necistyj

[necistyj]

this is a cop free zone … u like police so much then go get arrested lmao

#✗ ― vengeance is mine; i will repay. 「 about. 」

[necistyj]

KAZ  BREKKER  .  .  .  the  boy  they  called  dirtyhands  didn't  need  a  reason  any  more  than  he  needed  permission  -  to  break  a  leg,  sever  an  alliance,  or  change  a  man's  fortunes  with  the  turn  of  a  card.

𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐘𝐉  —  independent,  mutuals  only,  low  activity,  show  &  book  combination  roleplay  account.  18+  only.

#soc rp #opensocrp #six of crows rp #shadow and bone rp #sab rp #opensabrp #sp tag.

[necistyj]

tfw  your  muse  is  so  much  smarter  than  you

#✗ ― post. 「 ooc. 」 #i understand pekka rollins on a spiritual level #imagine getting outsmarted and usurped by a 17 year old #lmao simply perish

[necistyj]

KAZ BREKKER | 1.02 We’re All Someone’s Monster

#✗ ― i fear no evil; the shadow is mine & so is the valley. 「 face claim. 」 #this whole scene was excellent damn good shit #thanks op

[necistyj]

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍:  haphephobia  .

After  the  events  of  the  Reapers  Barge,  Kaz  developed  haphephobia,  a  fear  of  skin-on-skin  contact  through  touching  or  being  touched.  Initiating  skin-on-skin  contact,  or  even  just  shaking  hands  with  another  person  while  still  wearing  his  gloves,  will  often  make  his  skin  crawl.  When  touched,  or  touching  another  person  without  a  material  to  act  as  a  barrier,  or  when  surrounded  by  many  bodies  within  small  enclosed  spaces,  Kaz  will  experience  feelings  of  anxiety,  nausea,  and  vivid  flashbacks  of  his  time  on  the  Reapers  Barge  and  of  Jordie's  death.  If  the  physical  touch  continues,  he'll  begin  hyperventilating,  will  break  out  into  a  cold  sweat,  and  experience  heart  palpitations,  if  the  physical  touch  goes  on  longer,  Kaz  will  sometimes  lose  consciousness  and  pass  out.

Kaz  is  extremely  aware  of  his  own  phobia  and  has  attempted  to  overcome  his  fear  once  before  in  his  early  teens  by  carefully  exposing  himself  to  skin-on-skin  contact  within  what  he  believed  was  a  controlled  environment.  However,  Kaz  was  quickly  overwhelmed  by  the  contact,  leading  to  him  keeping  his  hands  covered  by  gloves  and  never  allowing  himself  to  have  skin-on-skin  contact  with  another  person  unless  absolutely  necessary.

Due  to  spending  almost  a  decade  without  skin-on-skin  contact  that  wasn't  violent,  Kaz  experiences  skin  hunger.  Also  known  as  touch  deprivation  or  touch  starvation,  a  condition  developed  due  to  lack  of  casual  and  affectionate  skin-on-skin  contact  with  others.  When  Kaz  allows  for  skin-on-skin  contact,  aside  from  the  previously  mentioned  experiences,  it  is  often  painful,  sometimes  feeling  as  if  his  skin  is  on  fire  which  continues  to  compell  Kaz  to  avoid  it  despite  knowing  that  the  only  cure  for  such  an  extreme  response  is  more  skin-on-skin  contact.

Kaz  will  often  react  with  extreme  hostility  or  violence  whenever  someone  touches,  or  attempts,  to  touch  him  without  his  consent.  Due  to  the  reputation  that  he  has  built  for  himself  among  the  Dregs  and  the  people  of  the  Barrel,  people  know  not  to  touch  him  and  as  such  he  hasn't  had  to  react  as  violently  has  he  once  did  when  he  was  climbing  the  ladder  but  he  is  always  prepared  to  react  regardless.

Recently,  Kaz  has  begun  to  make  a  second  attempt  to  overcome  his  haphephobia  with  Inej,  but  it  is  extremely  difficult  and  his  progress  is  slow.  Kaz  struggles  most  notably  with  his  vivid  flashbacks  and  can  go  through  months  of  not  making  any  progress  and  often  slips  back  into  previous  reactions  despite  his  best  efforts  but  he  is  trying  and  will  continue  to  try  not  only  for  Inej,  but  for  himself.

