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oh, i am finally old enough to know why my parents took so long to grab their coats. why they would ask us to get ready to go only to sit down for another round of coffee. what would i tell myself, at 10 years old? it’s okay. sit down with them too. take in the extra hour with your friend and her family. when you get home, write down every moment in your diary. one day you will be older and you will be waving goodbye to your best friend, and you will turn the key to start your beat up little car engine, and you will look back over your shoulder. her hair will be blowing in the wind and she will be beautiful and you will be, for a moment, struck by all of it. what you will feel is so wide and nameless that it will engulf you. and you will think of being 14 and kicking her under the table in math every time you wanted to whisper something behind the teacher’s back. you will think about how long the days felt, and how you could hold her hand whenever you wished, but you didn’t. and you will think about all of the people you could have lingered with. and you will wish, more than you have ever felt a wish, that the universe just gave you that - more time to linger. more time to say - i love you. i know i need to leave, but i don’t want to leave you. and when i go, i am leaving a piece of my heart that lingers too. 

one more round of coffee. the days are so short, and you are so lovely.

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an archive of longings

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“Some people feel like they don’t deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past.”

— Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild

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I always am about to go to sleep at a beautiful 11pm and then something happens to me

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my hobbies? uhh.. peeling back the layers…. uncovering metaphors.. mirroring…..connecting dots…..stuff like that

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If the hurt comes, so will the happiness.

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i be like “idc” then tell tumblr

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Some people are like clouds. When they disappear, it's a brighter day.

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A Voice From I Don’t Know Where, Mary Oliver

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You gotta take a risk or you'll be doing the same shit forever.

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we should be on a beach somewhere in Greece

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at least there’s fucking friends. at least there’s people who love you in this godforsaken world

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‏"لكنها كانت آمنة، كانت أبعد من أن ترحل، وأعمق من أن تُنسى، وكثيرة.. لذا أشعر بغيابها وكأنما غاب الناس جميعًا."