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'Hoping for a brighter horizon"

Growing up in a family that isn't financially stable makes you think about working hard and being ambitious. When I was a kid, I thought that everything was fine. I grew up with a simple life and hard-working parents. Growing up, I could see that both of my parents worked every day, but the thing which we are struggling is our money. I grew up with hard-working parents; my mother is the one who would take care of me and my sister, while my father is the one who is working for the family but can't really provide because of his alcoholic issues. I don't even mind at all because I thought that my life was normal; I was happy, young, and didn't know anything about the world.

I could see my mother and father fighting over it. When I was young, I struggled with not having connections with people; I had really bad anxiety; I had no friends; and I hated school. If my teacher called my name, I would freeze, and that's how bad my anxiety is. I would envy my classmates for having things that they could afford, while I just look at them and wish that it were me. It was exhausting to struggle with things that you couldn't control and to know that you were struggling with poverty and facing problems at a young age. You were told to study hard and be successful.

But life was not I expected because my mother found out that her sister which is my Aunt had a cancer, I could see her face trying not to cry and she would pray every day to God that everything would be fine, I would see her borrowing money from other people, like our friends, neighbors and even her colleagues, she and her other sister would take care of my sick aunt, she would pay for the medical payments even if we are also struggling financially, she would pray every day and beg to God that her sister would be okay, she would do anything just for her to feel okay, but not until a really bad news came, my mother got a phone call from her other sister saying that her sick sister had died from cancer, which is very devastating. My mother did anything; she worked really hard, but still, the money was not enough to pay for anything. After the death of my aunt, we mourned, but we struggled financially; we had a lot of debt.

Fast forward: When I was 13, my father quit his job and started our own business, which is a tailoring shop. We made a lot of money that year and even this year, and my parents even bought me a laptop for my online class so that I wouldn't be struggling with using my cellphone.

In the month of December 2023, something bad happened in our lives again. Even though we are comfortable with our lives now that we have everything, everything got lost after our house was caught on fire. I was at school when it happened, when I heard the news I ran immediately and called my sister even though I was shaking, but she didn’t respond so I cried the whole time because I was nervous that something bad might happened to my family, what if they get stuck in our house what if my mother was trapped, I had a lot of bad thoughts in my head so cried, but then my sister replied and said that they were safe, I felt a relief, after the incident we were struggling to find a house to sleep with but there are a lot of friends that offered me to sleep in their home so I could go to school tomorrow but I still choose to sleep next to my parents on a small guard house, even if we were struggling but it was okay for me because we are safe and nothing bad happened to all of us, after the incident I went back to school like nothing happened but I was tired and miserable the whole time, I was still trying to not give up and tried to fight every day.

Because Life is a cycle that encompasses a series of interconnected events and experiences. These events and experiences shape our perspectives, attitudes, and behaviors, ultimately influencing the choices we make. Understanding and managing our emotions is crucial for personal growth and well-being, as it allows us to navigate through life's challenges and build strong relationships with friends and family.

Life is a beautiful circle, a never-ending wheel that revolves around happy, sad, growing, and contemplative times. Our lives are in perpetual flux, much like the seasons, from spring's flowers to winter's silence. Accept the beauty of this cyclical path, as it teaches us about resiliency and the certainty of change. As you work through this cycle, remember how crucial balance is. Honor both the brightness and the shadows, just as day gives way to night and vice versa. Every stage enhances the quality of your life and molds you into a more whole and wiser person.

I was very grateful that we faced a lot of difficult things in life, but we still managed to be stronger because we all know that life is hard. Even if we were poor, having a loving family is a cornerstone of support, comfort, and growth in my life. I could see a lot of sacrifices that my mother made for my aunt; I could see the sadness in her eyes and the feeling of grief when she passed away; I could see family members who offered love, acceptance, appreciation, and encouragement to one another, reinforcing a sense of belonging and security. Additionally, a loving family serves as a source of guidance and support, helping us navigate life's challenges.

Our family is not just a group of individuals; it's a powerhouse of strength, unity, and love. Your hard work is not only a testament to your individual character but also a shining example of the power of collective effort. Together, we have achieved more than we could have ever imagined, and I am excited for the future knowing that we face it as a united, resilient family.

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