risforrogue

[risforrogue]

Been so far removed from the creative side of me ... Just was not feeling well to write down my thoughts. So for the meantime, I use tarot to help me articulate stuff.

Here's what I pulled.

I know I'm being a wimp. Thus, this card was that slap of reality I needed. I am a bad ass. I can do this. I can go back to writing.

#roguetarot #rogue fanfiction #roguewords

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Love is strange.

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Without my glasses

I live in a world full of

Watercolor paint

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This year, let love sing

Do not become a whimper

Battle your darkness

Hold a candle in cupped palms

& find a path back to joy

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The secret I keep

The one I love

I kiss to sleep

Never to have.

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When you want to end things but the truth is, the break-up will end you. The mere thought of losing the love of your life is enough to paralyze you. Then don't. Just stay there. Hold on for as long you can.

Life will be shitty, one way or another and if this love is the one light in the dark, then keep it burning.

Keep it aflame.

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My heart on a string for you...

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Fell in love with him.

#a sign of affection

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Death Note (デスノート) // Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata

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Why do we miss someone? Is it the value we place on them? This feeling of emptiness that persists until they return your feelings? Or respond to them?

I wonder if there's a cure for loneliness.

Because it's there. That lingering emotion of an abyss within. Like you're lost in the world and only one person can find you and so you wait and wait...

It's pathetic. So you try to forget it and do something else to keep your mind off it but it's a ghost hovering, an ephemeral disembodied thing finding you, holding you cold and paralyzed with sadness.

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The first crack stings.

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If someone falls out of love, the feeling is actually noticed..felt, even. The gradual withdrawal, the coldness in the air. That mood you never could express...sad, melancholic, eerie...empty. That was it. There's this emptiness that never existed before...truly awful. Truly hurtful. Like someone had this powerful eraser and removed their entire existence from your life, little by little. One piece at a time and you feel it. Each swipe, each precious moment...each stroke, each kiss...each touch, each word...all of it gone.The loss is one tiny little bite at a time. Cruel. Cruel love. Cruel, cruel heart. Now broken and lost. Now unfeeling and numb.

#roguewords

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Sometimes I wish I could time travel. To the past, to the future, to even now.

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Christian is me. 🥰🥰🥰

Moulin Rouge! dir. Baz Luhrmann | 2001

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MOULIN ROUGE! (2001) dir. Baz Luhrmann

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I'm sorry you can't do El Tango de Roxanne and have it not be in my head forever

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