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SHADOWHUNTERS + text posts 12/∞ | Malec Edition

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SHADOWHUNTERS + text posts 12/∞ | Malec Edition

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Malec moments

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Shadowhunters 3.10 Parabatai fight

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--favorite malec moments [season 1]--

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Y O U and M E, we always seem to find our way back to each other.

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Alec Appreciation Weeks | Week #6 - Favourite Outfit(s) “Brown?” Isabelle made a face. “Brown is a manly colour,” said Jace and yanked on a stray lock of Isabelle’s hair with his free hand. “In fact, look-Alec is wearing it.” Alec looked mournfully down at his sweater. “It was black,” he said. “But then it faded.” “You could dress it up with a sequined headband,” Magnus suggested.

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“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.” (x)

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SH 01x07

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Alec Appreciation Weeks | Week #13 - Favourite Funniest Scene(s) Oh, my God, are you talking about having sex? Can you not discuss my sex life with the entire Institute, please.

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All my brain cells in one picture trynna understand why dots portaling around the city

I also relate to season 1 Alec so much cause he’s just done

Shadowhunters rewatch - 1x02

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There are rumors that local Shadowhunters have been interfering in Downworld affairs. But you two wouldn’t know anything about that, right?

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Alec Lightwood

A real pretty boy

Shadowhunters

Season 1

Before Magnus

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Alec's family fixing his clothes for him when he's nervous...

...and somehow, I can't help but headcanon that he secretly enjoys it, and that it just might, indeed, have a very soothing and calming effect on him.

I mean, open displays of affection do not seem to be something that is especially valued amongst Shadowhunters. Maryse seemingly raised her children to be the perfect Clave soldiers / officers, and used (restrained) motherly love and approval as motivators for them to behave in accordance to the Clave's laws and customs.

She taught them to control their emotions and to believe that their very human and instinctive needs for unconditional warmth, closeness, touch, and affection were weaknesses that should be ignored, denied and pushed aside.

And, while Jace was the golden child whose exploits allowed him to slightly deviate from the rules without being blamed too harshly for it...

And Isabelle was more or less the rebellious child that was expected to challenge authority within reasonable limits from time to time...

Alec was expected to constantly show the example for his younger siblings - regardless of his own needs and wants - and never deviate from his parents and the Clave's ideals...

From what I understand, they'd go as far as holding him responsible for his siblings' behavior by making him believe that, as a future leader, it was his job to keep them in line.

Besides Jace and Alec allowing themselves to grab each other's hands, briefly pull each other closer, and sharing a mutual heartfelt pat on the back - a warrior's embrace between two parabatai - before meeting Magnus, Season 1 Alec didn't really appear to allow himself any public or open display of affection with others.

So, it's entirely possible that something as simple as "fixing clothes" - a gesture that has a very utilitarian side to it - became a way for the Lightwood family to physically show and express their love, support, and affection towards Alec without being too obvious about it.

And that, whenever people he loves spontaneously do step in to smooth out wrinkles and/or fix his appearance, Alec feels like they are paying attention to him and what he's going through; and caring enough to offer their help and support without him risking being punished for expressing a need for it.

Then, right after Alec finally takes the risk of letting himself be open and vulnerable with Magnus by voicing that he does have feelings that run rather deep (deeply enough for him to feel like he's losing his balance), that he does struggle with letting people in and healthily handling his emotions when he's stressed, that he's concerned that he doesn't know how to properly apologize to someone (since allowing himself to be emotionally open with another person is all very new for him) and that he's sincerely sorry for the way he took it out on Magnus and handled it when Magnus was only showing concern towards him and trying to help...

Magnus reassures him that he is forgiven, that he's actually doing great at apologies, and spontaneously reaches out to fix his crumpled collar for him, thus unwittingly offering him the old familiar Lightwood equivalent of "Don't worry, you've got this! I'm here for you, and I love you..." on top of it.

Alec, his siblings, and his mother all become a lot more "tactile" with each over the course of the series, as they all start acknowledging and expressing their more human, emotional side. I totally blame Magnus', Clary's, and even Simon's influence, BTW.

But, at the very beginning of the series, they were virtually never really shown hugging or embracing each other - especially around others - the same way they start doing more frequently after they meet with these outsiders that eventually become family, and start challenging their whole worldviews and beliefs.

Also, I find it interesting that the only two times that Alec was the one that chose to walk away from Magnus (willing to sacrifice his own heart and chance at happiness with him for other people's sake), and Magnus still decided to go after Alec afterwards (to either stop him from making the mistake of throwing his life away for the sake of duty; or to let him know that his father no longer paused a threat to their relationship / conveniently stop him from being killed by an army of demon)...

Well, once Alec finally realizes that it is safe and okay for him to go after what he truly wants, his first instinct is to firmly grab Magnus by the lapels of his coat, push himself forward until their mouths crash together, and continue to hold onto his clothes for dear life while they kiss.

Within the context where Alec would have been instinctively conditioned to associate his family touching and fixing his collar / clothes with something comforting - a way of silently letting him know that he is loved, that they care about what he's going through, that they have faith in him, that things are going to be okay, and that they are there for him...

Having Alec spontaneously go straight fo Magnus' own collar and grabbing onto it like that, might just scream something a bit closer to: "I want you, I need you, I love you, I'm so sorry I chose to leave despite how much I wanted to stay, but this - right now - this is how I truly feel about you. I've got you now, I promise... I'm here with you, for you, and I choose you, if you'll still have me."

And one of the things I absolutely adore about that "collar grab" is how careful Alec is with not throwing Magnus off balance by avoiding to aggressively pull him towards him.

He doesn't use his hold on Magnus' collar to pull him into his own physical space, but instead fully goes to meet Magnus where he stands.

Alec's elbows bend as he moves forward to close the gap between them, and he appears to use the point of contact where he's grabbing onto the lapels as an anchor to simply keep them both stable and grounded as he leans into the kiss.

Why is it so important that he's walking into Magnus' space rather than pulling Magnus towards himself?

Because, that way, Alec is allowing Magnus to comfortably take a step back at any time if the closeness between them is unwelcomed, or becomes too overwhelming.

Whether intentionally or not, in both instances, he hurt Magnus. Even though Magnus did dramatically interrupt Alec's wedding / save Alec's life before telling him that his father can't come between them again, there's no way for Alec to know how comfortable Magnus is going to be with being passionately kissed or touched by him at that moment.

So, while Alec doesn't shy away from going after what he wants and openly expressing it to Magnus; he's also offering Magnus the opportunity to physically let him know how far he's comfortable allowing him to go, and letting him set the right pace between them.

Alec is very assertive and generally comfortable taking the lead, but there is not a single dominating or controlling bone in his body when it comes to Magnus (in terms of seeking to dominate or control a partner in a relationship without said partner's consent or ability to express their own boundaries, just to be clear).

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Alec Lightwood and Magnus Bane

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