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Okay help a friend here! How do I cheat my weight ins again?

I am a grown adult living on my own and even before that I never had anyone caring about me enough to check if I had any bad eating habits. And now I get my adhd meds and its helps so much with (adhd mostly lol but also with) controlling my food intake and now I dont really wanna wait any longer to lose anything and its going so well but they recently took my weight because this is something that has to be checked when you take those meds. And its fine if I lose some but not too fast and not too much or they can take those meds back!

So what else is there for me to do than just chugging down water as if I were a fish, hiding heavy things in my pockets and... idk... dont poop?

[mycanyon]

BIZZ I'M BACK

I'm back on my shit. I have my adhd meds that are hella appetite supressing, I have a lot of stress to forget my survival needs and I am SO READY to become the skinny gal I always wanted to be!!!

I already lost 3,4Kg (7,5lbs) within 8 days!!! Gonna pray here now!

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I dare you to try climbing/bouldering if you hate working out

The reason why video games are so addicting is because it directly rewards you when you become better. You will beatthat level or the next boss. It stimulates your brain instantly for its work or learning.

What does that have to do with it?

A great substitute for video games is climbing/bouldering because it does exacly the same. It helps people shifting their addiction to something more healthier. It also rewards you for getting better since the only thing you need to climb... is you (and the right footware lol).

So I dare you try. It instantly catched me and my friend who was never before seen doing any unecessary movements in their life.

[mycanyon]

Winter Holiday Surviving Tips:

- Destroy your family dynamic so much, you dont want to hang around them anymore and avoid any holiday food.

- Have covid so noone wants you over on the holidays.

- Move countries where they dont celebrate those holidays and move back when they celebrate their own holidays.

- Cease to exist

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"

I wish I havent caved in that day. I went from over 80 Kg down to 70 Kg in basically no time. I could have just continued but no. I caved in for something and since then I plateaued around 70 Kg. Now I am at nearly 72 Kg again. I could have been skinny a looong time ago.

Now I envy people who diet normally. Because by now even them could have made it. I am so disapointed. And I dont want to admit that. But then again you gotta keep your chin up and try again.

There is no reason not to.

I am just praying that I can be better soon.

"

,said the girl after she binged and cried herself to sleep.

[mycanyon]

When the package only states the calories for the finished product but you use different ingredients than what the package says... its called anarchy!

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am i the only one who doesn’t like their feed full of thinspo/mealspo?

like, i appreciate it, but what really makes me not give up is not pictures of something i’ll never be, it’s the text posts from people in my same situation who say how good it feels to do this and remember me why i’m doing it

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Me to the new number on the scale when its higher than the one from yesterday:

[mycanyon]

Being in your ana honeymoon phase and gaining weight feels like a personal attack.

"Excuse me?! I havent given permission for that!!! Please stop!"

[mycanyon]

♡Keep your ED a secret tips♡

how to act

act happy because a happy person can't be anarexic right?

Don't talk about food, because normal people don't fixate on food

Don't stare at people when they are eating, because people will notice your food obsession

How to dispose of food

Blend and pour down the sink

flush down toilet

dispose outside of your house

feed to pets/siblings

NEVER DISPOSE IN YOUR OWN BIN

excuses for not eating

nausea (can work for days, if you say you have a stomach bug, it can get you out of eating for days)

ate at home/ate at school

how to make it look like you're eating more

take food from the pantry often to make it look like your snacking

leave wrappers around

leave dirty dishes in your room

when eating with family, keep a drink bottle next to you and spit food into there and dispose of it later

ask your parents to buy certain food (like chocolate)

switch packaging of diet foods with high cal food (eg swap sugar free jello packet with regular jello packet)

What to do if your forced to eat

Don't make a big deal out of it, because if you do that suspicious

eat a high volume meal

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I am starting freshly

and with that I mean, I put my starting weight to my current weight and start tracking from the beginning... and I started yesterday after I had a massive binge so I magically dropped 2,1Kg over night but thats just for the motivantional boost. Lets see where this takes us.

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[mycanyon]

Oh Honey, you sweet candy

Oh Honey, you sweet candy

You burn my tongue like that taste of brandy

I'll be Ken if you are Barbie

Not as pink but maybe baby

Lets make proud that guy named Melville

How about I serve you your black coffee

And you sit and see

As I tell you what you mean to me

And you explain what it feels to be

Losing that weight and to be free

I promise as long as you drown in my shirts

I'll make sure it never hurts

When you use that money to buy cute skirts

Sugar free gum and tickets for concerts

You will never have to feel its a curse

You can burst into flames when we run away

Me holding your tiny fingers between mine

Purge your life then I'll lend you them all day

This low cal life makes you high like wine

And I adore how you fall into those arms of mine

Oh Honey, you sweet candy

As you vanish steadily

I know you'll be ready

'Cause I was here, little lady

And saw when you turned pretty

Felt you shake when you kissed me

A skinny legend forever to be

Oh Honey, you sweet candy...

- your toxic boyfriend

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lmao

[mycanyon]

10 Days and I have lost 5,2kg (11,5lbs)

I would love to give up and have a pizza but I wont! This went down so fast! This should be easy! I wished tho that I havent had to start at 80Kg because if I had started at my normal weight, which is 75Kg then I would finally be in the 60s.

Just gotta hang in there a little longer!!!

I wished I didnt have to go to our school trip that fat!

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I feel bad about eating!!!

Dont get me wrong. I hate this feeling. But I just ate a sandwich and I feel bad about it which tells me I'm on a good path towards my goals!

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I think my art teacher ships me and my "not really"-crush...

So I really like this guy but I dont know him well enough to really fall for him. But here and now we would have some great conversations and sometimes one of us would actively walk up to the other just to talk for a moment.

Second thing mostly happens in our art class. Also we went to a museum once and we both stuck around together and then sat down on a couch at the end. She found us and made a pucture from behind that she posted on our schools instagram page. It was kinda cute ngl.

And in class when she wants to show us an example she would always pick us both.

Like today she said "So imagine [crush] had really poor parents blah blah blah and then there is Kiki who has really rich parents blah blah blah."

It is subtle idk.

And then again today we had this weird end of school year task where we would have a piece of paper taped to our backs with sentence starters written on it. One of the said "I wish you ..." and then you had to go around and write on every persons back.

And our art teacher wrote on my paper under the "I wish you ..." part 'I wish you the best and fun and power".

Thats nice so thank you art teacher but the 'power' part confused me a little. You see the last name of my crush is exacly that... (a little different tho since I dont live in an english speaking country)

This IS something you can wish someone in our country but it mostly gets directed to people that are sick or sad.

Idk. If she really ships us I thinks its cute... and smart! But yeh idk.