pinkbitchesrule - Tumblr blog

pinkbitchesrule · 3 days

Text

I think I could be more off-putting if given the chance. Release me from my enclosure

2K notes · View notes

pinkbitchesrule · 7 days

Text

rough jontim animatic as a little treat

4K notes · View notes

pinkbitchesrule · 7 days

Text

Chewing through leather raghhh jontim

366 notes · View notes

pinkbitchesrule · 7 days

Text

Team 7 but without most of the trauma

1K notes · View notes

pinkbitchesrule · 8 days

Text

i'm thinking about gertrude and gerry and mary and eric and this moment in mag 154:

[Image ID: Screenshot of an excerpt from The Magnus Archives episode 154. Excerpt reads as follows. ERIC: I want you to find my son. If Mary is – if she’s gone, or worse, I want you to make sure he’s alright. GERTRUDE: (amused) Hm. I’m not exactly a mother figure. ERIC: You could hardly do worse than her. End image ID]

thinking about how gertrude made good on her promise and not only found gerry but took him under her wing.

thinking about how eric escaped the institute but then mary killed him because of his resulting disability, because he wasn't useful anymore:

[Image ID: Screenshot of an excerpt from The Magnus Archives episode 154. Excerpt reads as follows. ERIC: I left to avoid dragging my family, my son into this life, to try to look after him. But Mary decided that a newly blinded husband was simply too much of a burden. End image ID.]

and how mary wouldn't let him go completely and bound him into the skin book... but then abandoned him, gave his page to gertrude.

thinking about how eric told gertrude that being in the book hurt:

[Image ID: Screenshot of an excerpt from The Magnus Archives episode 154. Excerpt reads as follows. GERTRUDE: What’s it like? Being bound to the book? ERIC: I don’t know how to describe it. Never was great with words. Bad. It feels bad. All the time. I know that I’m not really Eric; I’m just a memory someone wrote down. It hurts, most of the time. I don’t like it. End image ID.]

and gertrude agreed to burn his page to set him free. she knew it hurt him to be tied to the skin book.

thinking about how gertrude lost all her archival assistants, one by one, each of them bound to the institute. they all died grisly, preventable deaths, most of which gertrude was directly responsible for. it must have been such a relief to find gerry. she could do it right this time, not let him become bound to the magnus institute. maybe she hoped he'd outlive her.

how cruel then for gerry to die so young, and of natural causes too. what cosmic injustice.

thinking about how in the end, just like mary with eric, gertrude couldn't let gerry go, but wouldn't keep him close either. she bound him into the skin book, even knowing how much it would hurt. and she abandoned him in america.

thinking about how like mary, gertrude valued people by their usefulness, up to and including gerry:

[Image ID: Screenshot of an excerpt from The Magnus Archives episode 154. Excerpt reads as follows. GERTRUDE: I suppose he might be useful. ERIC: (dry as the Sahara) Oh, sentimental as ever. End image ID.]

what if gerry had survived the brain tumor, but with a permanent disability? would gertrude have kept him around? i don't know, but i think maybe she Knew about gerry's tumor and chose not to tell him:

[Image ID: Screenshot of an excerpt from The Magnus Archives episode 111. Excerpt reads as follows. GERARD: No. When I asked her, she said she’d show me when we got back to London. Mind you, she had this weird look in her eyes, like it was some kind of a joke. ARCHIVIST: I mean… it wasn’t, w-was it? A-A joke. GERARD: I don’t think so. Gertrude didn’t make jokes. End image ID.]

gertrude had that look in her eye because she Knew gerry would never make it back to london with her. could she have saved him, caught the tumor earlier when it was still operable, and she just chose not to for reasons unknown? was it already terminal by the time she Knew about it, and she didn't tell him because she wanted to prolong his usefulness, have him spend his last days helping her rather than in a hospital bed? or did she choose not to tell him because if she was the one to tell him she'd feel somehow responsible, like she was responsible for her previous assistants' deaths? i couldn't guess.

the tragedy in all this is that gertrude's and mary's fatal flaws were always in plain sight.

eric knew what mary was:

[Image ID: Screenshot of an excerpt from The Magnus Archives episode 154. Excerpt reads as follows. He wished she would say she was sorry she was doing this, that she loved him, that she would miss him. But he knew better, and his final thought was a gentle sadness at how little he was surprised. End image ID.]

and gerry knew gertrude:

[Image ID: Screenshot of an excerpt from The Magnus Archives episode 111. Excerpt reads as follows. ARCHIVIST: Kind of sounds like you didn’t… trust her. GERARD: Yeah, I didn’t. I wanted to, I really did, but it was always the work. Sometimes she just reminded me of my mum. End image ID.]

eric said that gertrude couldn't do worse as a mother figure than mary - in the end he was right, but only barely. gertrude wasn't worse than mary, she was the same. she gave gerry the same burial that mary gave eric.

but despite it all, i want to believe gertrude cared about gerry, even if only as a stand-in for everyone else she lost. because binding him to the book and then leaving him behind isn't useful, isn't pragmatic, isn't like the gertrude we know. even gerry thought so:

[Image ID: Screenshot of an excerpt from The Magnus Archives episode 111. Excerpt reads as follows. I think… I think I finally understand why she brought me back. I just don’t understand why she left me behind. End image ID.]

gertrude cared for gerry, and she didn't know what to do with it. she chose not to tell him about his brain tumor. she bound him into the skin book. she left him behind. she made a series of senseless decisions because she was so focused on saving all of humanity that she didn't understand how to save one single person.

and it's just so deeply tragic. the magnus archives really is a podcast about broken people trying their best and it still never being enough.

395 notes · View notes

pinkbitchesrule · 8 days

Text

No doubt all of them, but if I had to pick one Gerry ofc.

I may order some stickers of my art, anything right off the bat you guys would prefer?

Im thinking maybeee