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my father said to me once that one of the things he deeply regretted was not putting music on for his father while he was fading away. he told me that grandpa would just sit in his old armchair in the quiet, and not until after he’d passed did my dad think of how he could have played of his favorite classical music tapes for him so grandpa could listen to something while he still could. i was very young when this happened and not much older when my dad told me this, but it always stuck with me as something important.

my mother died at home in a hospice cot, slowly shutting down over the course of about a week. when she had stopped responding, i remembered what dad told me about wishing he’d played music for grandpa, and i put the radio on her favorite country music station and kept it on for her until she died.

daddy died in hospital. no cassette players, no decent radios. the day after he was brought in, i thought again of what he told me, and i bought a little portable bluetooth speaker. even though he never woke up, was never aware, i played music for him too.

there’s no real significance to sharing this, not really. my motivation is selfish, again: i just want to hope that someone might think of this when their loved one is stuck in silence somehow, and maybe they’ll play music for them, and they won’t have to regret not doing so. i want to hope it helps someone. and i want to hope that someone will remember my dad with me, even in just a “story i read on the internet” way.

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Cheryl Strayed, Tiny Beautiful Things: Advice on Love and Life from Dear Sugar

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Muskurahat

धीमे धीमे चले पुरवैया. बोले थाम तू मेरी बइयाँ संग चल मेरे रोके क्यों जिया हो धीमे धीमे चले पुरवैया

रुत ये अनोखी सी आई सजनिया बादल की डोली में लो बैठी रे बूंदनिया

धरती से मिलने को निकले सावनिया सागर में घुलने को चली देखो नदिया

नया सफर है एक नया हौसला बांधा चिड़ियों ने नया घोसला नई आशा का दीपक जला चला सपनों का नया काफिला

कल को करके सलाम आचल हवाओ का थाम देखो उडी एक धानी चुनरिया

धीमे धीमे चले पुरवैया बोले थाम तू मेरी बइयाँ

Song lyrics: dheeme dheeme , Laapata Ladies by Swanand Kirkire , Composition: Ram sampath Voice : Shreya Ghoshal

Pic credit: to owner( from Tumblr)

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Laapata Ladies (2023)

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Sending my unconditional love to addicts and people with horrible compulsions and people who are suicidal and everyone who feels utterly alone and all the psychotic people who society disdains and the homeless and people who feel lost and everyone who doesn't want to get better and people seeking vindication and people who can't let go and people who are undesired. I love you all so much.

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Water painted by Ivan Aivazovsky (1817 - 1900)

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source: @pppollen on Twitter

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open window save me. save me open window

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fake ass idgafer. I saw you gazing off into the distance like you were looking at something far away, something no one else could see but you

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