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My ed makes it so hard to eat healthy even though it's all i want. It's only been medically recognized for ten years now. Sometimes explaining myself is impossible because i can't put my feelings into words. I have been forced to eat food off of the floor (after i dropped it there so i wouldn't have to eat it), forced to sit at the table for hours, and have foods i cannot eat shoved into my mouth. The whole time nobody knew and nobody defended me. I'm left with trauma and misunderstanding by most doctors. I want acceptance and peace

I'm sorry you've been so mistreated and I hope things get better for you very soon ❤

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I wish my friends would invite me when the plans are made instead of weeks later when I try to get together.

Sending hugs ❤

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I feel so stuck. I’m unhappy with my life and I don’t know what to do. Well I know what I want to do but I don’t think I can actually do it. I’m unhappy with my work. I want to quit but I have a weird sense of duty that prevents me from doing so. Which is also so narcissic, like what, they can’t manage without me ? It’s just that I don’t want to put anyone in a rough spot. I’m used to being dependable. I don’t want people to change their opinion of me.

I’m unhappy with my relationship. I hate that I’m not happy. I’m so fucking ungrateful. I have everything to be happy. I just don’t love them. I wish I did. It would be easier. I wish I could force myself to love them. I’ve been trying. That’s why I stayed so long. But also it’s because I stayed so long that now it feels too late to change my mind. I’m committed, I have to stay.

I wish I could scream for help but I don’t want to be seen as a burden. I wish there was someone i could talk to but I don’t want anyone to worry about me. I also don’t know how to explain what’s wrong without feeling like a super bitch. I’m thinking about suicide a lot today even though i don’t really want to die. I just want to disappear. Or maybe I should never have existed at all.

I wish I could help ❤ I don't have the words but maybe someone else here does? Please?

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I've been a caregiver for my mom since I was 16 for the last 10 years or so. I'm the youngest of 3 children and my siblings haven't done anything to help. I can't go to school or work for taking care of my mom and I love her dearly but. Our situation makes me hate her too. I didn't have a mom when I needed her the most and I don't know how to be an adult. I haven't been able to do ANYTHING for myself. I want to go to school so badly. I want to work towards my own goals. But I'm so depressed and burnt out. The last 10 years of my life has been put on hold entirely for my mom. And I just want to be able to live for myself. For once. And be a selfish person in their 20s just for a little bit. I'm terrified that by the time I'll have the chance to figure out how life works I'll be 30+ and no one will care to help me, cuz shouldn't I have been figuring all that out like 8 years ago?? I'm tired of being my mother's mother. I'm tired of holding the world on my shoulders and being denied help because 'it looks like you're doing fine!' I want to live my own life for once

I'm so sorry you're dealing with all of this and that no one is helping you. It's not fair and you don't deserve this. You should get to live your life. I know it's tough but you need to have a conversation with your siblings, you can't do this on your own anymore. Take care of you ❤️

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I'm so tired and overwhelmed that I can't do my school work properly. I want to do them and finish them to avoid cramming, but I just can't bring myself to do them.

Set a timer and work for 30 minutes then take a small break. Rinse and repeat. It sucks I know but you'll feel better when it's done. ❤

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GOD DAYUM my family is made up of sexists and mysoginists. Not all the time, but that doesn't really help (—_—) It also comes from the culture of our country, but I've tried changing their perspectives to no avail.

Anyways, I'm just going insane because my dad literally said about 5 to 10 minutes ago that it's natural for men to look at women's boobs, and it's also natural for us women to look at men's dicks, and I could not be more furious. I mean, what the actual fuck? No, it's natural to look at faces, especially if we find them attractive, but to "naturally" look at boobs and dicks is not. Parents are supposed to teach their children not to just look at these parts, but my grandparents (both sides) didn't really do a good job at that. Now I have parents who are driving me insane and making me hate them, all because of the bullshit they believe in. I still lo...ve them, but I also hate them. They're nice people, well, at least, my parents are, but DEAR GOD, they have some pretty fucked up beliefs. I've been enduring all of their shit for months now because I wasn't really this aware a year or two ago, but now that I am, holy crap, the absolute bullshit that spills out of their mouths from time to time make me wanna replace them or just leave this family entirely. I won't be able to share all of their bullshit, but this is one of many.

