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Another crossover ish unexpected dream

Unexpected dream which I did not expect to like so much that I keep thinking about it the whole day

It started with my friend texting me to hangout with her and she said she had a date for me which I was going to love. Now let's name this friend Ashley.

Ashley was in the car waiting for me and the person who was driving the car was Crush. Now I've never liked crush itna ki I started dreaming about him so this is the unexpected part of the dream.

I was taken back a bit but i didn't show it. Ashley made me sit on the passenger side. And like a low key third wheeled the date but not really she kind of left us alone as soon as we reached a street market food carnival kind of a place.

I was not sure how I ended up on a date with Crush.

But Ashley did say this to me before leaving that he was eager to meet me and spend time with me. (Clearly only in dreams will this happen to me)

I was like okay let's just try and get to know him kind of 😅 We parked the car and like got out. I was wearing very casual jeans and a cute top.

Also before leaving the house I did joke and say to my mom that Ashley found you a son in law and I'm going to meet him.

Now at the market place there was so much going on so many food stalls, games and so much. He was a true gentleman throughout like proper men written by women gentlemen. I was in love with the way he treated me. Constantly asking if I wanted to eat or try this literally feeding me whatever snacks he bought. I was going with the flow during this time. Trying to enjoy but also figure out what is going on.

Then slowly he tried to get close to me during this time. He tried to naturally hold my hand. He was trying to keep me close to him most of the time because of the crowd. I didn't mind because I didn't want to get lost in this since I didn't know how we would find each other if we did lose each other  we hadn't exchanged contacts or anything yet.

So crushs perspective was that he had already had in his mind that this is my next girlfriend and I'm gonna win her and that's why so much effort and everything this is found out from Ashley after the date was done.

We enjoyed the carnival. Then we decided we should get going and there was a place nearby that was famous for  juice and smoothies to try so we decided to go there and Ashely joined and when crush went to get the juices is when Ashley told me about how serious he was.

I was like dude we just met how am I supposed to process all of this in a few hours that we've met.

She told me he plans to take me home since he has a get together planned with his friends tonight and wants to introduce them to me. I was holy shit no way. He just came back with our juices and Ashley took the cue and left with a drink and said she is going home.

Apparently this was planned between Crush and Ashley.

So me being the anti social anxious person I'm worried didn't show it but was like how and wtf am I going to do now. This is even speedier than any of the arranged marriages that have happened in my family.

I tried to calm myself while drinking the juice. Look the guy isn't bad so far. He is putting efforts and first impressions are absolutely chefs kiss. Why not give it a try I mean zyada se zyada heartbreak hoga toh dekh lengay.

So he cautiously suggested that he was having a small get together with his friends it was Friday night . He said I really want you to come and meet them and continue our date there as well. And i agreed to go but I told him I will leave if I want to go home I won't stay long. He said yes that's fine I will drop you back home just come at least you'll enjoy it.

We were driving to his house and all this time in my head I was like what if he murdered me in his house how am I supposed to fight this tall guy. As there is music playing in the car but then i realised Ashley knows it so they will find my body that's not a problem.

We reached his home some of his friends were already there. He had a really nice house with a spacious living room and I think it was 2 or 3 bedrooms not sure.

So the guests at the party were Joy, Chanyeol, Taeyeon Tiffany from GG, Kai,  Jessi, Hyuna Dawn, this is all the people I interacted with like hi hello ones and a lot of other people.

I was especially surprised when I saw Joy and realised shit isn't that his ex gf. And then everything started running. Why did they break up? Is he alright ? Wait why is he trying to be with me ? Did i have a hand in their break up ?

So he wasn't around Joy came and said hi I asked her directly wait did you guys break up ? And she simply answered that I wanted an open relationship so we decided to separate. He didn't like the idea and this was when he went to the army. Like in between she might have suggested this idea and they broke up while he was serving. As you may or may not know Crush also came out this year out of the army so it makes sense.

And she was quite nice actually interacting and everything was pretty normal.

Then I was sitting on the sofa and he came with a drink and sat next to me and was like holding my hand and wouldn't let me go bro. And it felt so real in the dream the skin shops

He was very affectionate throughout the whole date we had. He was very cuddly too. After sometime the crowd died down. There were only a few people left and i didn't leave to go home because I was actually chilling there with him by my side. Not gonna lie it was quite comfy. Then someone decided to put on a movie. It was a Runaway bride and I love Julia's roberts so I was a  chilling man.

He saw how comfy i was and enjoying the movie so he pulled me even closer to him and was cuddling me and i was dying a little but the uff felt so secure. Then my hand was already intertwined in his hand. I remember it very vividly it was my left hand and he was kissing it with his lips and soft kisses and honestly felt so real in the dream. I looked at him and his eyes were focused on tv but his hand and mouth were doing something else.

