lovetothebeatofyourheart

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written by Ashlee Jordan CHAPTER 1 Hawaii south of 2006 Outside in the edge of a spot called ( rock piles ) We zoom out on a wave in Hawaii with shallow rocks  Crystal sets foot on a very long board made for Hawaiian waves, she is not used to the power of the Hawaiian south shore summer sets, compared to her sleepy cold south bay shore pound,  a loud powerful wave that rests at her shoulders…

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The glistening sea and Daisy Written by ashleefloweromedy The Glistening Sea Rushes over Me Written by Ashlee Nicole JordanWalking down a backlit alley with the sunset slowly closing into the horizon with pink and orange clouds remaining, coming back from a long hot summer day at the beach (skate park hangs)Allen-What is that in your– what the fuck, are those mushrooms?Daisy-Yeah, Baby, it’s my…

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You reach out.

Then disappear

It’s like a distant tide.

Shifting over me

Like I am beneath you

Sound off

Muted

No need to feel my vibrational sound

Just a vision in your mind

You see me for what I am, and what I am not.

Meet me in the middle

Let go of the fear

Hear me

Hold me

Love me

I will be true

I will be yours

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Your like a peppermint halo

All over me

My lips

Your voice

Like a refreshing stream

My dream

Your song

Divinely colliding

I like that feeling

I like that realm the forest moon fairies

Your bare essentials and the wild world your creating

We found each other in it once again

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When your on the other side of it -

It hurts

There’s no other stream of delight

Only source that can quench my thirst

Free my mind

Feed my soul

Peel my ego

I find that testing the waters has kept me shivering for warmth in the endless summer

I want to submerge Into you

I want to swim up to your counter and order a fine time

Just us two

Up and out of the flow of the buzzing sequences

I don’t want to be on the other side of you, I want to walk alongside your glowing fortitude

Your mind that stimulates mine

Your smile that perverts mine

Your soul that activates something sweet I’ve never seen up close before in myself, and in the world

I shiver when I’m near but not out of pain or fear

But out of excitement I chatter and exude hope

I flow into a new level of freshness

It’s fine to grow and be here together

The confirming tide

The channel is this way

It’s easier to get on the outside than into the wave

Ride with me

And I’ll show you how

I’ll learn from you and follow what you do

I’ll let you lead

And trust your seed

And I promise you’re safe when angels are near

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I used to call you

When I was on my way over the mountain to that one cold room with my medicine that kept me numb

I was so far deep in the wrong direction

I would eventually take a less glamorous route back to the same street

Only to discover myself on the mildew fringe of an artistic chase

When will I find the glory

I left behind

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From a love poem

To me cursing you on the phone

It shifted that quick

Your words you can’t take back

It shattered the tower that held us up

The wind blew thru the smoke and mirrors

Your fake love

Your safe love

Your mean and hurtful

Dreams are punctured

And egos rule

All thru this year

A nightmare with you

Reached for you at one point to release the pressure

Now I realize you were what was making me hurt

Intense distraction

Feelings of demise

Swelling inside

Having to feel this all

It’s not worth it for a second

Take it back

All the time wasted

All the feelings spilled

You can’t clean this up

It’s a stain in my clean shirt

Time to take it off

Let it rest

Let it go

Flow back to myself and the glory I’m destined to embody

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Yesterday I realized

That I’m not with you

I’m with myself and have been skipped back into the pond

The evening sets in

The rain drops fall

Your neglect has me shattered

Remembering why I left this behind

Your cold gaze

Those blue eyes lie

The ego has got us both

Like a pack of wolves I’ve veered away

Solo and lost

Thinking I could trust a wolf

One of my kind

I’ve somehow transformed

Away from the insane cycle of duality and repetition

Patterns from the shirts I sew

The needles poke at my fingers

I’m sore now

Not stronger

But I can walk away with what little dignity I have left

And say goodbye for a while at least

Hoping this chapter will prelude to a kiss

A sweet something a whisper of sweet nothings

What’s left to be

Free from this

Like two magnets we repel each other

Stagnant lies

Your disguise

Your dis gaze

You can’t see the stars in Los Angeles

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Let me be

Have me see

What you really are

What it is you see me as

An item you can return

Into the abyss of endless emotion

For you

I saw in your eyes the ocean I wanted to escape into

A sea of pure joy

Like a wave of feeling

And it passes before I can hear the sound of your voice

soothe me in this chaos

you were the one inflicting the pain

See me as an enemy

I’ve gotten my locks all secured

Put away the nurturing warmth that I once grasped on to you to give away

Like a hungry animal seeking shelter and food

You starved the love I felt for you

by keeping me in the cold

Now I’m a victimizer

A monster of a woman

Let me continue to stay alone in this isolation

away from you and all you do

All you have seen

All you see me as

The fear you have

The reputation and company you keep

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He’s blocked me out Blocked me out without a key locked out In the cold, in the alley without the key Into my true existence Of desperate longing for acceptance and validation It’s time I look in the mirror and see my actions as pathetic as they are Where is your career? Where is your luxury What do you have to show who do you have to hold for more than a fleeting moment? It’s gone in a gust of wind Investing in distractions and escaping down a river that circles back to myself and my failures Will I find it the key that unlocks myself to the life I am meant to participate in Will I continue to drag my feet into the next chapter of showing up as they’ve told me I have to in order to survive It’s life or death this circumstance your choices and mind have landed you in You now live on an island It is all you have The sea The sky The land The birds and the ocean The sea and the bees Isolated in the gifts I give Bringing me out of my despair Selfishly looking to slip back in to my indulgence of depleted elation

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Tears streaming down Like a river that won’t stop Moving forward crashing back In regret and sadness A hope that has fleeting glimpses Grief Ache Nausea once more What kind of cruel karma has landed on my heart once again, only to magnify this deep sorrow Deep heated Deep seeded disappointment How can I not feel this in my whole body My whole body’s awareness My heavenly whole celestial being My intuitive self Your divine plan Your divine gift Your divine whole masculine Your divine masculine is someone else’s Someone else’s seed Your divine seed Harvested and healthy Me, left envious and rotting Like a half eaten apple Withering Away From you Your glory My tears

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If you wish...

I want you in my shower dripping with excitement

I want you in my arms because i am soothed with the love you give

I want you near my breath because i can finally breathe

Im falling in love i feel in my feet

Up to my mind with each realization

Each vision falling into place

Every beat, every flutter

Every fear transforming into tears freeing me from the thoughts that kept me stuck

Without a clue

You have entered the impossible horizon with me

From red to deep blue

As I unlock the treasure there is no more hesitation

I like the sound of your voice it makes me feel pure

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