guy i'm sexting is in the military and he won't even send me cock out pictures in his uniform well then what is the POINT :(
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i did try to reach out to somebody else and she was super sweet abt it but then just stopped responding to my texts even yhough i was trying so hard to reign in the crazy. so that sucks. time to kick in my distractions and try to forget all this enough that i can go to bed
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i think all of this is my fault anyway for making him my whole support. i need to stop
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if he were just awake i'd talk to him now and everything would be okay. i just want to tell him what's wrong so he can hold me but he literally told me not to then went to bed.
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every time i try to go back to the bedroom i just start sobbing again when i see him. but on the bright side both our kitties joined me on the couch and i am getting some good snuggles <3
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going on antibiotics tomorrow so i wont be able to for at least another week. so awesome. i need to buy a gun.
boyfriend has not had sex with me in over a week even tho we live together and usually do every few days at Least.... how long do i wait before i kill myself
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boyfriend has not had sex with me in over a week even tho we live together and usually do every few days at Least.... how long do i wait before i kill myself
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can feel a psychotic episode coming on amd i haaate it here
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cutting pretty shapes into myself makes me sooosososo happy u have no idea
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i need to be fucking lobotomized
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boy who can't be trusted around trash compactors
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my sister's pissed at me, my mom's sick of trying to help me, my dad's gone, my boyfriend isn't speaking to me. and for once it's not even my fucking fault, which only makes it worse because there's nothing i can do to fix it. idk how i'm going to get through this.
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at the end of my fucking rope this week between the car crash, dealing with my injuries, moving, preparing for the first tests of semester, dealing with losing my dad, falling behind at work because of my injures, etcetcetc and NOW is when my boyfriend decides to be an asshole to me ?? two days before we'll be living together ???
literally cussed at and talked so condescending to me last night, and he apologized but very much in the 'tell me its fine and stop being offended it makes me uncomfortable' way. like i appreciate the apology but i'm still hurt. told me he's fine when i tried to reach out and check up on him because i know he's been having a hard time too. and now isn't speaking to me at all. how are YOU going to get mad at ME for being hurt that you were mean?? he hasn't checked up on me or asked if i'm okay since the day of the accident over a week ago, literally refused to call me the one time i was having horrible flashbacks and needed to talk to someone, and when i almost got in Another accident days after the first one tried to hang up on me while i was still crying and terrified and got annoyed when i asked him not to.
i know it isn't fair to ask one person to be my entire support network and i need to find other people in my life i can reach out to and rely on, but when we're dating he's supposed to be there for me and he just hasn't been. and i feel like i don't have anywhere else to turn and i don't know how to take care of myself without any kind of help. especially when i'm HIS entire support and i'm always always there for him, every time he asks and even when he can't admit he needs help at first.
it just sucks. i love him and i just want to be with him but he won't even send me a text right now. it feels like he doesn't care at all, and i've already reached out so many times and gotten nothing i don't know what else to do.
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