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alright, here I go again

It’s been around two years, a lot has changed. Somehow I always end up back here. Maybe it’s what I do in the worst of times, escape to some form of fiction. Or maybe it’s just part of me, something I’ll always come home to after my little adventures. Whatever the reason, I am definitely back. And my life is sort of a mess, but I’ll always have fiction won’t I? God that sounds sad.

Anyways, hello again, future me. I wonder what I’ll think when I read this back. I hope I laugh, a sweet kind not a bitter one. I hope I think, god, she has no idea what life has in store for her, I can’t wait for her to find out.

I’m scared, is what I would say. I have no idea what I’m doing and frankly I feel like every single thing I do is the wrong thing, the thing that’s going to lead me to loneliness and misery forever. And I can’t even blame adolescent angst anymore, I’m almost seventeen. Maybe I can, maybe I’ll look at that and think oh my god, I was so young and naive. But it’s just how I’m feeling. Anyways, I want this to be a place I can just share my feelings and my interests with no one and everyone, a place of solace, a little warmth from the past. It’s comforting, I guess, to do something I used to do. After everything that’s happened, I come back. After everything that happens now, I hope, I will come back.

oh and I can’t bring myself to change my profile pic and bio and stuff, I’m sentimental sorry

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OMG I REMEMBER THIS TURNS OUT HES REALLY WEIRD

Dear person who complimented my pants,

I’m sorry I walked away so quickly I think you’re really cool I want your haircut ok thank you

also your name is swag as well

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I still don’t know but I kinda just ignore it now

being bi sucks sometimes cause how the f u c k do I tell the difference between attraction and gender envy

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I’d just like to say, two years later and 1month post breakup, that it shoulda stayed in the notes

Fucking shit my crush almost saw my note about him shit I quickly deleted the…damning part. He just saw his name flash by. I hope he bought my excuse shit

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September 2021 Illustrations ヽ(• ‿ •)ノ

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the inherent romanticism of someone leaning their head on your shoulder

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Fucking shit my crush almost saw my note about him shit I quickly deleted the…damning part. He just saw his name flash by. I hope he bought my excuse shit

#also he’s happily in a relationship of one year so I’m screwed anyway

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i have just discovered I have the same music taste as the one and only tommyinnit

i honestly have no clue how to feel about this-

#help?? #BUT I MEAN ITS GOOD LIKE #his 20 song playlist is unironically very very good

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I’m just super fucking bitter that once the flint water crisis got it’s 15 minutes of fame people stopped giving a shit. The water is still poisoned, people! Donations have plummeted and people have been forced back into drinking and bathing with the water! The medical effects of this are astounding, cases of legionnaires disease have skyrocketed, people are having seizures, people are having weird rashes break out over their body, people (including me!) are having their blood poisoned, and it’s not just lead! it’s coliform bacteria! it’s THMs! it’s all in the water and it gets into the bloodstream and breaks down blood vessels, causing bruising and petechiae and internal bleeding and no one gives a shit anymore and it’s only gotten worse like how many people are going to have to die until people realize this is still a problem

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ヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉ

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I’m jealous of a time zone

Not for like real reasons, like being able to watch streams at a better time or anything remotely like that (I’m canadian I can pretty much always be awake for streams especially in summer right now)

No no I’m jealous of London’s time zone simply because I think it’s cooler

I think it’s cool for right now to be 12:32pm instead of 4:32am, and have 4:32am already happened 8 hours ago in this fucking fake concept of fake time that doesn’t actually exist

Um….anYways

Im jealous of a time zone cause it feels cooler

#i don’t fucking know it felt important enough to share

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my singing voice is good for showers and mornings in the kitchen and drunken nights and lullabies for babies who need sleep and im okay with this

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c!tommy could have “little brother for so long but now has a younger step brother that’s 5 years younger and he has to learn how to deal with that” energy

just saying

#personally I would cry but #c!tommy

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#hes very special to me