mysticdreamlandavenue

[mysticdreamlandavenue]

My beautiful niece two yrs now tat shes not wit us plus my dad too n my besties have no one all my grandparents r gone everyone tats so close to me gone so im tryjng hard to stay strong here for my kids but sometimes i just wanna give up n tis so called bf of mine not real im just being used for money tats y wit all the kids like wat he said to me no guy will ever wanna go out wit me cause i have lots of kids so i think hes right n he can easliy go out wit ladys since he has nothing to worry about n i do..have 11 kids n i feel like im single since im rasing dem on my own ever since i was 17 n my teen yrs mostly bbsit my sister cause of problems back than now tat my dad isnt around feels like he still out der at the hospital i thought he would come back but he didnt only by casket tats y i dont like christmas anymore got ripped off from my cuzin told her to get me stuff for christmas presents for my kids n family but nv did n cant get my money back tats y im cutting off all my family out of my life they only want money n no one helps me wen i need money n my bbs ct will b n by jan thank god now i can buy him everything n get new beds lamps dressers all tat stuff ik its expensive now so ill get watever i can get now tat i have starlink too so my kids can do their work online r i can do my work online was thinking about finish school but how?!..how am i gonna do tat been trying to figure how to rasie my kids n the future sometimes i need help n no one knows tat no one talks to me no visitors cause of him now iky hes like tat hes the one who cheated on me for yrs n he goes crazy wen i have a ride wit a guy friend i wish i did too i wish i was seeing someone else too wish i can lie so much too n steal but tats not me im not like tat wasnt raised to b like tat i miss my grandparents anyways now to do house chores n look after my gbb n my bb alraedy cooked early for lunch enyjoy ur christmas ppl hope u all get presents for ur family i cant have nothing for dem ill just wait til jan 20 i feel bad about tat she didnt even buy one thing wit all tat money i gave her ill just ignore tis holiday Merry Christmas everyone!!..🎄🎊🙏🏻🎆💖💕🎁