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"You have to stop the world just to stop the feeling! "

- Chappell Roan, Good Luck, Babe!

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youuu could kiss a hundred boys in bars shoot another shot try to stop the feelin

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just so y’all know i’ve been going feral over this one too

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YOU CAN KISS😘💋 A HUNDRED💯 BOYS🙎‍♂️ IN BARS‼️ SHOOT🔫 ANOTHER SHOT🥃 TRY TO STOP❌️✋️ THE FEELING‼️YOU CAN 🗣SAY🗣 IT'S JUST THE WAY YOU ARE😜🤷‍♀️‼️ MAKE A NEW EXCUSE, ANOTHER STUPID🤦‍♀️ REASON‼️‼️‼️GOOD LUCK🍀 BABE‼️ (WELL GOOD LUCK) WELL GOOD LUCK 🍀BABE‼️ (WELL GOOD LUCK) YOU'D HAVE TO STOP❌️ THE WORLD🌎 JUST TO STOP❌️✋️ THE FEELING‼️ GOOD LUCK🍀 BABE‼️ (WELL GOOD LUCK) WELL GOOD LUCK🍀 BABE‼️ (WELL GOOD LUCK) YOU'D HAVE TO STOP❌️❌️❌️ THE WORLD🌎 JUST TO STOP THE FEELING‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

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the Clue™

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the realization this brought me made me cry actual tears.. [not mine]

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you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

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It's been almost five years since The Haunting of Hill House came out on Netflix. And it has irrevocably changed my life.

The depiction of grief. Addiction. Depression. Loss. Identity. Family relationships. Family dynamics. Healing your inner child. Having to deal with your inner child. The fact that in some ways you never really grow up, you're that exact same person inside that is dealing with all these increasingly complex and difficult things, trying hard to not let the child in you react because you know it shouldn't.

Thinking about Theo taking her gloves off. Nell going to therapy, putting in work, and still having her demons chase her around all the way to the end. Shirley's entire life and career being based around wanting to help people in their darkest moments the way someone helped her (though isn't that what they all do, too? Especially Theo). Luke as the youngest, being left behind or not believed and eventually having to find ways to self-soothe, which as an adult are not as health-friendly as other options out there. But it's what he had to do to cope. And Steve... everyone knows a Steve.

I know people have commented before about the five Crain siblings and the five stages of grief. But they also each experience those themselves, and in some ways the five of them simply display how much grief and living can do to a person. Juxtaposing the entire modern part of the series with them as children reminded me how much the things I do now can also be drawn back to little Me. The decisions I make, what scares me, who I reach out to. What haunts me? I may not have a big scary terrifying Death House in my past, but I mean... we've all got our version of a big scary terrifying Death House.

The tragedy of Hill House, the complicated love that's shown, the connections and relationships we have with our families, the world, ourselves. I cannot, will not, should not, would not forget it.

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something something mike flannagan something something "this room is like the heart of the house. no, not a heart, a stomach." something something "you didn't feed them though, did you? you starved them."

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like a murmuring brook

curving about you

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Rekha in silsila (1981)

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“once more to see you,” mitski

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― Ovid, Metamorphoses

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