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The thought of getting new Gracie content this year makes me soooooo happy

#gracie abrams

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realizing things about i can do it with a broken heart

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on a heavier note re: the manuscript I’m thinking about “he said since she was so wise beyond her years everything had been above board” vs “you said if we had been closer in age maybe it would’ve been fine” 🙂

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I hate it here so I will go to lunar valleys in my mind

t.s. + the motif of space

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Wondering if I dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life -> The bullet had just grazed

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Taylor gaslighting us into thinking we didn’t know and didn’t see her sad and heartbroken during the summer of 2023 is actually pretty funny to me

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“everyone who knows us knows we’re meant to be” with the reasoning being dramatic suicidality and general insanity is literally the thesis here fnfjjd

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betweentwobooks: A very special recommendation from Taylor Swift and The Tortured Poets Department: ‘Red’ by Ted Hughes. What are your favourite poems? (x)

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Pip tries so hard to escape his past but it comes back to haunt him. The convict he met when he was 7 and tried to wash away his dirt was his downfall at the age of 23. He tries to forget his peasant childhood, but in the end he must ask forgiveness from the forgotten heroes of his past. But in contast, Miss Havisham is trapped in the past, in a wedding past turned yellow and shredded that's begging to be thrown away. In the end, her clinging to the past leads to the destruction of Estella's future.

#great expectations

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Obsessed with the fact that Pip's name is a palindrome. His beginning is the same as his end!

#great expectations

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"there are many jews involved in the columbia encampment, and there was even a kabbalat shabbat service and a seder" and "antisemitic things have been chanted at the columbia protests and there's a serious unaddressed (and dismissed) antisemitism problem in the movement" can both be true

like. portraying this as "a group of people who hate jews and want to intimidate and block them" isn't correct, but neither is "it's all a smear and nothing we've ever said or done could ever be antisemitic."

ugh. i just. its so frustrating bc on the one hand you've got people lobbing around the word antisemitism like a club to be used on political opponents, and on the other hand you have people who respond to that be closing their ears to any and every attempt to be called in for antisemitism. and then you get labeled a zionist and not-worth-listening-to for attempting that call-in, so the people who are trying to address it get pushed out

and the jews who remain often feel that as allies it's their duty to squash any internal sense that someone in the movement is antisemitic, believing that it's really their white/jewish fragility or their zionist brainwashing coming up.

the upshot of which is that the antisemitism problem doesn't get resolved when oh my god, it would be so easy. just listen to folks calling you in and learn about antisemitism and how it functions just like allies do for any oppression. empower jews in your space to speak up, with love and firmness. stop assuming every call-in is a threat by bad actors.

like there really are ways to move forward. why can't we take them?

#antisemitsm

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the prophecy is like evil invisible string

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Only when your girlish glow, flickers just so, do they let you know: It's hell on earth to be heavenly. Them's the breaks, they don't come gently. Clara Bow - The Tortured Poets Department (2024)

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wistfully remembering how people (pretended they) cared about antisemitism when it was primarily coming from the right. like there are pre-2023 posts with tens of thousands of notes about antisemitism. now any mention of the existence of antisemitism (when its worse than it ever was) doesn’t breach containment outside of jewish circles. its almost funny how quickly people stopped caring when it was inconvenient.

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the funniest (for the lack of a better word) part of the TTPD release is that taylor explicitly says she’s so fucking done with our introspection of her life and with us being invasive and we wouldn’t survive if someone did that to us, but she’s also given us her most dense album to dissect and is imo the most honest and raw she’s ever been, revealing everything to us because that will set her free.

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Happy Friday have we talked about “you talked me under the table” as in she was drunk on his promises while he remained unaffected, like when you say that someone is drinking you under the table as in they hold their liquor so seemingly well that you can’t keep up with them you’re so inebriated while they seem completely unaffected????

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I might just not get up, I might stay down bad