paleskeletonboy

[paleskeletonboy]

while it IS true that being underweight increases "all-cause mortality rate" or whatever google says, let's also not act surprised when someone says something disordered on the side of tumblr where disordered ppl are. telling ppl what they can and cannot say can lead to ostacization from a group where you thought you were "safe" enough to say these kinds of things. considering isolation is the biggest thing that can make an ED worse, and despite your best intentions, you may just end up making things worse for them. this isnt to make anyone feel bad, but if you see something like that i would make a stand-alone post and not reblog it. 1) reblogging it could introduce ppl to a place that may ultimately spark their ED who wouldn't if they weren't exposed to it otherwise, and 2) you can still get your message out there without coming across as you trying to shut the other person down

before you say “fuck this ed”, remember, it’s more unhealthy to be overweight than underweight

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my honest reaction when someone makes a successful suicide attempt, but it's not me:

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The human body is so beautiful, why hide it under fat ??

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i need to drop weight or drop dead

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posting this here cuz it's the realest thing I've ever seen. shitty quality makes it funnier 🫶

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who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

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Every time you eat, you are intentionally choosing to gain weight.

Everything you eat has calories and every time you take a bite, you move further away from your goal.

Protein bars? Fruit? Vegetables? Soup?

Your "safe" food is still food

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they don't care, or did you forget

maybe if you were thinner, maybe if you were sicker

but you're not sick are you, you wouldn't eat that way if you were

you wouldn't dare, not even to think of it

[paleskeletonboy]

TW M3ANSPO

“You’re hungry”? You really need to get your fucking shit together. You’re nothing but a pathetic waste of space - literally. You take up so much space with your weight, just looking at you is suffocating. I honestly don’t know how you live the way you do.

Do you ever look in the mirror and have some fucking sense? Based on the way you look, I’m gonna go with no. You can’t just sit around and wait to be skinny. That isn’t how this works.

You’re a lazy fucking pig who cant help but gorge themself with fatty foods. You act like a fucking dog, begging for table scraps every time you catch a glimpse of food. Every. Fucking. Time. You’re a fat ass, there’s no nice words for it. Stop making excuses for yourself and get your fucking shit together.

It’s bad enough that you need strangers online to write paragraphs upon paragraphs of m3anspo, and yet it still isn’t enough for your fat little hands to let go of the plate.

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imagine everyone realizing how much weight you’ve lost. the jealousy? the worry?

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the truth is, nobody will think you’re pretty unless you’re skinny.

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Im so excited for when I start losing, bro I want people to hug me and be shocked by how thin I am😭

[paleskeletonboy]

Concept: you and I asleep in each other’s arms. the night is rainy and cold but we stay warm. you pull me closer, sleepily placing a kiss on my forehead. we are happy.

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my best trick rn is constantly saying stuff like ‘omg i want to eat *something* so bad’ or ‘i think im gonna eat this’ that somehow works to trick my family into thinking im actually eating stuff and they stop offering me food

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somebody traumatise me so badly to the point that i cant eat anymore

[paleskeletonboy]

Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.