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Since I was twelve, I’ve had this habit of destroying myself, going numb to the demons inside my head. I’d take shot after shot and lose count. I’d pop colored pills and dance myself into oblivion. I’d snort white lines until I believed I was beautiful. The most happy I’ve felt was when I was high with dilated eyes and mind in the sky. The most free I felt was when I had no thought of tomorrow or the pain inside my chest. - And that’s sad right? That the happiest I’ve been was when I was on the brink of overdose.

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drugs break ur heart 2

[Marijuana] Mary was the introduction. Smoking in the back yard at night in a makeshift bowl. I hid her behind my parents backs. After a while, it took more of her to feel something until it became nothing at all.

[Xanax] Xanny numbed the pain, you fall for her tricks easy and within a couple hits, you’re mind is gone. She made you complicated though, sometimes she made you do things you couldn’t imagine ever doing- both bad and the good. She was just like that.

[Acid] Lucy was both Heaven and Hell. When you fuck with her, you fuck with her heavy. The she makes you feel and the things she makes you see are a blessing and a curse. Lucy will not only break your heart, but your mind.

[Coke] Some white girl you cant remember the name of if you got it. She’s pale and has a way of keeping you up at night after a hookup, leaving you wanting more. She’s addicting in all the right and wrong ways, the type of good girl your friends tell you not to fuck with because she’s as bad too. One night with her can make your heart stop.

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have i shown up in ur dreams yet

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cant escape this cycle, it will never end.

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“I hid my deepest feelings so well I forgot where I placed them.”

—

Charlotte Brontë,

Jane Eyre

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“I look in the mirror and I see too much of someone who isn’t enough”

— Me

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“And it breaks my heart some nights. What we went through. I’m alone in my room, the sun has gone down, and everyone has left. But somehow the memories haven’t. They won’t, I ask and beg, but they refuse. They haunt me with promises to never abandon me the way everyone does. They keep my company well into the night, and even when I become tired enough to close my eyes, they follow me. They turn my dreams into nightmares, and all I want is to escape. Some nights, all I want is to forget.”

-n.c. // the memories I never asked for.

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"I stopped telling people that I was okay. I started reaching out for help. I started opening up, but what I didn't realize was that it didn't matter whether you tell them or not. They will never care enough to be there."

— notes from the mentally ill girl

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Although I mentioned a masterpost of creepy wikipedia articles on my blog, here are the top 10 that truly creeped or scared me to my core:

Phantom time hypothesis: One of those that make you hit an existential crisis. The Phantom Time Hypothesis alleges that the period of time between 614 and 911 A.D. was added in retroactively, and that events that happened during this time occurred at different points in history, or didn’t happen at all.

List of unexplained sounds: A complete compilations of creepy noises that stemmed from who know where. They are completely unidentified. 

List of unexplained disappearances: A complete list of publicly unexplained human disappearances, and of people whose current whereabouts are unknown or whose deaths are not substantiated, as well as a few cases of people whose disappearances were notable and remained mysterious for a long time, but were eventually explained.

Kelly-Hopskinsville encounter: This was a a series of incidents of alleged close encounters with extraterrestrial beings. If aliens do exist, they sure are freaky. 

Shadow person: Every culture around the world has some version of a “shadow person” in their mythology. In some form or other, these visitors in the night are apparently a universal fear.

Black-eyed children: A complete description of an urban legend of supposed paranormal creatures that resemble children between the ages of 6 and 16, with pale skin and black eyes, who are reportedly seen hitchhiking or panhandling, or are encountered on doorsteps of residential homes.

Armin Meiwes: Armin Meiwes was a German cannibal who found someone who voluntarily let him kill and eat him on the internet. Before the victim died, Meiwes severed the guy’s penis and they shared it.Meiwes has since become a vegetarian but claims there are “about 800” cannibals in Germany.

List of haunted locations around the world: A complete list of reportedly haunted locations throughout the world, that are haunted by ghosts or other supernatural beings, including demons. 

Murder of Junko Furuta:  The Wikipedia article basically tells the real life story of a 17 year old Japanese girl who was abducted and held for over 40 days while being tortured. This made me loose my faith in humanity. 

Murder of Shanda Sharer: Another one of those that will make you loose your faith in humanity.Four girls tortured and killed a 12-year-old girl, eventually burning her alive. They then went to McDonald’s and ate breakfast, joking about how she looked like one of the sausages they were eating.

You may also like my masterpost of creepy places:

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my problem is, i fall for anyone who gives me attention.

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