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&. 𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐥𝐬 (𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬?) 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  various  dialogue  prompts  to  send  to  your  worst  enemy  (affectionate).  feel  free  to  change  how  you  seem  fit.  )

❛ oh great, it's you again. ❜

❛ you? kill me? that's funny. ❜

❛ for being someone you hate, i'm sure on your mind a lot. ❜

❛ you're the last person i wanted to see, actually. ❜

❛ do us both a favor. stay away from me. ❜

❛ you really are an asshole, you know that? ❜

❛ i'm the asshole? what does that make you then? ❜

❛ sometimes i think you must hate me. ❜

❛ i thought you said you never wanted to see me again. ❜

❛ if you want me to go, then you have to tell me to leave. ❜

❛ well, someone's cranky today. ❜

❛ well, someone needs to shut the fuck up. ❜

❛ just stay out of my way. ❜

❛ of all the idiots in the world, i'm stuck with you. ❜

❛ what is it you want this time? ❜

❛ sometimes i wonder if you're in love with me. ❜

❛ do you honestly think this is easy for me? ❜

❛ why would i ever want to be friends with you? ❜

❛ can we please just talk? ❜

❛ there is nothing for us to talk about. ❜

❛ you can yell at me later. just let me help you. ❜

❛ touch me, and you're dead. ❜

❛ oh, so now you care? ❜

❛ there is something deeply wrong with you. ❜

❛ i know i'm the last person you probably want to see, but... ❜

❛ you don't think we could be friends, do you? ❜

❛ i'm tired of fighting against you. ❜

❛ don't pretend you give a shit about me. ❜

❛ you're an idiot, but... i trust you. ❜

❛ oh, don't be cute. ❜

❛ wait, did you just say that i'm cute? ❜

❛ we're not good for each other. ❜

❛ if i say yes, will you shut up? ❜

❛ don't you have to be stupid somewhere else? ❜

❛ maybe we should kiss just to break the tension. ❜

❛ i'm sorry i can't turn off my feelings as easily as you. ❜

❛ maybe there's a universe out there where we're friends. ❜

❛ how can you be so smart yet so dumb at the same time? ❜

❛ don't think this changes anything between us. ❜

❛ you look ridiculous in that outfit, by the way. ❜

❛ if you die, i'll kill you. ❜

❛ is that a challenge? ❜

❛ ah, so you're not heartless after all. ❜

❛ i don't think i've ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ you never cared about me, so why now? ❜

❛ why didn't you kill me when you had the chance? ❜

❛ i don't even remember why we started fighting. ❜

❛ i don't have time for distractions right now. ❜

❛ you're not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ enemies make the best lovers, you know. ❜

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* meme. ✧. ┊   ​​MIRROR MIRROR​ ◞ #(its 12am but I will write things tomorrow I got side tracked ehe)

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Not me wanting to rewatch aot again. Or start a new save file on aot2 because god I love this series so damn much.

#(I need to sort my laptop out so I can watch things and write)

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the urge to write spice across the blogs is strong

#༊*·˚ ooc. ◞ ― mun speaks *ೃ༄ #( Sunday has nothing on me ) #( I lowkey want. To write muses outside aot but when I do I end up ) #( not enjoying the dash rndjdje) #( so HMM )

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┊ ┊⋆ ┊ . 𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓭-𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓹𝓸𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓬 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓮 ◞ 𝖒𝖊𝖒𝖊 . ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @naitfall ⤸ how does it look? be honest. (maybe when they meet after the thunder-spear explosion)

How does Levi expect her to respond in that instance? Insane. Every single one of them. Of course, now, she was no different. They were about to try something crazy; to rush to their deaths or spare what remained of the world from the horrors of the rumbling. Maybe they'd end up doing both. There was no other choice, no need to hesitate on a decision -- she'd prepared herself to march on forward. For what strength she had, what she could offer, she'd put everything into this final obstacle. There was not a moment she'd faltered, not since she'd made the choice. Being a traitor to her brethren left no sour taste in her mouth. The last of what Laura wished to protect was by her side; the people who needed saving were on the other side of the sea.

