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Bird

In the letter I sent you… I called myself your little bird. Because you taught me to sing.. But I’ve been singing the same song… you need to teach me… please… I want to be someone you’re proud of…

I don't want to be a disappointment...

#7/26/17

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I'm sorry

I’m sorry I’m a coward. I’m sorry that I don’t follow through with my promises. I’m sorry that I’m frightened. Im sorry that I’m messed up.

Please believe me when I tell you I love you. I swear to god it’s true… I’m just a scared little girl… I just want to go home– to you. Because you are my home. You are my heart. You are my whole life…

I love you, Amabella… I love you so much that it hurts… maybe this is because I haven’t met you yet; I’m unable to pour my love into your soul with a single embrace… but one day soon I will. One day very soon I’ll be there to hold you, and the pain will all melt away… This pain I feel is nice…

But I think there’s a reason for if. I think this pain is from all the times I worry. All the times I am so full of serenity because of your beautiful words, that I can’t understand how to express myself in my own words. I think it’s because I feel so much for you all the time– I am constantly thinking of us in the future. I want to sleep and wake up in that future… the future that has you at my side. Our love is so beautiful… it’s different, it can get hard, but what we have is raw and wonderful…

I love every tear I shed– both happy and sad. You mean so much to me… you mean SO MUCH… to me…

I.. I just wish I wasn’t so scared… but I guess we both have own our fears, don’t we? Mine just doesn’t have a logical reason…

I have a fear of heights because I have a fear of falling.

I have a fear of talking to you on the phone in front of them because I don’t want them to shun me; judge me; hate me; they don’t think my relationship with you is healthy…

But because of you… I am healthy. I’m alive because of you. I believe I am beautiful because of you. I am striving to get a new job because of you. I’m eating because of you. You are my guardian angel, Amabella. And I love you more and more every day.

You have a deep understanding of who I am. You’re brilliant… you’re beautiful… you’re so beautiful… No. Don’t deny it. You are. You’re my beloved, beautiful cat…

I want to grow old with you...

#7/26/17

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I Love You

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Blind

They say love is blind. This is true. For love cannot be seen with the eyes. It is not an outward appearance. Love can only be felt with the soul; what your heart feels is a different story. This is why online relationships have a greater chance at survival. Without two bodies being close to one another, this forces the two people to rely entirely on trust. Their souls touch long before their eyes ever meet. This is why I say love is blind. It goes beyond a bodily experience. Love is knowing that she will always have your back no matter what. They will always be there. They will never doubt you. Years can go by, but the connection will remain: You can't break up with a soulmate. A soulmate is something that will continue-- even after death: They are the only person in the world for you... They are your life. You. Are my life, Amabella.

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I'll never forget these words. I love you...

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The most amazing thing about life … is being in love. Knowing she has your back. That she'll always there for you.

My Amabella

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I don't "Gotta Catch 'Em All". I just gotta catch you.

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One day… Not only will we share dreams, souls, lives, love… but we will also share a bed. This will be the place in which we open our eyes and see each other every morning. This is the place where we will hold each other the closest as we fall asleep. This is the place where life can be created. Where bonds can be strengthened.. Right there in your arms, that is where I want to be… And I can’t wait to be there every day, every night, loving you…

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Together

We create a masterpiece that only the wise can comprehend.

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I wish...

I wish I could fall asleep to your voice... Then maybe I'd dream of you more often instead of not dream at all...

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You're My Queen

Presenting Her Majesty, Queen Amabella Grey! ...I love you.

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Belief

You believe I love you. That means so much to me... because all this time, it's been true. I've never loved anyone like I love you. I believe in your love as well. I believe in us. I believe in you. I will never stop loving you.

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Don't

Please don’t die without me being there… Because maybe if I am there… you’ll change your mind. Or you may even allow me to join you… Either one is acceptable to me. Just don’t do it alone… You saved my life. Let me save yours. Here’s my hand. My heart. My soul. Take it. I’m not going anywhere.

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This picture reminded me of you, Amabella. Do you know why...? *Whispers* Because you're my angel.

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To my sleepyhead

It's so hard to hang up at night when you're sleeping... I love just reading to you and talking to you. I can't wait to sit up beside you in bed and read to you that way; watch you smile, close your eyes, and sleep under the spell I'm weaving... I love you... Sleep well, my beloved.

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Algebra

A plus O? Why... Marriage, of course! I knew it all along.

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I love you so damn much, Amabella. I am so glad you exist in this life. I can't wait to meet you over and over again as we swim through each life... I love you, my angel. Thank you for finding me.