being an older sibling is like. you've never known a life without me. mom yelled at me and it taught her she never wanted to yell at you. I painted my room purple and grey and then you did too. we live in the same house but I haven't spoken to you in months. I don't know your favorite color. I saw it was going to rain so I picked you up from school on my way home so your books wouldn't get wet. i was so worried when you woke up sick when you were three. you don't remember being sick. mom and dad made their worst mistakes with me and I'm glad they didn't make them with you. I'm doing everything for the first time so you won't be in the dark. I don't know any of your friend's names anymore. I used to know them all. if something happens to mom and dad you won't have to worry because everything will fall to me. you don't like to be home alone but even if you don't see me just knowing I'm there makes you feel better. at least that's what mom told me. you still give me jars to open for you because you can't quite get them. I only see you during dinner. i'd never even think about missing one of your concerts. I stand at the counter when I eat and now you do, too. when offered a selection of books you picked the same one I did when i was your age. I'm terrified you compare yourself to me. I love you. I don't know if you like me. I want you to. mom says dinner's ready
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Perhaps a child failed by their parents has their own failure ordained.
original writing by @traumacure | do not repost
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richard siken, clementine von radics
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"im mentally ill im disabled i cant be ableist!" Thats so cool!!!! how do you feel about addicts?
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whenever people look down on me for not being a fully "functional" human being by society's standards i try to remind myself that if they were in my shoes they would have shot themselves in the head by now
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steps to healing:
1. Accept it will not be easy
2. Stop doing cocaine
3. Learn to be gentler to the suffering child inside your heart
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Oops! You just touched a bad texture! 1000 years of blood and anguish
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A Book of Insects. Written by Charles Paul May. Illustrated by John Crosby. 1972.
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