Eyes forward, focused. Because she didn't know who remained. How the hardened woman fumbled at the sight of Hange. The wide-eyed, unguarded softness when the reality she'd had to accept instead brimmed with a hope unbecoming of their twisted world. That her confirmation on both their status - both. both. Because he's too stubborn to die. People didn't survive. That's something they had to always accept. Loss. Nothing would ever remain. Accept it, or be overcome by it; Laura had to let go to get to where she was now, without shielding completely from the pain. He wasn't dead. She'd refused it outright. It could have been denial. Maybe, she just believed in him. Laura felt strongly about it - it wasn't a reality worth accepting, and her judgement felt true. Still, as time went on, as the world around her trembled with the threat of countless titans marching, it began to feel like a distant hope.

When Laura finally had the chance to see for herself, when he catches her eyes -- what happened in that forest? Torn apart, a man who death refused to let rest; or, was it the opposite? She's never seen him like this, never expected to- she can't tell how bad it is under the bandages, the cover of night masking the extent of his injuries. His eye is gone. How much was gone? Who did it. But she knows the answer to that.

how does it look? be honest.

Idiot. Lips press together, a twitch in her softening gaze; because she doesn't know if she wants to scold his carelessness (he was always careful, enough to win) or ...

❝ I thought you were dead. ❞ Oh. The reality of that settles in, the moment the words come out with a shake in her tone, rather then a blunt retort. It surprises her. Reminds her. It was relief she'd felt, among his injuries, the exhaustion in his demeanour, what state he'd found himself in -- it's beyond just relief, because it hurts. How childish she can be; for a supposed well put together person, she so easily crumbles in the mess of a whirlwind of emotion.

It's embarrassing and unbecoming of her. Feeling the dryness in her throat, the uncomfortable lump as she swallows, her scoff is exhaled as a pitiful laugh - a cry in her own right. Brows furrowing to push away the itching in her eyes, gaze flickers to the distance -- unbelievable.

He's here. He's still alive. Still here. Laura didn't know what their next twenty four hours looked like, if death was on the horizon still. Ridiculous, how that didn't seem to matter to her.

Biting the inside of her cheek, her stubborn, now seemingly critical, gaze falls back to him momentarily, a brief scan of his condition again, but she's already outed her former concern, already shown the relief. ❝ ..... -you've looked worse. ❞

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* v01. ✧. ┊   STILL CAN'T SEE ﹕ main. ◞ #ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* interaction. ✧. ┊   ​​LE ROSSIGNOL​ ◞ #ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* answered. ✧. ┊   ​​ONE TRIES TO FLY AWAY​ ◞ #naitfall #( BORN TO BE A CRYBABY FORCED TO BE PRIDEFUL )

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I really want to write but my brain has been dead I will try again tonight though on my blogs.

#( when I can't. articulate words. I perish )

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I like that she looks npc coded. like who is this prissy, story based character, can I not buy things from? call her an IPC employee, she will kick you in the shins.

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* out of character. ✧. ┊   GWYNETH SPEAKS ◞ #( I will work on this more because. I'm a fuckin nerd. ) #( I might give her two (2) outfits ) #( she deserves a battle fit )

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The expectations Laura has for herself is something you can't argue with, because no one but her has put that on herself. It's not for anyone else's sake or even for a cause, she is entirely selfish in her reason; she just expects to be perfect. It could stem from her upbringing, being personified in a different field with different expectations, and her thinking it's not the same because it's ones she has set for herself and not for anyone else, but the mentality is so similar. She doesn't realise it. She will punish herself, as if filling in that place. Why does she have to be perfect in the things she does? Simply because she has to, or it means nothing to her. But she also knows she isn't perfect at times, not yet; won't lie about it to herself, but use it as fuel to get to that expectation again and again. It's so much worse in her scout years, because she's less broken and more pompous about it. She gives off the uptight rich girl vibe. It's why she doesn't have many friends.