His friends were around so I felt embarrassed and shy but he didn't and they also weren't fazed by it. My heart was honestly doing backflips as this was happening. It was beating crazy when he pulled me closer to him and then backflips.

During this whole time at his place i had not even looked at my phone once.

Now the weird thing starts when his family starts coming in.

Mom dad sister this is what the characters were in my dream. Parents didn't care very chill.His mom even smiled at me and said so you are Foram. I tried to be civil and get up and greet her and talk to her but this fool didn't let me. Said hello to his sister his dad just smiled and left. I was so so so embarrassed at this point. I personally am not a fan of PDA and this happening in front of his parents was even more like i wanted to hide somewhere and never show my face. I asked him what he has told everyone about me for them to be okay with all this.

He said he's been trying to get with me for months now and everyone that's close to him knows my name and face. He showed everyone my photos. I was shocked. He said he heard about me from Ashley and she talked me a lot and he kind of was looking for a girl like me (🤣🤣🤣) and then he asked Ashley for help and she said it's not easy Foram is not like every girl she is different 😏 she doesn't play around. 😌

He said I don't wanna play i want something real and i was just like why does this sound so much like a Wattpad story. But I ignored it. Was still cuddling him like before.

Cut to idk how when and why but my uncle happens to visit his home and he saw us in the position that we were in and omg the way I freaked out and jumped.

(So my uncle and crush dad were some kind of business related customer and supplier relation.)

I freaked out because we are a conservative family and like my mom's side of the family they have a lot of temper dude. So I was scared of his reaction and I knew he was gonna instantly call my mom like my dad I could at least talk to and reasons for it a little. My sister would too try to understand and talk to me. I literally started crying and was like uncle it's not what it looks like. He started saying do you realise what you are doing. He is not from our caste. You guys are not kids.What the hell are you doing here at this hour. His parents didn't interrupt here. Crush was just standing by my side I told him not to say a word otherwise it's done for.

I told him he was not trying to do anything please understand this and his parents know and he wants to be with me. I was crying cause I was scared he would call my mom and she would flip out that's all not because of what would happen to crush and me lol.

As I was trying to explain this in my head I was like but my parents already know I have a liking and taste in Korean and Asian man it's not gonna be as bad as it looks and I also told her I was kind of going on a date as I left. So like there is not a bad point for me here. I tried to reason with him as he was trying to call my mom I said mom knows I told her I was going out with a guy when I left which technically I did say Ashley found her a son in law.

Then Crush interrupted I'm going to drop her home please don't worry and he pulled my hand and took me out and we left. He saw me sobbing and was like don't worry nothing will happen I'm here.

Usko kya pata meri mummy ka gussa yaar.

She is going to throw belan at me and whop my ass  I was like yeah but still I was really caught off-guard there.

We were in the lift going down and was trying to wipe my tears. And he suddenly brought his face close to mine and started kissing me and i kissed back. I then pulled away and told him we should go. We sat in his car and left for home and he kept on holding my hand while driving me home. And I woke up.

Luckily I didn't have to deal With consequences 😌

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Weird sleep paralysis episode

Sleep paralysis night 2 of my period

So i was awake and unable to move suddenly i see my sister who lends me a helping hand so i can get up but im unable to then i tried to calm down and try again i put all my strength and tired  just get up and maybe open the door but couldn't and then my breathing started to get more and more uncomfortable. Basically some sort of panic attack breathing. Unable to get up or move any way. I then see my sister come close to me but as she came face to face she wasn't my sister she was someone who looked like my sister and i was shocked at this point I wanted to get up and leave the room asap. I didn't know who that was but then I'd decided to stay calm and she disappeared i then just closed my eyes and tried to breath normal.

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Crossover dream

I was at an asian restaurant where they sold Japanese, Chinese and Korean Food. I was there with Eric nam and Ashley choi (shes a member of ladies code and also nowadays hosts radio and Get real podcasts on dive studios). Apparently i was very good friends with them like we've known each other for long and had all normal conversation. Also I'm wearing a strapless pink dress like a cute one which I would never in real life cause I don't like wearing sleeveless clothes in general.

So eric and Ashley ordered the food since i told them i want to try food which I've never had and maybe explore new flavours. They ordered chicken wings clams (this is probably cause i just finished watching 'Our Beloved Summer' and there were episodes where clams were seen and mentioned)  some noodle dishes and also some kind of fritters.

So as we were waiting we were sitting like in the front like as you enter the restaurant the first table you see kind of there and we had a whole view of like the rest of the people. So we talked and i saw that in the last table at the corner there was Baekhyeon and Chanyeol of exo , Nick Jonas (dont know how and why) and some other people but only their back was visible. I saw that i told ashley about them and she was also also like why is nick jonas here.