P.S. Sorry for the literal abundance of curse words (^_^;)

Yikes yikes yikes

Sending hugs ❤

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Me and my partner haven’t had sec in weeks. The told me it’s because they’re stressed because we’re moving (makes sense, very fair, I am also stressed, I get it) but I’m scared it’s actually because they don’t like me anymore. I gained about 10lbs recently because I started eating enough again and I’m worried I’m not hot to them anymore. Or our relationship has just run it’s course. They said they feel bad for not giving me as much attention recently but at times it doesn’t feel like they actually wanna be with me and they’re just with me because it’s convenient. I’m just terrified.

Ouch. I think you need to have a real talk with your partner ❤

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I'm angry that my friends had a child. I lived with them for a few years and I know how they live, they are hoarders and they don't clean anything unless they absolutely have to. They would rather buy paper plates and cutlery than have to do dishes. This child is being brought up in a home where they are going to grow up resenting their mother because she is going to make them her personal servant. This child is going to grow up resenting their dad because he does nothing but play video games in his free time. They brought this child on a vacation where 80% of the people going didnt want the child to be there because we would be drinking and ya know doing adult things. We did a readthrough of a really bad script and we recorded it. They had the child in the room and when someone asked one of them to take the child out of the room because she was screaming they both got upset and didnt come back to finish the recording. They need to understand that not everyone is just gonna be okay with being around their baby and they should not expect us to be babysitters. They didn't even ask any of us if we were okay with having a 16 month old on a group vacation. They choose to have a child, they get to deal with the benefits and consequences of that choice.

Yikes 😬

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I have been trying to cultivate a good friend group for years and between my partner and myself. I think we've done it or we're really close to it at least. But we've been having people over a lot lately to celebrate me quitting a toxic job and having some time off for the first time in a while and over the last week I've had to stop 3 different, drunken arguments between friends. Only one of them was really bad, but it's been embarrassing, especially when two of them were because of my side of the friend group.

I don't know what to do other than to tell my friends that they're not allowed to drink here if they continue to act that way?? I thought I had this whole communication thing down, but it's really hard to do when I don't even know what a good outcome would be.

It's really up to you to decide whether you want to keep having them over when they're like this. Try seeing them somewhere else, and if they argue it's between them and you don't have to do anything

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I've always dreamed of having a partner since i was a kid and mistook the slightest interactions for flirting. I'm much older now and I've never been in a relationship, and part of me feels hopeless. I've got to be doing something wrong.

Now I'm talking to someone who might like me back and I'm scared I'll mess up. The mindset I followed when i was younger could be my downfall, it could ruin everything. I'm scared to take steps forward because of that and I'm waiting for them to make a move. Growing up being hopelessly romantic has distorted how I think a love life should look.

You're definitely not the only hopeless romantic and I'm sure one day you'll find someone for you ❤

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I hate my family, but they don't know I do. They're just so...toxic. I know I can be toxic myself sometimes, but they're not even aware that they are. I'd even go so far as to call some of them "monsters," because that's just how mean they can be. They think that after I start working, I'm not going to leave them, but I will. A part of me feels bad and wants to stay with them, but I guess I just need a break from them to clear out these feelings.

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I don't have friends, literally. No one approaches me unless it's school-related, and that barely even happens. My only friend is my classmate, and I don't even think she considers me as one of her friends. I see her interact with her other friends, and that's not how she interacts with me. Sometimes, yes, but it's rare. The only thing we really bond over is schoolwork and complaints about school, but other than that, I can't think of anything else. And sometimes, she suddenly turns cold, which makes me turn cold, even if I don't want to. It's just driving me insane. I just want a friend. Why is that so hard to ask for?

