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{Quotes marguaxpoetry on Instagram / Sarah Kay}

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even when i am utterly alone, the love in my heart never stops expanding, filling up my chest, squeezing through my ribs, until my body can barely contain its warm glow.

even when there's no one to give it to, i am full of love.

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sorry i'm not a unique person but my undiagnosed adhd / gifted child / eldest daughter / just like my father / mother's therapist / the smart one / religious trauma / child prodigy / closeted bisexual / people pleaser self is experiencing exactly what you'd expect me to be experiencing from those things

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you are allowed to mourn things even when things are better now. you are allowed to be sad that it happened. you are allowed to wish things went differently. you are allowed to feel it and not linger. it’s okay to look back sometimes.

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"have you learned how to drive yet" i have the spirit of friendship in my heart. the joy of lifes little things in my soul. the whimsy of magic. the beautiful enjoyment of nature. the answer is no though

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you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

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i want to live

i want learn multiple languages at once and confuse myself, i want to embarrass myself laughing too loud in public, i want to take on too many hobbies and lose myself in a craft, i want to try slam poetry and stumble over my words. i want fake confidence despite being socially anxious, i want to leave my coat home and shiver in regret. i want to live and to learn.

i want to be hurt, i want to be a friend, i want to experience. i want to feel everything; all at once.

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i think about this quote at least once a day

NOTHING has changed my life the way "do it scared" did. like?! do it scared! !! LITERALLY!! it seems so obvious, but i was really wasting my time beating myself up for being scared! trying to bully myself into not being scared, which is SO stupid. im scared and that's fine. it doesn't have to mean anything. and i can do the thing scared. do it scared!

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thanks for the spotify link! in a hundred years they’ll cut down a tree with our intials carved into its bark and they’ll wonder why its wood burns so warm

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the only thing stopping me from writing fanfics is this exactly. i fear the ao3 fic writers curse

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born to feel the need to call my friends immediately when smth happens, forced to overthink it (it’s a long distance friendship and time difference exists, they have their own lives to worry ab, what if they js don’t have the energy for it, it’s not like they can do anything from half the world away anyways, god i’m so lonely i need to socialise more)

#i love my friends #i also have a disorganised attachement style #this is definitely all in my head

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It is what it is *throws up*

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i cannot emphasise enough how much you need to create something. anything. it doesn't matter if you suck. you don't need to monetise it, or make it your career. you can restart an old hobby; you can start from scratch. it doesn't matter. you just need to hold something and be able to say "i did that". baking, drawing, painting, writing, coding, crafts, whatever. make something ! you cannot have all your hobbies be a form of consumption. it's fun, it's great in its own right. but the single best action to make yourself feel better, to calm your mind, to gain self esteem, is to Create

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i think ab this quote daily

that comment about how you should not borrow grief from the future has saved me multiple times from spiraling into an inescapable state of anxiety. like every time i find myself thinking about how something in the future could go wrong i remember that comment and i think to myself: well i never know, it might get better. it might not even happen the way i think it will and if it does happen and it is sad and bad ill be sad about it then, when it happens. and it’s somehow soo freeing

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literally though if you feel like your life is slipping through your fingers and every day goes too fast… try doing hard things, not just taking the easy route, like reading and making art and exercising and cooking a meal from scratch and journaling, doing these things without distraction, without being absorbed on a screen… the time will stretch and you’ll be reminded that life is long and beautiful if you make it so.

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you're going to laugh until your stomach hurts. you're going to eat fruit in hot summer sun. you're going to see the moon from your window at night. discover new music, new place, new people. you'll find your way back home

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I think if I do nothing else on this earth than make people feel a little more loved in a time where they felt alone then ive served my purpose well