lovemila

[lovemila]

dear you, i faced a fear today! i sat with a friend in the cemetery, at a distance, and had a really beautiful time. i missed him while he was there. we ate nectarines together. these duck pictures in particular have brought me a lot of joy lately! i'm thinking a lot about my role in relationships as a codependent enabler- trying to see myself less as a victim and more as someone who is working on boundaries and identity. toxicity, fatigue, strength. it's 7:23, and i'm going to visit the ocean in a few minutes with my parents. i'm bringing a small yellow bag for seashells. i love you more all the time. i want to make cake and eat it with my hands. i want to eat peach jam alone. i miss you already. love, mila

[lovemila]

dear you, today i'm going to try to be good. i hope that's enough. i'm going to wash my face and wear somethink bright and simple. i'm going to do lots of laundry and consider getting ice cream down the road. i'm going to drink lots of water and stretch my body until it feels better. i have ink all over my hands already. i want to paint beautiful things, and then give them to people i love. maybe it will rain today. if it does rain, i hope it takes all this heaviness in my chest with it. i'm thinking of you, whoever you are. love, mila

[lovemila]

dear you, i am starting this blog/archive/etc for myself. i think. or maybe it's for you, whoever you are. i'm excited to see where this goes- if anywhere! love, mila