radiantformes

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tumblr is just reddit v2 but the only difference is that you talk about yourself and find if people can relate to you, im here for it

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me with levi hhh

Seeing fanart of my anime husband being shipped with whoever isn’t my parame.

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of being unapologetic, proud, visible :) not scared to "offend" anyone

The quiet intimacy of growing into the person your younger self needed. Of being unapologetic, and proud, and visible.

The power of wearing your queerness on your sleeve. Of shouting and dancing and laughing out loud. Taking up space, proclaiming to the world "I am here, and I am alive." Being queer, and being happy, and being authentic.

And you do these things on behalf of yourself, of the younger you who hid in darkened corners. The you who hardly dared to whisper, much less speak these things out loud. That part of you who still fears others' gaze, who trembles under the weight of being known.

It is for that part of you that you shout your name aloud.

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ive recently gotten into attack on titan and got myself immersed in the world, there's so much madd potential with the plot and the characters and stuff. but then my madd block hits me. i literally cannot picture anyone's face or make any plot. even extending from the canon plot i can't do. im so annoyed, it's like my body wants to madd but i cant produce anything, h

getting madd block after being inspired for a long time is especially annoying

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too close to home :( this is unrelated but i also hate it when im reading fanfics to fuel my madd and then either the reader or the character has self hatred issues, it triggers me so much :( im recovering from cptsd and a lot of things and it just... reminds me of so much things im recovering from :(

To those who insert characters from their favorite muses.

Do you ever feel jealous of their canon relationships?

When I get attached to them it’s hard to look at the actual canon storyline ( especially if it’s an ongoing story) because it triggers a sense of abandonment for me. You don’t really know what to expect, and that said character could be the paste that holds everything together.

Seeing them interact with others who aren’t my para or my para’s inner circle makes me feel insecure.

It’s like a threat that wants to take them away for me.

Weird I know, but I’d rather not lie about it.

What about you? Do you feel the same? Or have you ever had a similar experience?

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this hit me

Madd culture is basically living two lives, and at the same, none.

I mean, I spend half of my time kind of living my life, and the other half I'm just in my head living someone's else's. Which is tiring, unproductive and frustrating.

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or when you have siblings and you go to a hotel which means you have to stay in the same room as your siblings... which means no madd-ing or else they'll know

madd culture is low key hating road trips in the car because you can’t actually pace around to get that scene/story you want in your head right

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PROJECTING MY TRAUMA TO MY PARAS SO THAT I DONT SUFFER ALONE

Madd culture is putting your paras through trauma and then accidentally triggering yourself

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BRUHHHHHHH STOP CALLING ME OUTTTTT

madd culture is telling people you’re writing a book but actually all the notebooks you’ve bought for it only have one sentence but the entire book is almost finished in my head

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we all the same person fr

madd culture is being unable to fall asleep without having an exceedingly problematic daydream (that repeats every night)

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HOLY SHIT THIS IS ME?? but instead i create an ideal self and never have the camera pan to my face or my body (?) so it's like i know my presence is there but i can't see me. it must also be low self esteem ig

Found out the reason I do not have a persona in my maladaptive daydreaming world is much due to my low self esteem? There must be two ends of this spectrum: Delving in a world where you are the shit, and refusing to delve because you are shit.

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omg thank you, i'm stuck here ever since march and don't think the sermons will ever stop since everything is now found online

Shout out to all the ex christians living in their parents houses in quarantine. I'd pray for u but I don't like doing that anymore.

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Stealing a plotline from a show for your daydreams like

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Finding a fresh new daydreaming plot is honestly the best feeling.

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My brain when daydreaming

My brain when studying

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anyone got archives of twotriplex's deleted soundcloud tracks? kinda miss em. please hmu if u do :)

#2xxx! #club eskimo #clubeskimo #Club Eskimo #Miso #Dean #deantrbl #radmuseum #punchnello #colde #saay #twotriplex #2xxx

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When my friend asks for advice in their relationship