once-human

[once-human]

[once-human]

[once-human]

being with someone that heals your inner child >>

[once-human]

[once-human]

[once-human]

I‘m a burden for everyone. I’m even a burden to myself.

[once-human]

She told me “it’s always darkest before the dawn”.

I’ve been waiting nearly a decade to see it.

Perhaps when I’m dead I finally will.

Perhaps when I’m gone the light will finally come.

[once-human]

Sometimes everything just hurts, and it doesn’t get better, and it won’t go away; you can only learn to bear the pain.

[once-human]

You know what. I'm fucking done being the one always having to text first. Done being there for people who wouldn't do the same. I'm done begging people to stay, chasing people. I don't care anymore, if it means I'll end up alone it's better than having fake people around.

[once-human]

how do you cope with not being good enough? how do you cope with knowing that you never will be?

[once-human]

“It’s ok not to be ok”

No, it’s not.

When I’ve shown how I really feel, people around me have always become uncomfortable, irritated, and anxious.

They would tell me to “smile” or ask me why I look so miserable.

They would say I’m “ruining” the moment/day/night with my unhappiness.

People tell you it’s ok to not be ok, yet they run or get scared and angry the moment you say/show how you really feel.

I have had to act ok, so everyone else can be.

At least when I’m gone, I won’t bring anyone down with my misery ever again.

[once-human]

“I’ve wasted a lot of time in my life. I’ve thought too much about what people will say or what they’re gonna think. And sometimes it’s over silly things like going to the grocery store or going to the post office. But there have been times when I really stopped myself from doing something special. All because I was scared someone might look at me and decide I wasn’t good enough. But you don’t have to bother with that nonsense. I wasted all that time so you don’t have to.”

— Julie Murphy, Dumplin’

[once-human]

please handle me with care i’m a very sleepy and soft creature

[once-human]

yes i'm over it. yes i think about it 20 times a day

[once-human]

"just checking up on you." means a lot

[once-human]

heres something for you to think about

me

[once-human]

i hope december feels like a heated blanket and a kiss on the forehead