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Insane bc I passed w flying colors and I stopped talking to the guy who made me miserable and yet I am still insanely unhappy!!! Very funny stuff tbf

i got prequalifying examinations tomorrow so i can keep being a psych major and if i don't pass those four specific 100 item exams i am not a real psych major and i deserve to get burnt at the stake for my crimes 😀 also i have to repeat the exam if i fail or i'll be forced to shift courses so thats like 3 years of suffering down the drain.

but also i have a confession: i haven't studied at all. so failing is a Very Real Thing bc i foolishly thought id be lucid enough to study during the last week and i am not. i dealt with a good case of summertime sadness (i have depression), spent my summer talking to people on dating apps and crying and going to the movies and playing sims 4 😀 i'm just. failure is very real and very corporeal for me. wish me luck?

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cillian again

#self rb #i live a bit

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watched oppenheimer again because my day was weird.

so during an important panel interview i burst into tears. the panelists informed me i am the first person to cry during an interview with them and i was filled with so much embarrassment i couldnt stop crying and one of the panelists gave me a hug???

i went outside to cool off and a member of the faculty saw me and talked to me about it because i was sobbing alone on a bench. and campus security saw me and they were like it's gonna be okay you'll get em next time. i got into a taxi because it was raining really hard and i was sobbing silently and i must have looked terrible all drenched in rain and crying with my ID lace still on that the driver wouldn't talk to me 😭

stop your sobbing by the pretenders started playing on the radio and i was like...on god I WILL...and i asked the taxi driver to drop me off at the mall so i could watch oppenheimer. mind U this was a saturday and the movies were packed because u kno cinema is back, barbenheimer etc etc and i was alone in line with bloodshot, puffy eyes, asking the seller for "One Ticket to Oppenheimer 4:45pm Please" and i had lunch at 3:30pm and.

my second viewing of oppenheimer was still as incredible as my first. wht a phenomenal film. he just like me (fumbled a panel interview)

when i got home my mom was like u said you'd be back by 5pm it's 9pm!!!! and i was like "sorry traffic was crazy and the interview was extended and my phone lost power" and she was like "okay fine" so everything is all good now

#bad days tag #...good days tag?

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i got prequalifying examinations tomorrow so i can keep being a psych major and if i don't pass those four specific 100 item exams i am not a real psych major and i deserve to get burnt at the stake for my crimes 😀 also i have to repeat the exam if i fail or i'll be forced to shift courses so thats like 3 years of suffering down the drain.

but also i have a confession: i haven't studied at all. so failing is a Very Real Thing bc i foolishly thought id be lucid enough to study during the last week and i am not. i dealt with a good case of summertime sadness (i have depression), spent my summer talking to people on dating apps and crying and going to the movies and playing sims 4 😀 i'm just. failure is very real and very corporeal for me. wish me luck?

#bad days tag #sorry for never writing i've been sad #this is a personal acc anyways #i shouldnt feel guilty for clogging your dashboards with my mess #but i am a recovering catholic so

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During the filming of John Wick: Chapter 4, actor Bill Skarsgård portrayed the Marquis de Gramont thinking of him as someone who came from an impoverished background before rising through the High Table's ladder to achieve a high-ranking position that allows him to savor a wealth he didn't have before, hence his tendency to savor the glittery suits he wears in most of his scenes. Whether this backstory is canon or not is unknown.

#vincentposting #christ that's my meow meow

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NO LONGER BUSY WITH UNI

still not normal about vincent de gramont ive just been very busy with uni 😔😔😔

#horrific academic year for me!! #so drained but im glad thats over #i still have qualifying exams at the end of july so it's not entirely joever #but at least i'm not in a situationship anymore we won #also ill have more time to write ^_^ #and draw ^_^

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you'll never meet another him, and he won't let you forget it!!

[and he won't know this for a long time, but he'll never meet another you, too. hope he doesn't find out about this the hard way!!]

talk to me about the marquis (if yall r still into him) 🥺🥺🥺

#vincentposting #mvdg x reader #THANK U FOR THIS I HAVE BEEN REVITALIZED #the song is so violently MVDG like it's in my vincentcore playlist now #re: “hope he doesn't find out about this the hard way” -- mwehehehe. #absence makes the heart grow fonder <3 im thinking the reader gets into a lil lovers spat with him #n vincent is petty so heignores u for a solid three days or a bit more until the aching hole in his chest grows into something all-consumin #and then he has his employees hunt u down #bc he misses u and he doesnt go to therapy #and when they're unable to find u the hole in his chest grows larger and idk he's a weird individual #he thinks he can replace u!!! he thinks he's the irreplaceable one!!! #spoiler: he's not the only one who's irreplaceable #ok thats enough vincentposting

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talk to me about the marquis (if yall r still into him) 🥺🥺🥺

#still very much into him 😭

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Coyness, Mr. Nobody, is a pathetic trait. A miscalculation, in which by trying to hide our ego, we let it appear stark naked.

JOHN WICK: CHAPTER 4 dir. Chad Stahelski

#vincentposting #his side profile is just peak

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You are no longer New York. You are nothing. You are excommunicado. And as such, you no longer need the services of a concierge.

JOHN WICK: CHAPTER 4 dir. Chad Stahelski

#vincentposting #ok finals done time to look at him for hours

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still not normal about vincent de gramont ive just been very busy with uni 😔😔😔

#spending most of my free time studying which is detrimental to my mental health but i fear the serotonin boost that comes after #getting good grades makes it allllll worth it #(not really)

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life update: i hyperfixated so hard on biochem and i ended up lifting my grade from 75% to 94% in a single term like

#in uni #also bc i MIGHT be in love with my chem tutor

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Writing feels like playing with barbies sometimes. This ken is weirdly obsessed with you!

#wip; ​patron of the arts #vincentposting #every time i get compliments i get the urge to puke #i wanted to write that for the artist but i decided not to #LFMENDNEJNDBABSDBHS

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Me

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#wip; ​patron of the arts #vincentposting #LMAOOOOOOO

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having a crush is like i like u. but i don’t know u that well. i want to get to know u. i am scared of u. i love being around u. i want to run away when i see u. u make me feel butterflies. i think it’s anxiety. i think abt u at night. i daydream about u. when i’m around u i can hardly speak. when i’m around u i can’t stop talking. u make me feel so good. i feel like an idiot

#me at 20 experiencing an intense crush on someone for the first time like im going to be sick

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I did not

holy shit i think i aced my chem exam