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“You’re always haunted by the idea you’re wasting your life.”

— Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

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Another One, No Khaled

It's strange how I keep finding myself in the same situations, over and over again. I didn't mean to, but the attention you crave isn't always the attention you need. Another distraction for someone's pain, another outlet for someone's shame, and the whole time I act unbothered, because, honestly, I am, and that scares me more than the projections and actions others expect from me...

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Friendly No More

I hope that you know that you are more.

More than your bad habits.

More than the flaws that only you see.

More than the not so secret strength you keep in your pocket or your purse.

More than the physical acts that you give to others, because the fear of them rejecting your heart and mind is too much to handle.

I too partook in these takings, because I thought strings were unattached, but there was more...

more risk than reward, and I was too foolish and hot blooded to realize that I wanted more...

not in the role that one usually assumes when such lines are crossed. Just more...

More time, more memories, more sharings of your thoughts and your feelings,

Your hurts and your healings, but because of these dealings, there is friendship no more.

You were not the only casualty, a mistake more than once it seems, becomes my reality when I greedily ask for everything until there is no more....

Becoming A Little Too Friendly, Can Make Friendships No More

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Insomnia

I cannot sleep again

My head and heart are heavy with a burden that I cannot name

Some sort of anxious feeling for the state of the world or those around me is honing in tonight

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Invisible

It doesn't do justice to say that lately I have been unseen, as it is normal to have valleys to offset the peaks in any relationship. It seems a more accurate description to assume that I never existed, because there no longer seems to be a place for me anywhere

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3/8 ain't so bad 🥴🥴🙃🙃

“Superpowers you can have: - Ability to change yourself & your mind - Not taking things personally - Not needing to prove you’re right - Careful selection of all relationships - Staying calm - Being alone without being lonely - Being ok being uncomfortable - Thinking for oneself”

— Shane Parrish

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Hellbent On Goodbye

Is this what we've become?

I used to recognize your breathing

I can barely recall your eyes

You feel the need to avoid conflict

But I like to see your burning fire

Ive found that closure isn't solace

You left with no return in mind

You should've told me you were hell bent on goodbye

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I'm not doing well...

I don't feel like I have a great support system, and with the world in chaos, it really makes you realize how few people are in your corner.

#Quarantine2020

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Insomnia

Can't sleep...

My mind keeps wandering back to people who no longer care to know how I spend my days.

Strange that I still think of you so often, when it is quite apparent that I seldom cross your mind.

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Psychopaths are less likely to catch other people’s yawns.

(Source, Source 2, Source 3)

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Hot Summer Nights

McKayla: You can't hold on to everything.

Daniel: I think some things you can.

McKayla: ...Then I hope you're good at being hurt.

❤❤❤

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Support

I don't even have anyone who cares how I spend my days... much less keep me on track with my goals and dreams. I can usually handle it all alone, but I'm more often than not finding myself wondering if anyone would even reach out if I stopped doing it first. Maybe that is why I always reach out first....