Kaz  will  eventually  overcome  his  haphephobia  and  touch  deprivation  through  controlled  exposure  with  a  trusted  confidant,  and  by  facing  and  coming  to  terms  with  his  trauma  but  it  will  be  a  long    work  in  progress.  Kaz  will  never  be  a  cuddly  or  particularly  physically  affectionate  man,  but  he  will  become  more  willing  to  express  physical  affection  with  those  he  trusts.

#✗ ― this is how the end of the world begins. 「 headcanon. 」 #were all these words necessary? #probably not but i don't care

[necistyj]

reasons to date me: none. fuck off.

#✗ ― vengeance is mine; i will repay. 「 about. 」

[necistyj]

“tell us about yourself”

#✗ ― vengeance is mine; i will repay. 「 about. 」

[necistyj]

You don’t get to be left alone! You don’t get a life and lovers and hope! You are poisonous! You are wearing other people’s clothes. You are not human. 

#✗ ― may the bridges i burn light my way. 「 character study. 」 #did i make this blog just so i could reblog this under a study tag?? #maybe so

[necistyj]

✗ ― tag  dump.

#tag dump. #✗ ― black tailored businessman. 「 wardrobe. 」 #✗ ― what’s yours is mine. 「 likes. 」 #✗ ― there’s beauty in the dark. 「 ships. 」 #✗ ― post. 「 ooc. 」 #✗ ― ask. 「 ooc. 」 #✗ ― psa. 「 ooc. 」 #✗ ― references. 「 ooc. 」 #✗ ― resources. 「 ooc. 」

[necistyj]

✗ ― tag  dump.

#tag dump. #✗ ― bite the hand that beat you. 「 meta. 」 #✗ ― may the bridges i burn light my way. 「 character study. 」 #✗ ― do you want to punish those who have wronged you? 「 npc. 」 #✗ ― i’ll be my own judge & executioner. 「 stats. 」 #✗ ― vengeance is mine; i will repay. 「 about. 」 #✗ ― trapped in whispers i’ll never say. 「 aesthetics. 」 #✗ ― let me tell you what it means to drown. 「 musings. 」 #✗ ― brick by brick. 「 skills. 」 #✗ ― there is no thorn or crown needed. 「 powers. 」 #✗ ― strings & drums. 「 music. 」

[necistyj]

✗ ― tag  dump.

#tag dump. #✗ ― a life for a life. 「 wishlist. 」 #✗ ― writing prompts. 「 memes. 」 #✗ ― in character answers. 「 inbox. 」 #✗ ― meme answers. 「 inbox. 」 #✗ ― starter call. 「 ooc. 」 #✗ ― plotting call. 「 ooc. 」 #✗ ― mutuals. 「 open. 」 #✗ ― non mutuals. 「 open. 」 #✗ ― i fear no evil; the shadow is mine & so is the valley. 「 face claim. 」 #✗ ― this is how the end of the world begins. 「 headcanon. 」

[necistyj]

—  𝐊.𝐀𝐙  𝐁.𝐑𝐄𝐊𝐊𝐄𝐑  𝐎𝐅  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐒.𝐈𝐗  𝐎𝐅  𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐖𝐒  𝐃𝐔𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐘  .

#𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐘𝐉  —  kia  ora  whanau,  my  name  is  chey.  i'm  21+,  an  indigenous  woman  of  colour,  &  queer.  this  is  a  mutuals  only,  low  activity  &  highly  selective  roleplay  account  for  k.az  b.rekker  of  the  grishaverse.  this  account  will  be  canon  compliant,  a  blend  of  the  show  &  book  series  with  headcanon  influences  throughout.

this  account  &  the  content  that  will  be  portrayed,  discussed  &  explored  is  for  mature  audiences  only.  it  will  feature  dark  themes  &  n.sfw  subjects.  i  ask  that  any  followers  be  18+,  i  will  not  interact  with  any  mun's  under  the  age  of  18.

𝐍𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍  —

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#pinned.