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Mads mikkelsen decided that incurring a back injury by bridal carrying a grown ass man instead of the scripted fireman carry, just for the dramatic flair of it all, was worth it. what would we do without him.

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man at the end of the day, tim got a happy ending. he made the decision to finally remove himself from hawk to fully dedicate himself to a cause he felt so strongly about, he found a purpose and made peace with the idea that to love is so much more than getting loved in return. the act of giving is enough. and tim gave everything of himself to everything he did. the world was not fair to him, the people around him may have wanted him dead but at the end of the day, body and soul, he fought.

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I'll spend the afternoon picturing you kneeling in prayer.

FELLOW TRAVELERS — You're Wonderful, 1x01

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Give me idea fr (I’m going to music performance uni)

I’m gonna start school tomorrow and I wave noo idea what to wear 😭😭😭

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I’m gonna start school tomorrow and I wave noo idea what to wear 😭😭😭

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@petrowriting <3

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you gotta be able to say "die"

you gotta be able to say "suicide"

you gotta be able to talk about "sex"

they're uncomfortable topics, YEAH for SURE

because LIFE is uncomfortable. Death and suicide and sex and pain are straight up going to happen. not having words for the way it discomforts you doesn't make it more comfortable, it just makes you less able to reach out about it.

even more vital, you gotta be able to say words like "rape", "abuse", "queer" or "racist". cause we fought fucking hard to name those experiences. to identify "rape" as distinct from "sex" and "racism" as distinct from "acceptable behaviour" and "queer" as distinct from "invert"

like the function of communication is not to minimise immediate discomfort. we gotta be able to talk about stuff that's hard or sucks or causes difficult conversations.

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Why diarrhea 😔

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I want to live in baldurs gate 😔

#baldurs gate 3 #bg3

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GOT INTO MY DREAM UNI YUPPY

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before the fall little headcanon that Astarion is a Sun Elf and his parents have a portrait of him framed but closeted away so they don't weep when they see it. big golden boy energy.

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EVERYONE PRAY FOR OUR BROTHER CHUM NO. 2,719,584 AND WISH HIM A SPEEDY RECOVERY

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We found Karlach, we both agree that she’s hot af

My boyfriend and I started playing BG3 together and he wants to romance shadowheart (she looks like me) and I want to romance Astarion (he looks like my bf) and we’re actually fighting about it since yesterday THIS GAME IS RUINING OIR LIVES 😭😭😭

#karlach #bg3 karlach

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My boyfriend and I started playing BG3 together and he wants to romance shadowheart (she looks like me) and I want to romance Astarion (he looks like my bf) and we’re actually fighting about it since yesterday THIS GAME IS RUINING OIR LIVES 😭😭😭

#bg3 #bg3 astarion #bg3 shadowheart #baldurs gate

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hannibal crossing‼️

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The more I think of Astarion's love-hate relationship with heroic characters, the more I think of this quote from The Last Unicorn:

And where were you twenty years ago? Ten years ago? Where were you when I was new? When I was one of those innocent young maidens you always come to? How dare you! How dare you come to me now, when I am this!

Now I'm unwell

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it's been said before and i'm sure said better than i can phrase it. but really, really - if you like making "i'm going to kill myself" jokes, please try switching to being ironically conceited instead.

anytime something goes wrong, say things like "ah well at least i'm beautiful and charming and everyone loves me." when you forget something, try "my big huge brain is so smart and thinking about too many other very big wizardly thoughts you wouldn't even understand." when you're frustrated by one of your symptoms, start talking like you're in My Immortal. "Life has come for me but my eyes are beautiful pools of gorgeous fire and my hair is amazing. I stuck my middle finger up at life and told it to fuck off and it did."

just... try it for a month or two. try saying the most absurdly self-congratulatory shit you can think of.

i know it's tempting to make suicide or self-harm jokes. and for me at least, a decade ago (!) when someone suggested i stop making those kinds of jokes, i was kind of at a loss for what to replace them with. i wanted to make light of these moments, but genuinely (at the time) my first thought really was suicidal ideation. there was a part of me that even felt like ... i was kind of "making light" of that voice. that if i could say i want to die lol, it would help take the sting out of that genuine (albeit passive) desire. like i could turn my illness into a joke.

when i started complimenting myself instead, it felt awkward and stupid. it felt really, really ironic. what i was actually saying was nobody would ever think this stuff about me, that's what makes it so fucking funny.

but. the effect was immediate. first thing i noticed was the people around me. when i dropped a glass and said ah my skin is too beautiful and sleek the glass has swooned and broken for me, other people were suddenly overjoyed to jump in with the joke. rather than making an awkward moment, we'd both start cracking up. ah princess sleek hands, i've heard of you.

i was 19. i hadn't noticed i'd been making others tense when i said i want it all to end. i know now that it's incredibly hard to know how to walk that moment - do you talk to them about your concern? do you potentially make them uncomfortable by asking if they're okay? do you ignore the situation? do you help them pick up the glass, or do they need to do it by themselves? are they genuinely made suicidal over this small moment? and most importantly, how do you - without professional training or supplies - actually help?

most people want to help you pick up the glass in your life, they just have no fucking idea how to do it. they don't want to make anything worse. they don't want to make assumptions about you. they love you, they're scared for you - and being scared makes people kind of freeze up. it's not because they don't love you. it's because they do.

now when something bad happens, my first thought is how can i make a stupid joke about this. it isn't my brain saying you're a dumb fucking bitch. i spend more time laughing. i spend more time being gentle with myself. i spend more time feeling good.

and the thing is - what's kind of funny - is that you'd be surprised by how many people agree with you. the first time i said i'm too pretty to understand that, someone else said to be fair you're the prettiest person in this room. i promise - you really don't know how kindly your friends see you. but they love you for a reason. they sort of reverse-velveteen-rabbit you. your weird and ugly spots fade away and you just become... the love they want to give you.

go love yourself ironically. the worst thing that happens is that you end up tricking your reflection into actually loving you.