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* headcanon. ✧. ┊   ​​SUCH A RIFT BETWEEN THEM​ ◞ #( huffy bastard - storms away. glares across the room ) #( no one can stand her outside of expeditions - they all have to be on a similar page when outside the wall ) #( so when she does form bonds with people it meant everything to her ) #( it's almost 1am I got so distracted by other things AAHH )

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VERSES. some alternative verses because I adore Laura and although she is primarily aot based, I have brainrot for her with so many different universe settingsa

Modern Verses - Complete

Honkai Star Rail - Added (more details to complete) Genshin Impact - to be added

JJK - Added (more details to complete) Demon Slayer - to be added

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* out of character. ✧. ┊   GWYNETH SPEAKS ◞ #( gonna work on these before jumping online! )

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I am very about the contrast between the extent of fear Laura exhibits and what translates into a fierce need to overcome it immediately. Mostly with Titans, monsters, that can and will strike fear into anyone's heart, as it did hers. For Laura that is a direct, instinctual fear, and it's obvious. She knows the intention of titans, and sees what the outcome is clearly ; fight, or die, because the intent is to be eaten. Laura is best at confronting fears like that, with a clear motive. It contrasts, for her, the fear from childhood. Even now, hearing her mother's voice hits a chord in her that she has to forcibly settle. It's unknown to her still, the intentions of what her childhood was, because the switch between doting and violent outburst was obscure. Of submission of the mind, that dimmed consciousness to a state where she felt empty and hollow, but safe. In turn, she is no longer safe fighting titans (during her earlier years), but she is in control of what she does ; and that determines the outcome.

Laura doesn't fear how she might die, but to be in the clutches of something else, letting them do what they want, having no control or say, it's the feral instinct to claw, and stab, kick teeth in - graceful in her fighting until cornered, not a desperation to survive but a show of intense ferocity that won't submit. She is someone who doesn't do well when obstructed in anyway. It's why she's so obscure herself, so blunt in everything she is and does, why she comes across as very self important. A lot of this is based in her time as a scout, as maturity and trauma have eased that thinking ; she has new fears, things that will make her hesitation, things she will seethe about because she is not in control of her damn self anymore.

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* headcanon. ✧. ┊   ​​SUCH A RIFT BETWEEN THEM​ ◞ #( these are words. that don't form a decent sentence. but it's my BABBLING NOW BBY )

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┊ ┊⋆ ┊ . 𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓭-𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓹𝓸𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓬 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓮 ◞ 𝖒𝖊𝖒𝖊 . ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @naitfall ⤸ at least let me look at it.

❝ No way. ❞ Before any well thought out response, she sharply retorts like a child. Words as quick as the gaze which whirled around to glare his way all too suddenly. Defensive ; no, just too damn stubborn to accept the help. She didn't care about getting bloodied or bruised, wasn't bothered by dirt and grit as people expected of a noble bred. If she could withstand the pain, ignore the throbbing in her head as drops of warm crimson trickled down her forehead, she felt no shame in a dishevelled state.

It wasn't the case this time. vulnerability takes a cruel hold, because for a time ... she'd just sat there. Instead of tending to the light split after a heavy impact, her thoughts are dazed, a soaked cloth lingering in her hand ; the other raised to gently cover her forehead. She'd winced, tried not to touch the cut itself, and closed her eyes. Furrowed brows only add insult to injury, the way she'd whirled her damn head to bite at Levi making her feel off-balance.

at least let me look at it.

It's complicated. Only he'd have her biting at her tongue, hesitant at the immediate response. The way she falters, lips pursed together, humiliation in a difference sense. To force back walls that otherwise never needed to be raised again ; for they were always up. It's not her distrust of others, she merely knows she can take care of herself. Never the worry of burdening people around her, simply put, she's capable of always looking out for herself.

