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are the stars shining tonight? 🌌✨

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Ok so. I doodled this right after finishing season 2, didn't remember doing so until today, gave it some color and uhhh, here ya go. Just imagine a surface there where they are. A table, maybe. Good Omens forcing me to learn how to draw ppl kissing, goddammit.

I like the wings

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“Yet, up there in the surface, no one know they exist.”

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Finally finished ! I spent countless hours drawing, deleting, re drawing… It’s based on three different 3D models posted on artstation (forever glad for them). Hope you enjoy :)

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spuffy doodles

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This.

If they don't want me to fangirl over the villains, then stop making them hot.

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Silco is such an incredible character, specifically because of how fucking /human/ he is.

Even the small things. The fact that he threatens Deckard when he sees his actions as a threat, but immediately relents and even makes sure he has food to eat when he realizes he did good. The fact that he never /forces/ him to take Shimmer, merely encourages him. Ultimately it WAS Deckards choice, and I'm not saying that I'm sure Silco wouldn't have forced him, but the fact that he even tried to give him the choice to do it of his own free will speaks volumes.

Because one way or the other, he cares about the undercity. He doesn't want power, he doesn't want pride, at least initially all he wants is Respect. He wants revenge on Piltover. He wants the same things that Vi wanted, which is exactly why Vander was discouraging her. Because he saw exactly where those good intentions and extreme means could lead.

But in his struggle to avoid that conflict Vander grew complacent. He betrayed his brother and left him to die, and instead he trapped the undercity in a state of stasis. Bow your head down, live in your shitty slums, and pray that the elite will leave you alone. Vander kept everyone safe, but it was at the cost of freedom and opportunity. And Silco wasn't just angry because he was out for blood, he was angry because he was being denied a life worth living, and his PEOPLE were being denied a life worth living.

And then he sees a young girl, who he could easily have killed, crying, alone, scared. And though he was initially going in to strike, he hesitates. He asks her where her sister is, he speaks to her in calm tones.

And that's even before she tells him her sister left her behind. That's even before he realizes they have that betrayal in common. Even before he makes the decision to take her in and guide her and guard her, he still couldn't quite go through with killing an innocent, crying girl in cold blood. At least, not without talking to her first.

I don't know.

He's a piece of shit drug lord obviously, and I sure am glad he had no redemption arc or something like that, but he is SUCH a fucking human character. He's so nuanced and REAL.

I absolutely adore him.

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Braindumping about Silco and Vi, because these two are such fantastic narrative foils for each other—and, in the same breath, completely cut from the same cloth.

I keep wishing they had more scenes together, another square-off, something to put them head-to-head—because there's so much potential for them to counteract the layers of each other.

At the root of it all, Vander's looming between them, this monolith of a presence that ties their pasts together. But above that, still, we have Jinx—who not only is their driving tension, but their greatest possibility for reconnection.

Here, we have Vander's daughter—someone who, for all intents and purposes, has become what he wanted, but who has also been someone he saw too much of himself in; who he did his best to reshape, instead of enable, and who put him on a pedestal, and truly saw him as hers, more than perhaps anyone (except, well, Silco).

Vi treasured Vander, fully looked up to him as her father—and losing him shattered her. In between all the layers of it, there's this underlying thread in his actions towards her, a tension that just sits with her through Act 1—Do as I say, not as I do (or, rather, as I did).

Here, we also have Vander's partner—someone who knew him before, knew what he was, what he resented, and what he became, instead; and who bears the scars of what all their fallout grew to be. Someone who holds the memory of him tangibly, in multiple respects, as though it is something he physically cannot sever: Vander's knife, the Drop—and even, in some ways, Jinx.

Silco is still clinging to the idea of Vander, throughout the entire series. To the potential in their reunion at the cannery; to the reassurance of what he knew him to be (I knew you still had it in you; Vander wasn't the man you thought he was); to this need he has to still speak to him, even after everything.

But Vi was raised with the burden of being the eldest; being the one most capable of providing protection—and, as a consequence, with the burden of responsibility.

She's not only a sister to Jinx. She's a guardian to her—and in many respects, a stand-in mother. And Silco, as a surrogate father, is standing right in the middle of that. A roadblock between "Powder," as Vi knows her sister as, and "Jinx," as Silco knows his daughter to be.

Right at the forefront, we have so much conflict here. Vi is so similar to Vander, to the point that she is nearly his spirit incarnate—so much so that having her resurface from a presumed grave just sets fuel to fire for a vendetta Silco has never been able to snuff out.

