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its escapism. ive read about other peoples stories and they put their life on hold too. its just so crazy because you living a perfect life in your head does nothing to better yours and you could be living that life if you weren’t so scared to go out there! do you even feel as good when the same things happen in real life instead of your imagination?

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i daydream a lot. i think about you. im in such a better place but somehow i still want more. i want you. if i met you in real life i wouldn’t be good to you. i just want to be cool.

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i originally made this blog because i was suffering with loneliness. i felt so depressed and i felt like i could talk to nobody. so i talked to you.

i feel better now. im thinking over whether i should delete this blog or not. it feels too personal for everyone to have access to.

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im so sorry if i cant be there around for you the way i was before. please know that it hurts more than you think. sometimes i try to stay the person i used to be but its so hard and i dont think i can handle the same load i used to.

im making it about me. its your birthday. have an amazing one. we dont see eachother as often. in fact almost never. times have changed, we dont live in the same room anymore.

i hope, alone, you find yourself growing and becoming a person thats proud of who they are. every action done with intent and every situation on your side. dont let people push you to settle, go do what you enjoy.

i hope with friends you feel comfortable. i hope you feel loved and learn to love effortlessly. surround yourself with people who interest you and you to them, but make sure your not pretending to be someone else. tell them stories youve never told anyone before, useless and endless conversations.

i miss you always. take care of yourself, seriously. keep focused and calm, your eyes wide open and your brows up.

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...it didn't go through

i got this one project offer from one of my friends and i havent told anyone because it might not end up going through. i am super excited though. i hope my friend and i end up making it happen

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i dont want to do my work

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also ive been super angry at my brother recently.

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i got this one project offer from one of my friends and i havent told anyone because it might not end up going through. i am super excited though. i hope my friend and i end up making it happen

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My Liberation Notes Episode 1 46:03 – 46:50

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i would like to have someone to talk to every day and every night

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i wish u could tell me what i can do

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“You can say anything and I will not abandon you.”

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but i think that makes me a person that uses people more like a get me up than an actual human being and friend

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i just honestly wanted to go to sleep but now i camt bc you cant go to sleep angry but if i had you to talk to i would slept much earlier

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i mean just finding someone that make syou happy and then you maing them happy thats hard as fuxk

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yeah ive never really reached that balance and i think it requires SO MUCH work

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i think there has to be a steady balance of oh i feel really happy with you and im sorry i feel really horibble today can i just vent out my problems and you can listen but you dont have to feel like you have to help. i just want a hug and someone to listen