But it's the shame of being stopped, of her own damn body to be against her, that throws Laura off her mark. She is not fragile. She isn't. Able to overcome everything, any obstacle, and to those words she holds high expectations of herself. So don't look at her right now. She can't think clearly when he's around.

❝ It's not a concussion. I'm not going to collapse, I know how to look after it. Don't you have anything better to do - you're distracting. ❞

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* interaction. ✧. ┊   ​​LE ROSSIGNOL​ ◞ #ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* answered. ✧. ┊   ​​ONE TRIES TO FLY AWAY​ ◞ #ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* v01. ✧. ┊   STILL CAN'T SEE ﹕ main. ◞ #naitfall #( but if it were the other way around she'd give him no choice and be obnoxiously overbearing - there is no winning with her )

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              I WAS  ALONE  SO LONG ,   I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW I WAS  LONELY             OUT IN THE  COLD  SO LONG ,   I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW I WAS  COLD       TURNED MY COLLAR TO THE WIND  —  THIS IS HOW IT’S  ALWAYS  BEEN

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* musing ✧. ┊   SHACKED UNSHACKLED ◞

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*      ―    ﴾  𝚗𝚜𝚏𝚠  𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜  ﴿   :    𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒  𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐘  𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍.

personally ,   i’m  tired  of  the  secondhand  embarrassment.   so  here’s  a  random  assortment  of  nsfw  actions  and  dialogue  prompts  that  don’t  feel  too  over  the  top.   (  don’t  forget  to  add  [ reverse ]  if  you’d  like  to  see  the  receiver  perform  the  action.  )

actions.

[ PULL ]:  sender  pulls  receivers  hair.

[ HICKEY ]:  sender  gives  receiver  a  hickey.

[ TRAIL ]:  sender  leaves  a  trail  of  kisses  down  receivers  stomach.

[ HIPS ]:  sender  pulls  receiver  in  closer  by  the  hips.

[ KNEES ]:  sender  lowers  themselves  to  their  knees.

[ STRIPTEASE ]:  sender  teasingly  strips  their  clothes.

[ STRIP ]:  sender  undresses  receiver.

[ GRIND ]:  sender  grinds  on  receivers  thigh.

[ ORAL ]:  sender  goes  down  on  receiver.

[ PASSENGER ]:  sender  touches  receiver  while  sender  is  driving.

[ DRIVER ]:  sender  goes  down  on  /  touches  receiver  while  receiver  is  driving.

[ OVERSTIMULATED ]:  sender  repeatedly  making  receiver  orgasm.

[ PUBLIC ]:  sender  and  receiver  have  sex  somewhere  public.

[ CAR ]:  sender  and  receiver  have  sex  in  a  car.

[ CONTROL ]:  sender  is  riding  receiver  and  receiver  takes  control  by  guiding  their  hips.

[ SHY ]:  sender  covers  their  face  and  receiver  moves  their  hands  away.

[ EYES ]:  sender  makes  receiver  look  them  in  the  eyes.

[ BEG ]:  sender  begs  receiver  to  touch  /  fuck  them.

[ MORNING ]:  sender  wakes  receiver  up  with  sex.

[ STRADDLE ]:  sender  sits  in  receivers  lap  to  tease  them.

[ CAMERA ]:  sender  records  receiver.

[ RECORD ]:  sender  is  recorded  by  receiver.

[ MOUTH ]:  sender  puts  their  fingers  into  receivers  mouth.

[ LOVE ]:  sender  tells  receiver  they  love  them  during.

[ PUSH ]:  sender  pushes  receiver  onto  bed.

dialogue.

