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alright follow @goa-bani

if i made a blog where i post some of the more nsfw thoughts of my days would y'all drop a follow?

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half of me is a hopeless romantic and the other half of me is, well, an asshole

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all i want is for you to remember when Walt Whitman said "and your very flesh shall be a great poem." and when Sylvia Plath said "the blood jet is poetry and there is no stopping it." and go oof-yes everytime.

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if i made a blog where i post some of the more nsfw thoughts of my days would y'all drop a follow?

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I want rooms filled with plants overgrowing and bookcases spilling over with well loved novels and poems and the sun in my windows to wake me without a care in the world and a lover who adores when I read aloud or dance to the songs I've memorized while studying instead of reading my notes but instead I am alone and scared of the world and that is not enough for me

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Is it too much to ask too be in love and just have a cute little necklace my person gave me to wear everyday and I can fidget with it all day and just be like ah that’s my person

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I cannot stand the “academic writing is inaccessible (and ableist and classist and racist) because its So Hard to Understand” argument

Academia is racist and cements class antagonism by its very structure and mode of existence, not because you don’t want to put the effort in reading or learning. Academia is racist and “classist” by its admission standards, it test score standards, is demographic quotas, in the adherence to a propagandistic white western canon, and its flip side the tokenization of BIPOC voices, in the very system of paying for education, loan debts, school districts, funding, material inaccessibility, journal paywalls, the complete deprivation of publicly readily available knowledge, the impoverishment of common intellectual life.

A more accessible academic life would see the complete shattering of the ivory walls. Life long learning. The end of tenure. The end of capitalistic competition in publishing the newest piece of trash. 

There is bad writing. Of course. But when I see “write so a 5th grader can understand” I hear a call for the further impoverishment of intellectual life. A disregard for intellectual rigor. 

And worse, I hear a complete infantilization and dehumanization of the very people you’re trying to advocate for. Black people are not stupid. Poor people are not stupid. People with mental illness are not stupid. And they’re certainly not in “5th grade”

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domestic sweetness!!!! getting groceries together, buying home decor together??? making traditions??? cooking dinner while badly singing along to the radio??? making each other breakfast in bed??? leaving notes around the house for each other??? i’m so soft,,,,

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small life update: i have a job and also tonsil stones

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oh, to be the owner of a small bookshop on a cobblestone street with roses climbing the front of the building, where books are stacked about in piles and there’s always coffee brewing and a sleepy shop dog lifts his head at the sound of the door’s bell and thumps his tail against the hardwood

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The Ballets of Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky

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I just want to live in a little cottage in Italy with orchards and flowers all around, sip hot tea, listen to Hozier and read books by Oscar Wilde, Donna Tartt and Mary Shelley

but here I am, studying calculus during a pandemic

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just imagine boris pavlikovsky meeting bunny corcoran. imagine boris just dragging bunny in every possible way. poetic, if you ask me.

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me reading dorian gray: that’s wilde

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classics are like: you went so extremely hard with the misogyny that it turned into homoeroticism

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No one:

Basil Hallward: