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i think it’s time to return to my safe space.

return to a space in time where this abyss of a mind is tamed.

a wandering mind

a wandering soul

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yoooo, this is what I live for.

bless the souls of those who show appreciation towards one another. 

its a notion that is very much under appreciated. 

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i want you to tell the fuckin' truth.. i know you still think about me.

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LOYALTY.

for the past months I’ve been struggling with the notion of being committed yet free. I thought to myself is it wrong to want a person for the moment only to take a step back to ponder is this really what I want for me?

I mean I do really like you, but it seems I love me. I can’t afford to invest my time, effort & consistency on the wrong things. not again. not to label you as a wrong thing but I mean … took me 2+ years to figure out XYZ wasn’t the king I perceived him to be.

but that’s not the point, point being is this - It seems we both have shit to figure out the difference is you want to with me and unfortunately I can’t do that because it’s my time to be selfish and free myself from that constant worrying and overthinking.

I will not lie and say my walls are not up but I’ve been a healer for far too long and now the time has come to render my services from within. the time has come to check myself in.

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3 YEARS.

it would've been 3 years today but you didn't stay. surprisingly I'm not sad but sometimes I think of you anyway.

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SHIFT.

I am in the middle of creating something great. I am in the middle of interconnecting with my being. spiritually, emotionally. I am elevating, shifting. I am living up to who I am supposed to be – I was made in God's image after all.

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TELL ME.

you miss me, but you don't want it back? so tell me why can't you move on just like that?

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LET GO.

baby it was never you — I wished, I thought, I longed. but it was never you — so go ahead and bloom. cause I will too. this chapter has been finalized.

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“Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Sometimes you’ll put up a good fight and lose. Sometimes you’ll hold on really hard and realize there is no choice but to let go. Acceptance is a small, quiet room.” - Cheryl Strayed

via @quotemadness

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final goodbye.

farewell my love, this was your choice not mine I will no longer be in your life. if that changes then you'll be the one who admits defeat. I won't crawl to you. I will go on. because that's what queens do after all.

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erupt.

you're passive aggressive. you don't communicate. do you hate me? do you love me? all I wanted was to see you the few last times before I'm gone. ... whatever it is — get well soon.

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endless.

did that catch me off guard? absolutely. am I upset? yes. am I hurt? of course. am I angry? maybe a tad. but what can I do? we are stuck in this endless cycle of - not speaking unfollowing speaking following R E P E A T. how much longer before we confront our feelings?

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liar liar.

go ahead - lie to the world lie to yourself, even. but truth be told the sparkle in your eyes & the genuine smile you uphold cannot be silenced even behind closed doors.