“ you  look  so  pretty  like  this.  “

“ i  want  to  spend  all  night  learning  every  sound  you  make. “

“ let  me  take  care  of  you. “

“ i’m  not  wearing  any  underwear  right  now. “

“ you’re  really  good  at  that. “

“ god,  you’re  so  wet  /  hard  …. “

“ i  think  about  you  when  i  touch  myself. “

“ tell  me  what  you  want. “

“ please  touch  /  fuck  me. “

“ i  love  teasing  you. “

“ touch  yourself  for  me. “

“ i  get  so  wet  /  hard  around  you. “

“ get  on  your  knees. “

“ you’re  such  a  tease. “

“ tell  me  you’re  mine. “

“ i’m  yours. “

“ i  want  you  to  cum  for  me. “

“ i  want  you  to  cum  in  me. “

“ i’ll  be  good,  i  promise. “

“ you’re  doing  so  good  for  me. “

“ you  feel  so  good. “

“ you  sound  so  pretty  when  you  moan. “

“ i  could  be  your  toy. “

“ fuck  me  like  you  love  me. “

“ i’m  gonna  cum- “

“ i  just  want  to  feel  something. “

“ i  wanna  be  on  top  this  time. “

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* meme. ✧. ┊   ​​MIRROR MIRROR​ ◞ #nsfw cw #(-sunday sunday sunday )

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┊ ┊⋆ ┊ . 𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓭-𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓹𝓸𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓬 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓮 ◞ 𝖒𝖊𝖒𝖊 . ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ⤸ @thecommanderzoe who taught you how to patch a wound like that?

Basic training was provided to all in the Military through their early years under the Training Regiment. Injury was inevitable, and even death could take those who couldn't withstand the intense indoctrination. So it was only natural for Laura to take it's teaching with a firm confidence that gave little time for comrades to comment on her cold touch. A perfectionist in that which she values, and even as she wraps the bandage at double the speed she does so with conscious understanding of what is required.

She knows how to stop the bleeding, to clean the wound (ignorant to the sharp, unnecessary pressure which causes Hange to wince with every poke) ... to wrap it up (so tight, and with each wrap around she pulls on it forcibly - not enough to disrupt circulation, but it will be uncomfortable) ... to check in on the injured-

❝ There. It's done. ❞ Laura has no need to question it, as long as the wound is clean and secure, then it won't get infected. But, oh, she cares enough to be the one to sit her down and take it upon herself to see to the injury, never giving the other an option. Be more careful next time.

The question stops her from moving on, staying crouched as she looks at her sharply, quizzically. A frown tugs her lips, brows knitting as she turns her gaze towards Hange's wrapped leg. She was never much for tending to other's in the field of duty. Be gentle and attentive. Embarrassment is always subdued by an assertive, challenging gaze. Don't mock me. ❝ Don't be ridiculous. All soldier's should know how to ....... why? ❞

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* interaction. ✧. ┊   ​​LE ROSSIGNOL​ ◞ #ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* answered. ✧. ┊   ​​ONE TRIES TO FLY AWAY​ ◞ #ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* v01. ✧. ┊   STILL CAN'T SEE ﹕ main. ◞ #thecommanderzoe #( hange got the worst person to tend to her injury. she never had a say in the matter )

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: 𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐈𝐒 𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐘 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐇𝐀𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐇𝐎𝐏𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐑𝐘. 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐈𝐒 𝐁𝐔𝐋𝐋𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐓, 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐋𝐘 𝗛𝗢𝗣𝗘𝗦 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐘 𝐈𝐓 𝐖𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐁𝐄.

private original muse based in the shingeki no kyojin universe. 𝐀𝐃𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 𝐆𝐖𝐘𝐍. 18+ blog. a character who's likeableness is below zero. dark themes apply.

⸻⸻ 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚞𝚛𝚗 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙 𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚎𝚝 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚙𝚞𝚗𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚠𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚟𝚎𝚜. ⤸

#self promo. #( promoting meself because the writing urge is strong again ) #( and I will be active over the weekend now that I'm back ! ) #( also my multi who I have neglected )

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PROMPTS FOR PATCHING UP WOUNDS *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

it's honestly nothing. i can deal with it myself.

next time something like this happens, you have to promise to tell me.

you're making a big deal out of nothing. i'll be fine.

how long have you had that?

i'm good at this, you know. patching up wounds.

would you cut it out? i'm trying to help you.

why didn't you tell me you were bleeding?

