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girl it wasn’t that the call was breaking up it’s that i was about to fucking cry

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this stupid ass teacher lady who ive never even seen in my life told me i couldnt wait in the school even though i know damn well the admin of the actual school dont fucking care. i was sitting in there till like 6 last time and several of them passed me without saying anything i KNOW they dont care. shes just a fucking comm teacher who for some reason is in the main school… go away. anyways she asked me if i was waiting for anyone, and i told her just to get picked up and and she was like "oh they dont want anyone waiting in the school" …like girl please. and so as soon as she spoke to me i knew she was going to be kicking me out so i started walking already when she was replying to me, but then i realized i was being rude and looked irritated (i was) so i just said "oh ok" and started walking and then she says "if you want to wait inside you can wait in the hall" like girl you just kicked me out stfu. so i just said ok and continued walking out the school.

and now i am sat outside sitting on the steps, which is what i wouldve been doing but i was hoping to at least hang out inside the school until 5. but no i guess not. school literally hadn't even ended 10 minutes ago and she kicked me out already. like ugh she pissed me off

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lowkey i think i want to be an astronaut

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bro i hate that i can’t talk to my sister about guys without her telling EVERYBODY. i was talking to her abt forensics guy and as soon as we’re done and she leaves so goes and tells my dad. like wtf? yknow i’m not an open person, even with a silly topic like this, and you think i want to talk to my dad about guys? and she does this every time. i don’t even get the chance to talk about whatever bc she’ll go and tell my mom or sister before i do like wtf. this is why i literally never tell her anything

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need these girls to leave the fucking bathroom i need to SHIT

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the fact that NY, SR, EM, and i have been friends for almost 10 years is insane to me. like i always feel like i have trouble keeping friends, but we’ve prevailed since the 3rd grade. and like we always meet up every so often, it may not be very often but they’re the only friend group i have where we’ll talk and make plans and we actually follow through with those plans and hang out. i love them sooooo much 🤭

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i truly am As biggest hater. it doesn’t matter how much we hang out or how much i try to get past it, whenever i think of how she treated me i get so pissed off and i don’t think i’ll ever truly forgive her.

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i don’t know how to help someone deal with grief. i don’t think i’ve ever properly dealt with grief myself idk what to say or how to comfort her

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i think for her birthday instead of a gift i’m just going to kill myself and dedicate my suicide note to her and how much of a shitty friend she is and how buying me expensive gifts isn’t going to win back our friendship no matter how much she wants it to.

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i want to be better already. i just want to be happy

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maybe it’s me. crazy how no matter who i’m talking to they never seem to actually care about what i say, they just write it off and ignore it and make me not want to talk about anything. am i nothing more than a vault??? i don’t understand

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It's my 4 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

this is soooo crazy, from freshman to senior year

#4 year tumblrversary #tumblr milestone

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“see you sunday” YES I WILL SEE YOU SUNDAY IM SO EXCITED 🤭🤭

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i may not be able to control a lot of aspects of my life, but the one thing i am taking hold of is going to the park. i don’t want this to be a repeat of last summer where the only thing stopping me was myself and my mental block. i am fully taking charge this time. especially now that i have a dog. i have an excuse, a reason to go now. and i am going to exploit it for as much as i can get. i’m going to take charge of my life one walk at a time

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AHH YOU DONT KNOW HOW NICE IT IS TO HAVE A FRIEND THINK OF YOU AND REMEMBER YOU ANF TRY TO MAKE SURE YOU SEE SOMETHING THAT YOU MIGHT WANT SO YOU CAN GET IT OMGGG SHE LOVES ME I HAVE A FRIEND WHO LOVES ME AND THINKS OF ME AND WHAT I LIKE OMG 🤗🤗🤗

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ok well now i just want to cry. i guess i was being a bitch so i deserve it. but i was just joking i didn’t mean to actually be mean. i was just kidding. i can’t tell if they are because of the cadence they are speaking in. idk i hate myself

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i honestly think i’m dyslexic, the amount of times i misread or mistype or misspeak is insane. i fucking hate myself