My eyes just scanned the room to look for our waiter cause i needed water and i happened to see one of my school teachers there who i knew personally a bit cause her son and i are friends so i was like i need to go say hi. She was there with her extended family for lunch. I went and said Hi and we were small she asked me what i majored in and stuff. Our food arrived and ashley called me and i went back to my place and as we started eating ashley was telling me how as soon as i stood up the corner table nick and baekhyeon specially were specifically had their eyes on me as i was there talking to my teacher and they knew eric somehow so eric went and had a small talk with them while i was not at the table. We were eating they asked how i liked the dishes i liked chicken wings and i told ashley please do not tell my mom that i had and sort of non veg here cause shell kill me and i was also explaining them how like its better than i had xpected it to be. i was not sure if i was gonna like them.But the doing sauce was pretty great and then ashley was like you need to try the clams they are amazing.

As this was happening nick stood up from.his chair and came out way i was more focused on the food.I didn't care about that table at all. So i picked the clam thing with my chopsticks they were teaching me how to and suddenly nicks hand like literally brush from my right to left shoulder like you know how you feel your own hand with others like swipe but with  the palm of your hand.

And my gaze literally went to him as he was going back to his table and gave high fives to the rest of them. i was a bit taken back and ashley was in shock too. I told her did you see what just happened cause I'm a bit weirded out by this. She is yes but like that was nick jonas he is your favourite jonas right you must feel lucky. i told her not really if the man is already married and now has a kid. They started laughing. Eric said it's probably some kind dare they must have given him dont think about it too much. i ignored it and did not even look that way again throughout. We ate our food and were about to leave. So I asked them to wait for me outside I'll be there in a minute.

i went to greet my teacher goodbye. She was like it was so nice to see you again and hugged me and all of this watched by the corner table guys. As i was leaving nick came near the door and was like im really sorry that was some stupid prank i was told to do on you. We have never met each other but yeah you are friend of erics right? i said im with a fake smile and like haha no its fine nice to meet you but yeah they are waiting for me so i need to go. He said yeah sorry about that but i need to introduce you to someone It's Baekhyeon he wanted to say hi I didn't know what to say cause he was already standing there. He said Hi so sorry about it. we were joking we didnt mean it and everything and i said its fine you guys know eric so thats fine if it was someone else I wouldn't be standing here talking still.

Baekhyeon asked for my number i gave it to him but i was a bit surprised.

He came to see me off till the gate where eric and ashley were standing and ashley had that look on her face that smirk 😏 thingy. Baekhyeon asked her if she would gave a picture of us . seriously idk why but like we did fake a picture and also a selfie. He said to me ill call you later. i told him im more of a text person then call he said okay well start with text then he left and ashley was teasing me we'll start with text ooooooo and all and then we left .

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Dream getaway maybe...

So the dream was the best one I've had so far

me and my family had reached a place of vacation by the beach and also covid still existed but with cautions and rules you could travel everywhere.

we called my sister since she was traveling separately to ask her where she was she was about to board a plane and was going to be here soon too.

The place was beyond my imagination i would say it was heaven the drive from the airport to the hotel was so breath taking it didn't feel like it was on earth.

as we were approaching the hotel we saw other different fancy hotels.

Then we came to our rooms rested changed a while ate some food.

We then headed to an event which i didn't know what it was.

We were in a small car open one like a golf cart and as we were heading down to the venue we saw the beach and oh my god the beauty it was. It was so mesmerizing the colour of the eater the sunset everything. i was so excited to go to the beach the next day. We even saw people renting to snorkel there and i wanted to do it too. there were surf boards being rented.

We got to the venue and to my surprise a lot of kpop groups were there to perform and big ones.

i saw Jun and Th8 My I performance from seventeen.

After they performed they were sitting with us. There were a lot of kpop fabs but every one was civil no one bothered the artists or anything. nobody in my family knew what was going on as usual. We had NCT 127 sitting right behind us. After a while seventeen left to go backstage. Sunmi started performing and the crowd went wild it was Tail and I was mind blown oh my god even though I didn't know the lyrics i sang along.

Then i woke up...

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Insights

i discovered this phrase while watching dr romantic season 2 " like a Bridge over troubled water" just a couple of days ago.

