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Susan Abulhawa, from Against the Loveless World: A Novel

[Text ID: “I wanted to be chosen, maybe loved. I wanted out of my life, out of my skin,”]

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PPA AND PPD IS A BITCH

i cant believe that the person i was 4 months ago and the person i am now is the same person. i dont even feel like myself anymore.

post partum depression isnt what i struggle with constantly, its the anxiety, and the short fuse that i have with my patience with everyone else but my daughter, she seems to be the only person i can be patient with these days. the person i used to be was so laid back and chill, so very go with the flow, now lately it feels like i cant ever catch my breath or to just sit back and relax, i dont even remember what thats like anymore.

ive set a very high standard for what my daughter is around and who helps raise her. i did that specifically for a reason, i only ever want whats best for her. and lately it seems like people dont want to respect the boundaries and expectations that ive set for her, and nothing makes me more uncomfortable in my situation than people not respecting the rules i have set and how i want things to go moving forward.

this is a bigger struggle because my husband doesnt handle confrontation at all. of course i knew this the whole time ive been with him, as a matter of fact it was one of the things i loved about him, hes very soft spoken and agreeable and it was a breath of fresh air for me in my world of chaos and quite the opposite of how i am as a person. but now that were parents its one of the things i struggle with the most about him. because i need him to stand up for us to anyone that needs to be stood up to, and it feels like i dont have that strong person in my corner to stand up for me, it feels like i need to be the one to do those things. and it makes my PPA worse.

im not sure what this post is, i just needed a second to compose whats going on in my head to someone who wont comment on whether im wrong in how i feel or to have someone pretend like they know what im saying or validate me.

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Had my baby a week ago, this anxiety this time is something else.

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Shut up biiiitch I don't care if you're gonna kill god

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Louise Glück

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Neck Deep - Detroit - November 27, 2021

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um yeah I pull bitches. pull bitches into my dark realm of terrors

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Trophy Eyes // Breathe You In

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There are 110 days until HALLOWEEN

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Bad Children’s Books 

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good love good sex communication

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she is me, i am her🦇🖤