you didn't have to take that hit for me.

what are you hiding from me?

it's not the worst injury i've ever seen, but it's pretty bad.

how long were you going to hide this from me?

at least let me look at it.

there. it looks much better.

this will help with the pain.

i'm forever in your debt.

i didn't have anywhere else to go.

this wasn't supposed to happen.

is that your blood?

i've patched up nastier wounds than this.

stop squirming! you're going to be fine!

this is bad. this is really bad.

i just need a band-aid and a nap. i'll be fine.

we need to get you to a hospital.

how does it look? be honest.

keep your eyes open, okay? keep looking at me.

it doesn't hurt that bad.

give me your hand. let me look at it.

who taught you how to patch a wound like that?

it's not as bad as i thought it would be, that's for sure.

would you just let me help you? please?

you saved my life.

let me go find my first aid kit. it's in here somewhere.

i'll take care of it. you just sit and rest.

see? that wasn't so bad after all.

i've seen worse.

take two of these and drink some water.

ow! that really hurt!

i've got you, okay? everything's going to be fine.

you're gonna have to take your shirt off.

well... it could have been worse.

it looks worse than it really is, i swear.

roll up your sleeve a little, will you?

does that feel all right?

i didn't even realize i was bleeding.

you could have been killed out there!

give me a second to patch this up.

don't close your eyes. you hear me? stay with me.

i'm not giving up on you just yet.

you still need some time to heal.

i'm right here. i won't leave your side.

thank you for taking care of me.

if you can still hear me, help is on the way!

just squeeze my hand when it starts hurting.

how long have i been out?

let me check for a fever.

did you patch this up?

i've had worse injuries than this.

where did you learn to do that?

take some deep breaths for me.

look at me. you're going to be fine.

hold still! stop moving around so much!

i'll take care of you.

what the hell were you thinking?

where does it hurt?

i'm so used to doing this myself.

lift up your shirt a little so i can see.

lay back down. you're not healed up yet.

you never should have put yourself in harm's way like that.

looks like i've got myself a really good nurse.

will you stay with me while i sleep?

no one's ever helped me like that before.

i would have died had it not been for you.

don't you get it? if you don't let me help you, you'll die.

we have to be quick about this.

this could get bad.

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* meme. ✧. ┊   ​​MIRROR MIRROR​ ◞

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She feels a flash of irritation run through her, keeping it down with a clench of her jaw. Defensive, and although obnoxiously stubborn there's little to refute his claims, so she doesn't. Laura felt no different, but inclined to offense at hearing it from his mouth. In his words. Most the soldiers in her regiment were sloppy, entitled, nothing but greed consuming them. A disgraceful lot with no battle experience outside of waving their guns around and demanding authority.

She despises how she feels inclined to listen, how easy it is to get submerged in his words. A steady flame on a cold, dark night; so easy to drift towards. Laura understands why he is a leader -- everything he said sparked something more then anyone else in the capital ever could. But Laura was condemned to freeze on that cold night, away from the flame that could whirl violently with the upcoming wind; knowing it would burn everything to the ground because it refused to die out.

Brows knitted, reluctant to move at first ... but ultimately, decides to take the seat offered to her. Knowing she wasn't going to leave, even if she had no excuse to be here in the first place. What did she want from this? What did she expect? Why couldn't she ever just leave it behind.

The female titan. ❝ Yeah, I saw. ❞ That's right, there was a reason to be careful of that flame. ❝ I remember the bodies of countless civilians that got caught in the crossfire, because your first plan failed. ❞ If she's resentful still, she holds it back. She witnessed the extent they survey corps would go in order to fight. They'd even throw in the lives of the innocent if it meant victory.

❝ You'd think you'd be more careful with that boy, instead every decision you make with him causes more destruction. Carrying the burden isn't enough. ❞

Her words may hold stronger if they weren't spoken out of spite, to combat the speech that dared to lead her on, to give her any inspiration -- to grasp who Erwin truly was. She knows ... she just doesn't wish to, doesn't want to understand as much as she does. Wants to bury that part of her that wants them to win, to find a meaning in the deaths caused, to grasp that victory. But it's an illusion, one that damns all who follows.