But beneath that—far beneath that—they have so much in common. Vi's headstrong rebuttals in Act 1 about going against Piltover and striking them down, about being made to feel lesser her whole life and needing to fight against it, just sings with Silco's anger in the cannery (You'd die for the cause, but you won't fight for one?).

These are two kindred spirits, two revolutionaries willing to do anything for their city and those they love, and who aren't afraid to fight for it. Who want to fight for it.

But trapped between it all, we have Jinx. Someone Vi is not willing to sacrifice (i.e., her memory of Powder), and who Silco, by the end of the series, isn't willing to sacrifice, either (i.e., his loyalty to Jinx).

Vi, of course, could never fathom Silco being a father to Powder (how could she, after he is the reason Vander was taken from her?)—and looks for justifications for her hatred, in everything he does.

But the unfortunate truth of the matter is that for all Vander cherished and nurtured Vi as a vision of himself—so has Silco, to Jinx. He sees himself in her. He has empowered her, cherished her. He is so incredibly tender with her, in his own ways. And—for all his absolute faults, his skewed morals, his tunnel-visioned zealousy to achieve Zaun—he is a good father to Jinx, just as Vander was a good father to Vi.

The question I keep finding myself mulling over, though, is whether these two could find elements of that, once again, in each other.

There are so many things Silco isn't—not only in Vander's shadow, but simply in the character that he is. He doesn't come in swinging; he plots, he strategizes, he fights with words. He isn't a warm presence, or a jovial one; he's chilling, he's dry, he's distanced. There are countless contradictions one can draw between the two of them—and so many layers one can tease apart, on how their opposites attracted each other, how they worked (a balance that will no longer ever be).

But there are so many things Silco is. He's critical, he's fiercely rational, he knows how to weave a crowd around his finger with a single intonation. He admires the outcasts, the scrappers, those that have dredged through society to claw for what they can. He surrounds himself with them—and he operates alongside them, as an equal as much as an usurper.

He's a flavor of parenthood Vi didn't receive, but could have—the one that would have validated her need to fight; who would have taught her that strength comes in numbers, not in one's single ability to protect; who would have seen her snarkiness, her quick wit on her feet, and taught her to use it to her leverage.

The tragedy of the whole series is that Jinx needs them both to have balance in her life—to keep the tether of her child self and her trauma from splitting her apart at the seams—yet for Silco and Vi, as the narrative destines them for (and as it destined Silco and Vander for), any semblance of a connection between them is doomed for destruction.

There's too much they hold fiercely to themselves, in their own traumas, that they cannot set down—even for the sake of Jinx's needs. They are equally selfish, in that way. They want the version of Vander that they are not willing to let go of; and they want the version of Jinx that they know her to be.

But they could change. They could.

Silco did, by the end. Chose his daughter, his legacy, over the cause, over his vision of progress. And Vi did, too. Chose "peace," chose to set down the gauntlets, chose politics (and—arguably—complacency, in the same way Vander did) as the path forward.

But what if they set it all down, for Jinx? What if they became what she needed, on both sides? A father who sees her, nurtures her, like Vander saw and nurtured Vi—and a sister who loves and protects her, like Vi loved and protected Powder; who could learn, maybe, to love and protect "Jinx," too?

And maybe—just maybe—Silco and Vi could learn to appreciate each other, for all their surface hatreds. Find mentorship, find balance again, in each other. And through it, Vi could learn that protection, responsibility, isn't the only quality to strive for. That even she can be nurtured again, too.

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Something something belated Father's Day mayhem. (She made him a bomb, of course.)

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Seoul, South Korea Travel Posters featuring Magical Whale and Shark Lady! :D Both prints are in my shop, link below!

SHOP

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Shimmer!Silco in process

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“Brother” 2023 🎨

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Silco & Jinx + similarities

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This.

i was watching a short analysis of arcane and during the final scene of a custody fight i had a thought that even tho we see jinx in her head all moving and shielding herself, in reality she probably froze (since she ends up lying on a floor in her headspace and then she's suddenly standing), but silco was able to recognize that she's triggered and has a break down, and vi needs to stop because he probably saw it too many times and knows at least something about how to help his daughter during her psychotic episodes, and vi just didn't have a chance to learn that.

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my brain every now and again: and he was ready to give up everything in his life for jinx.

me every time: oh my god and he was ready to give up everything in his life for jinx.

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Cosmic fruit bat 🌸 another original character commission for Kate