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shoutout to @m4ndysk4nkovich and her tiktok for adding the debbie and fiona sisterhood relationship onto my pile of ideas i will hopefully write about one day (whether it be fic or meta)

#shameless #debbie gallagher #fiona gallagher #fiona and debbie #screaming crying throwing up

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#a tale in three acts

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some of y'all didnt grow up as the person nobody has a crush on and it really shows

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this might be rlly controversial, but i don’t really like the ‘reunion between Mickey and Yevgeny’ trope. i think it’s such a sweet idea, but at the end of the day i don’t think it would be at all good for mickey. he wasn’t a good dad to yev, but he did try. in my opinion, he didn’t love him like a dad should love his kid and he’s allowed to not want to have to look after a child born in that way. there is no debate that svetlana is a very good mother and loved yevgeny, so even though her and mickey are in a similar situation regarding the rape, she loved the child and mickey just didn’t. sure, mickey cared about him, and maybe given time he could love him but i just don’t see him wanting the baby back. and that sucks for the baby and maybe svetlana if she struggles being a single parent (that old man ain’t doin shit).

I do have really complicated feelings about this one though, so please don’t come at me. i’m not hating on svetlana, im not saying it should all be her responsibility because she’s the mother, but i am saying that mickey shouldn’t HAVE to be responsible for a child born in that way.

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whatever you do, don't think about 12 year old Sirius Black becoming very suspicious as to why his new friend disappears from school periodically and returns looking exhausted, sometimes with bruises and cuts riddling his body.

don't think about him getting worried when Remus lies, "Oh, it was a family thing".

don't think about him trying to do research on abusive households out of concern that perhaps his friend is living in dire circumstances.

and please don't imagine him coming to the realization that Remus isn't the one in an abusive household... he is.

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THE CROSSED OUT "YOURS" AND "LOVE" AHHHHHHHGGGGGGHG

@gallacrafts : Theme 32 - missed ya

It's not the letter he wanted but it was something. Something enough to keep him going. The paper is worn nearly to bits and there's places where the writing bled for some reason. He keeps it close to his heart anyway. Maybe there'll be something waiting for him after all

Sometimes I wonder if I'd be so invested in Gallavich if they'd had it easier and all the plot holes were filled. I don't know but I'm so massively grateful for this little fandom playground

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ian constantly on the lookout for stupid petnames to call mickey because he loves being silly and he loves annoying his husband.

kitten. baby boo. pumpkin pie. the list is endless and so is the fun, a couple of them ian uses so often that they start worming their way into his regular rotation, sticking without either of them realizing before it's too late. ("baby girl can you pass the smokes?" "what the fuck'd you just call him?" "why don't you mind your business lip - he ain't talkin' to you.")

of course mickey protests in the beginning - eye rolls, cursing, the whole shebang. but ian can tell he gets a silly little kick out of it too, which fuels his proverbial 'taking a mile' after being given an inch.

it's been a while since a new nickname has cropped up in the wild, so ian's itching for some fun. which is probably why it's so hard to fight his giddy smile when they both hear it on the tiktok, the girl's voice-over ushering in a brand new era for them. "making dinner for pookie after his twelve hour shift."

the beat that follows settles over them like a ton of bricks. something breaks in ian's space/time continuum as he tries like hell not to smile, especially as he feels mickey flick his eyes over to him. warning. unflinching.

"no," mickey declares. and then when ian attempts a look of innocence, "don't even fuckin' think about it."

"think about what?"

"don't gimme that shit." but there's a little tug at the corner of his mouth. "ian."

"i'm not thinkin' about anything, pumpkin." ian squeezes mickey's thigh for good measure, and then gets to his feet.

"where ya goin'?" mickey cranes his neck after him, clearly wary. this can't possibly be over so soon, he's probably thinking.

and he's right, of course. he always is when it comes to these things. "just gonna get a start on dinner." ian backtracks to leave a smooch on top of mickey's head, and then move to the kitchen. but not before trying it on for size for the first time, the pure joy bouncing around in his chest when he says it. "you stay here and look cute, okay pookie?"

he's just out of range of mickey's flail of retaliation. the protest, though, he hears loud and clear. even over his own giddy laughter. "motherfucker i'll show you pookie!"

damn, he hopes this one sticks.

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me when everything is fine and nothing is wrong: haha:) im wanna throwed up

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i had a joke about orpheus and eurydice but looking back it wasn't a good idea

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i am in my ebony darkness dementia raven way era rn

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"lesbians for a free Palestine"

downtown Ottawa, Ontario, Canada

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elon musk admitted under threat of perjury that this is his burner account

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can somone just hold me like theyre terrified to lose me

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me and my roommate analyzing hozier: ooh pretty music catholic church

me and my roommate analyzing Jaqueline: see the metaphoric value of the dog and the boyfriend clearly implies that the dog merely is a metaphor for the gay sex that happened. this is especially evidenced by the "now I'm hiding in the closet" line in song 1. All in all we can conclude that there is definitely an underlying internalized homophobia present that can only be expressed through degradation and could easily be solved by gay sex and a polycule

#and dont get me started on the falafel #yearning

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mickey just moving in with ian one day is so fucking funny because officially 2 people in the house (out of 5) know that ian is gay and only one of them knows that he had had a situationship with mickey so to the rest of them ian just randomly brought home this dude that tried to kill him once and then became his coworker