Because if Erwin was to surrender, Laura would find herself angered more. Her feelings so complicated she dared not question them. Laura was relieved to know Eren was back, that they were still fighting; but the consequence of that was dangerous, the price always too high a cost for her liking.

The sharpness of her gaze falters, shifting away from his. ❝ So damn arrogant. ❞ a life time sentence. He wouldn't shy away from his responsibilities, wouldn't deny what that made him ... ❝ It doesn't matter, in the end you lost. You can't decide that anymore ... there's no trust left in the Survey Corps. Eren will be handed over to the Government. So, is that a fight you're going to pick? Another gamble? Do you understand the position you're in right now. You'll all be killed before then. ❞ So tell me you have something up your sleeve. Tell me it wasn't all for nothing.

Erwin observed her keenly, noting the pause, the subtle hesitance threading through her words like a delicate web. Her body language, her gaze—they spoke volumes, betraying a compassion that ran deep within her. It was a noble quality, one that had likely endeared her to many within the Scouts. Yet, Erwin knew all too well that such unwavering concern for others could have been her downfall had she remained.

"The Military Police soldiers are selected from the top ten of each group" he emphasised, his usual sternness in his eyes became soft as he explained, "They are meant to be our finest, yet they've grown inexperienced, squandering their potential behind these walls—engaging in battles against common criminals, succumbing to vices like drinking and gambling while on duty". With a casual gesture, Erwin nudged a chair forward, inviting her to join him for a conversation. "You witnessed their panic when the Female Titan emerged during Eren's encounter."

"I don't lay blame on the soldiers; it's the complacency of the king and their superiors that allows such negligence. They evade responsibility. However, Eren's capture falls on me. I should have foreseen the possibility of traitors revealing themselves openly, endangering others. My suspicions left others vulnerable," he admitted, shouldering the weight of responsibility, acknowledging his flaws and the toll of his decisions.

"I'll bear that blame. Retrieving Eren was my imperative. He holds the key to all of this. I'll carry the burden with every death that I sign and confirm, every bereaved parent I visit, every scornful word hurled my way, I accept as my due. It's a lifetime sentence," he confessed, his voice heavy with remorse.

"I harbor no illusions about my character; I'm not a good man. My life doesn't outweigh the soldiers we've lost. But I won't surrender. No matter the hardships, I'll persist." Erwin concluded with steely resolve, his unwavering determination evident in every word.

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* interaction. ✧. ┊   ​​LE ROSSIGNOL​ ◞ #ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* v01. ✧. ┊   STILL CAN'T SEE ﹕ main. ◞ #soldiersscream #( ERWIN'S SPEECHES my favourite thing ) #( you write him so well AAHHH <3 )

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Things that make me sad is someone asking Laura to hold their baby for a moment while they do something and god does she freak out, what do you want her to do with it? Ask someone else- this is awkward, she is holding the baby awkwardly, she's trying to play it off but she's so panicked that she looks at the baby in discomfort. But all it takes is a few seconds of actually looking down at them for her to be captivated, with so much heartbreak. That she's holding a baby who stares up at her with curiosity and the most innocent eyes, and it takes the mother a few tries to get her attention. She'd watch them leave and even after they are gone just, stare in that direction. If it's her first time holding a baby, she'd be on the brink of tears, and if you witness that, no you don't, she's already storming away because if she says anything she knows she'll break, little by little.

#ℒ ༺ ☾⋆* headcanon. ✧. ┊   ​​SUCH A RIFT BETWEEN THEM​ ◞ #( god she's the type to glare with tears in her eyes. trying to narrow her soft and vulnerable expression to little effect ) #( I don't know how to tag this but aaahhh ) #( she tries to pretend her past never happened but over time it shows itself more and more ) #miscarriage cw