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I love the power mercy holds in Crime and Punishment. Showing someone mercy is not allowing them to get away with something. It is forcing them to reckon with it themselves. It is a reclaiming of agency. A refusal to be turned into something you aren't.

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drowning....(hypothetical)

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官配姐袭来

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fyodor dostoevsky, crime and punishment

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Sex is not enough. Confess your sins to me and let's go to Siberia.

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raskolnikov from crime and punishment considering killing himself but then seeing some girl try to kill herself by jumping off a bridge but she survives. and then he’s like omfg that’s so awkward and embarrassing nevermind

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"O Lord, what shall i do? "

Rodion Romanovich Raskolnikov escapes the Pawnbroker’s tenements : Crime and Punishment illustration

details of him :)

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Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment

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my psychiatrist just diagnosed me with 19th century russian literature character

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I know this is an fgo blog but. Crime and punishment rbs be upon ye

#finished it today!!! #my eyes were a bit teary ohhh how I love everyone in this book

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so I’ve been rereading c&p (I’ve been stressed out lately and decided that would fix me) and am once again in awe of dostoevsky’s characterization. like obviously there’s raskolnikov and all his eccentricities that make him relatable in spite of himself. and razumikhin with his indomitable optimism and cute little colloquialisms (we do want money like a bear wants molasses you’re so right my friend). and nastasya who pokes fun at raskolnikov but still brings him meals even when the landlady tells her not to. the landlady doesn’t even appear other than peeking through the door and dostoevsky still gives her her due. and dunya who’s a paradoxical mix of coolness and tenderness (she is a raskolnikov after all). and don’t get me started on sonya who fills a trope in the story but is then made to feel the weight of it. and pulcheria and lizaveta and even I would argue alyona ivanovna plus many others I’m not mentioning. like who would want to be an extraordinary man when the ordinary ones are so much richer

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If you kin a dostoyevsky character please specify which one so i know if i have to call the suicide hotline or the police.

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everyone talks a lot about suffering and despair as it pertains to Dostoevsky’s work which is totally fair and understandable given the subject matter but I rarely see discussion of how deeply and sacredly tender the end of C&P is. I think there’s a very important lesson to be learned which is that you do not unilaterally get to decide that you are horrid beyond redemption and unworthy of love, no matter what horrible things you’ve done. Sonya and Razumikhin and Dunya do not abandon Rodya as he thinks they should and in fact they uproot their entire lives to make sure there will still be a place for him in the world when he gets out of prison. Other people have free will and they can use that free will to unconditionally love and forgive you and there’s nothing you can do about that, whether you choose to receive it or not so you may as well receive it- even if you feel unworthy. And that is like the very beginning of hope and coming back from the place of no return. Is letting yourself be loved. And letting yourself be loved—- even if you don’t feel that you deserve it—- opens the gateway to experiencing love for others yourself after a prolonged period of cutting yourself off from feeling those feelings of positive regard. It’s a stream that flows both ways. And it doesn’t change any of the horrifying facts about the past. But it makes it possible to begin to live again.

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Raskolnikov and Nastasiuschka ☕ [crime and punishment, fyodor dostoyevsky] sketch

25/MAY/2023

Yo, I'm loving this book so much... I had high hopes before getting into it and it's still surprising me (for the good, obv). I just read this scene and it got me so confused... like, does she know??!! or is this just one of his dreams?? If she knows I want her to be his confident because I like her so much...