It will definitely get better ❤

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There's this woman in one of my social circles who never grew out of her high school mean girl phase. I know nothing about her except who she's connected to and what kind of exclusive places she humblebrags about going to - not for lack of trying; this and humblebragging about how much more conventionally attractive she is than the rest of the normies just constitute the entire personality she's willing to show said social circle. She's just really close to the guy who runs the main Discord server we all hang out in, so she's one of the mods (even though she doesn't actually DO anything in the way of moderating), but...none of the rest of us know her. She just drops in now and then to humblebrag and beg for engagement on her selfies. That's it. That's all any of the rest of us see, ever.

Honestly, it may be a bit presumptuous of me, but...I feel really bad for her. She's a grown-ass adult with a job and presumably a life outside of this posturing, but she's just out here doing all these petty high school-like power flexes for...what? I don't know what her aim is. Only that one person actually likes her, to the rest of us she's just kind of...there, at best.

But what scares me about this situation is how much my husband hates her - he normally gets annoyed by this kind of behavior, but the last two people he's felt this intensely about for such seemingly petty reasons have turned out to be sexual predators. 😬 I don't know if it means anything, and I'm not accusing her of anything, but the fact that he's THIS defensive about her when every time it's happened before has ended in some kind of horrifying revelation, I find deeply alarming.

👀 now i'm curious

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This isn't a confession, but I still hope you read this.

I'm still here, LOL. I'm writing this on one of my good (so far) hours, so this is gonna sound a lot more light-hearted, but thank you, thank you so much. I read your reply to my confession (the one about, you know, jumping off a building) a day or two ago, and I've never heard someone tell me to stay, with a "please" at that. I've never really told anyone how seriously ruined or deteriorated my mental health has become (and it's probably because I seem like such a happy and supportive person on the outside), but, yeah, just reading your reply gave me a bigger boost than you can even imagine (I think).

I'm literally just writing this to say thank you and hopefully be able to show you how grateful I am, and I wanna tell you that what you're doing with this blog is so good, kind, and all the other adjectives that exist to describe how helpful you are. I wish you happiness, prosperity, and every other good thing that can come your way. You are honestly a blessing to people like me, and I hope they find someone like you, a stranger, to help keep them going, even if they never cross paths again. I'm really planning to push through with my therapist idea, but I'll probably have to wait, especially since I don't have any money, I haven't graduated, and my country doesn't really care that much about mental health, hence the lack of good therapists.

Again, this is really long and probably boring to read, but thank you so much 💖

I am so happy to hear that you're doing a bit better ❤️❤️❤️

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I’m in love with a man who’s not in love with me. I do my best to just be best friends with him instead, but it can be difficult. Sometimes when I see his new selfie it hurts or I have to catch my breath because he is just so incredibly beautiful. I want to have deep, intimate conversations with him and be able to talk with him about absolutely anything, but he has so many barriers up. I love him but he makes me feel so terrible about myself sometimes because he won’t include me in his inner circle and truly open up to me, which makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me, like I’m not good enough.

❤❤❤

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yoo are you still answering these right now? I think i have feelings for someone I’ve been talking to online.. but they live in another state. and i am srsly not healed enough to be with someone. some times i dream about being with him. i think he’s a pretty go with the flow kinda guy, so i doubt he feels the same, and if he did it’s probably not as intensely? idk why i am so intense. maybe it’s because i think receiving this love will help me heal. but i know i must be doing the work, which i am paralyzed by fear to make that next step for myself

(sorry this was a little all over the place)

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Sometimes I’m jealous of the way other people in my life are so selfish and take advantage of others. It’s not in a subtle way. I have friends who married for money or lie to their partners. They still live happy comfortable lives. I’m alone because I’ve chosen not to do that. I wish I was like them. I kind of hate them for it.

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