have, but I sometimes think what if , even if I had everything i ever wanted, would i be satisfied and happy then or would i still cry for more?. At the beginning of the year I promised good I would genuinely be happy and would love myself but I don't know why I sometimes really do dislike me.

I had a really huge crush on this guy and yes obviously he was way out of my league or maybe that's what I thought, and so did my friends have crushes on different people. One of my friend's crush sent her an insta req and the crush of my other friend always acknowledges her. Then comes me, I genuinely like this guy but he always ignores me, maybe he thinks really low of me, maybe he might not even like me as a simply moving human being, maybe he would be embarrassed and ashamed if he ever found out that I have a crush on him. This is what always peeps into my mind.

When people are so sure of their future, they are so passionate about the things they do , In a world full of people like them why do I feel like a clueless lost puppy.

I am not complaining about my life, I love it , I have amazing and caring friends and my family who really love me and that am a 100 percent sure but still I feel empty and I definitely know the reason, it's me am the one am not satisfied of. I am the only one bringing me down, I really hope I find my way.

I am not waiting for someone to rescue me, all I want is myself to accept me, I want myself to respect and love me, to have faith in me and always think highly of me. I don't want myself to look down on me, to compare me with others and hurt me.

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