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DREAM (18 August 2022)

So I had gone travelling somewhere cery very beautiful with some group of travellers did not know them at all. The place seemed to be out of India and so so so beautiful i was in awe of it. There was this hidden waterfall where the shades of blue that were flowing through the water were so so magical and beautiful. I realised I need to share it with my sister so I took out my phone ti click photos but strangely was unable to click decent photographs. I was always being interrupted by people in the photos. There was also a beach in the dream which to be quite honest felt unreal cause the water colours were so sk beautiful and just the beach was so clean i was able to dip my feet jn the water felt so good and throughout the trip i kept thinking to myself  in the dream this js what i needed this is what i was missing this is what is gonna heal me. It just felt so good to be able to breathe some new air i think. I think i dreamt about this dream js cause for the past few days all i can think about is this painting Great wave off  kagawa.

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MUSIC (25th April 2022)

Music has been my saving grace for a long time. Long before I discovered the world of art which includes things like drawing movies   books etc

It's helped me through so much in life. It's given me so much strength to fight so many different demons that I've had to face be it in human form or situations. I've found great comfort in the arms of it. It doesn't matter the language. I've learned to be brave be optimistic be cheerful be graceful and find my small happiness in my own world. This world that I've created for myself which I wish no one ever finds it so i can live happily ever after for the rest of my life.

All my life I've done is survive that's what I've realised this year in 2022 and for that music has been an immense influence for the person I'm today. I hope I'll learn to live from now on too and for that also i can count on the music too.

It's shown me pain, heartbreak, sad, happy, bright, dull whatever kind of mood pops in your head. I've grown and learned a lot of my life lessons and teachings as well as took advice.

Always and forever grateful to music and its power.

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WATERWORLD ( 5 April 2022)

This has happened a couple of times already but yesterday again i dreamer about watching a waterfall in a very beautiful peaceful environment and as time passed it was already sunset. On the other side i could see a very beautiful sunset and i remember trying to click picture of it on my phone in the dream.

I dream about being in this very beautiful peaceful environment and enjoying every bit of it most of the times it's a waterfall and they are always so calminh to watch and just sit and be at peace with. I literally feel so happy in that moment and that dream it feels so real. Iwish to experience that in real life too

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A TRIP (28 March 2022)

So some people who were apparently my friends decided they needed to go for a short trip for work in Pune and they asked me to accompany them I happily said yes.

When I said yes in also thought I should go to Delhi since Im going anyway and go to maybe visit it just for a scenary change. I booked a hotel which we were only suppose to be at 3 days but I told my friends i booked it for 7ndays since they can stay and explore or rest there while i go to Delhi and maybe even catch up with some friends there. They asked me how am I planning to travel i said i dont have a plan but mostly via train since it's the best way. I even planned to message the friends i have in Delhi "hey I'll be in Delhi if you guys are free then maybe we can meet and catch up" i was so excited since these are the people I've been wanting to meet for so long and it was finally going to happen i was a bit nervous but more so excited.

There is this wish that I have to travel solo and also probably live solo for a bit just for the experience. I hope I can achieve this someday.

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AFTERNOON NAP

A video call form the beyonds

Didn't expect one it was very surreal honestly .

We had 2 bhk house very cool looking very good view outside.

They video called me from there to ask me about the opinions of the lights and some colour in the room. I was suprised why me who were they but still i answered as if I've known them my whole life

It was a very normal talk.

They even introduced me to their little cousins and family throughout the call. The talk was about the colour purple and lao about the fairy lights for decor. As soon as I asked them why have they called me the call was needed abruptly and the dream ends there .

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BTS concert dream

So i went to a BTS concert in india alone idk how i alhad the ticket but i did

As i was entering i met suoaarwoman in the line and said hi to her and then got my ticketet checked and entered had difficulty in searching the seat wasn't able to view the number in my dream it was all a blur everytime i tried looking i asked people there to help me find my seat.

When i did it was way far back and could hardly see them clearly but it was alright the time incidentally showed was around 5pm in the evening

Waited for sometime then the show started

The opening song was that of suga seesaw which was weird but absolutely joyful cause it's one of my fav tracks

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DREAM OF HER. (22 March 2022)

I saw her in the dream again today. I'm connecting it to me making the dinner last night cause she is the one who taught me how to cook that dish. Learning how to cook that has and will always be one of my greatest core memory I've had with her or anyone else in life. I'm forever grateful that I got to learn it from her when she was alive and it was just us two living together at that time.

When I saw her this time it was again some sort of family get together. I'm unable to recall the faces of who was present. But there was someone who pointed out that she's here and I looked at the door and she was there smiling greeting everyone but she was in a night gown orange pink coral kind of designs maybe leaves the one she always wore. Also the last time I saw her alive was in those clothes. As soon as I saw her i started crying and hugged her i didn't care of people were watching. I was sobbing and telling her "where were you?  Please please come back home I can't do it anymore." When I hugged it felt so real like she was real. She just smiled and patted on my back. Then i woke up