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Your purpose in life is not to love yourself but to love being yourself.

If you goal is to love yourself, then your focus is directed inward toward yourself, and you end up constantly watching yourself from the outside, disconnected, trying to summon the “correct” feelings towards yourself or fashion yourself into something you can approve of.

If your goal is to love being yourself, then your focus is directed outward towards life, on living and making decisions based on what brings you pleasure and fulfillment.

Be the subject, not the object. It doesn’t matter what you think of yourself. You are experiencing life. Life is not experiencing you.

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"Friends dont look at friends that way" COWARD. I look at my friends with awe in my eyes, my chest is filled with love, im glowing because i get to be near my friends. I look at my friends and i would give them my everything. SO SKILL ISSUE, look at your friends with all the love that you have

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THEY KEEP ASKING ME IF I WOULD DIE FOR THEM AND I KEEP ASKING WHY THEY WANT ME DEAD

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The volume IS the message

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(posts a picture of the cringiest fictional man imaginable) he has bewitched me btw

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don draper: ohhhhh i'm so fucked up i'm so cool and too many women want to fuck me

pete campbell:

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If your plot feels flat, STUDY it! Your story might be lacking...

Stakes - What would happen if the protagonist failed? Would it really be such a bad thing if it happened?

Thematic relevance - Do the events of the story speak to a greater emotional or moral message? Is the conflict resolved in a way that befits the theme?

Urgency - How much time does the protagonist have to complete their goal? Are there multiple factors complicating the situation?

Drive - What motivates the protagonist? Are they an active player in the story, or are they repeatedly getting pushed around by external forces? Could you swap them out for a different character with no impact on the plot? On the flip side, do the other characters have sensible motivations of their own?

Yield - Is there foreshadowing? Do the protagonist's choices have unforeseen consequences down the road? Do they use knowledge or clues from the beginning, to help them in the end? Do they learn things about the other characters that weren't immediately obvious?

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Jonathan Bailey as Anthony Bridgerton in “Shock and Delight” (Bridgerton - 1x02)

Gifs 32/?

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And speaking of Sophia Tolstoy, her diaries are just so depressing. 

“I am to gratify his pleasure and nurse his child, I am a piece of household furniture, I am a woman. I try to suppress all human feelings. When the machine is working properly it heats the milk, knits a blanket, makes little requests and bustles about trying not to think […].“

She wrote this when she was 19, one year into her marriage to Leo and as she was pregnant with the first of his 13 children.

A few years later, when she was 25 or so:

“I am so often alone with my thoughts that the need to write in my diary comes quite naturally … Now I am well again and not pregnant—it terrifies me how often I have been in that condition. He said that for him being young meant “I can achieve anything”. For me […] reason tells me that there is nothing I either want or can do beyond nursing, eating, drinking, sleeping, and loving and caring for my husband and babies, all of which I know is happiness of a kind, but why do I feel so woeful all the time, and weep as I did yesterday? I am writing this now with the pleasantly exciting sense that nobody will ever read it, so I can be quite frank with myself […].“

During her 12th pregnancy she wrote about taking scalding baths and jumping from high pieces of furniture to try and miscarry.  And at one point while reading her husband’s diary (which he told her to read) she found the sentence “There is no such thing as love, only the physical need for intercourse and the practical need for a life companion.” In her own diary she wrote “They ebb and flow like waves, these times when I realise how lonely I am and want only to cry…”

A few years before her husband’s death, she published a cycle of prose poems titled “Groans”, under the pseudonym “A Tired Woman”.

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i squeeked when he looked at the camera

Jonathan Bailey on the red carpet at the BAFTA Tea Party in Beverly Hills (January 13, 2024)

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SEX EDUCATION (2019-2023)

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Reblog to give the person you reblogged this from motivation to work on their WIPs.

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Hi there! Just popping in to say I thoroughly enjoyed your fic If I bleed you’ll be the last to know. This was triggered by a tweet asking people to praise WIPs and yours was one I thought of and had bookmarked ages ago. I revisited it today and just saw your note about being on hiatus. I do hope all is well for you irl and if not just know that there strangers like myself rooting for you. Sorry all this rambling just to say THANK YOU! 😊

😮‍💨 omg OP. That is SO sweet!!! thank you so much for checking in!!! please don't apologize about anything. It honestly made my day, my week, my month!! (i'm SO glad that I've used so much exclamation points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

All is well in the real world™️ atm but I have to admit that the muse has been elusive. Although If I Bleed is far from abandoned, I promise. but the updates are sporadic and I added the hiatus note just to lower people's expectations about the updates 😅. I only write when inspiration strike but knowing people are still waiting on my silly little story helps so much!!! 🥰 Thank you!!!

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bottoms text posts (pt. 1?)

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May 2024 be kinder and gayer and better

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GIRLS | 4x06

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ADAM DRIVER as ADAM SACKLER Girls (2012–2017) | Episode 1: “All I ever Wanted”  / Part 2 of 4 as requested by @safarigirlsp .