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Back at it again gang

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The thing about Kipperlilly Copperkettle to me, is this. If you’ve ever been an emotionally neglected child, or a child that struggles significantly with mental health but is able to keep up a facade of normalcy, you often start to wish you had ‘real problems’ to justify the emotional turmoil that you’re in, or to receive adult validation and support. If I was really struggling, someone would notice. Someone would help.

Imagine being 14 years old. A freshman in high school. You are lost and you are angry and you may or may not be receiving any care or attention at home. Your grades are perfect, but you’re still not receiving the validation you so desperately crave. And you see him. The boy in your class, the only one on your academic level. And he is getting that recognition. And his problems are like ‘this giant dragon killed my dad’ and the solution is ‘I’m going to tear it up with my teeth’ and everyone applauds and affirms him as he destroys the thing destroying him

But you’re struggling, too. You want to tear with your teeth, you itch for the feeling of blood hot in your mouth. You are so angry. Your problems aren’t anything you can bite into. You are the problem. You’re 14. You’re so angry your skin feels too tight and no one sees and no one cares.

And then an all powerful force, a g-d dead and buried, kills you and all your friends. And she says…your problem, it can be a solution. It can save your friends. Come back. Come back to me. Tear with your teeth. Lie and cheat and steal and kill and be enough. Be enough because you’re angry. You’re 16 years old. You take the deal.

#rb. #txt. #also being a fourteen year old girl is the worst also

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I hate Kipperlilly Copperkettle but I will protect her against misunderstanding of her character till I die

#HOLDS YOUR HAND OP #ME FR FR #rb. #txt.

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Abandoned Places by Andre Govia

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MOST INFLUENTIAL ALBUM OF THE MODERN AGE

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From here

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rhys allen - saint michael comes to you in blood // david cronenberg - crash (1996) // andrew joseph white - hell followed with us // @.yearningfordarkshadows // rhys allen - saint michael comes to you in blood

— saint michael comes to you in blood, my violent little micro piece about finding one of god's messengers dying on the side of a road, is now available to read in vulture culture for free

#ohohoho is this a meatquelpiece #rb. #mm.

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"i use it/its pronouns" is actually a code word for "i am a really cool and epic person" so if u see someone w/ that or similar in its bio be sure to befriend it and be there for it and listen to it and hug it cuz it is so cool it deserves it!!!

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#ch: mariel blackwater #rb. #mm.

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200 Days of genocide. I don't know for how long it will last but all i know the world must stop them we are so tired of killing and displaced & hunger & fear of losing your beloved and unknown future. That's enough what they want more?

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diversity loss this trans man is just as much of an emotionally unavailable avoidantly attached brick as any cis guy

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#mariel is consumed by devotion #literally #delilah is devoted to consumption #rb. #mm.

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Women are very cool, there should be more women

#rb. #txt. #investing at 63 notes

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spring horror is good because of the symbolism of death and rebirth and storms and everything being vibrant but still cold. and summer horror is good because sweltering heat and insects and long days. and fall horror is good because halloween and death and scary movies. and winter horror is good because snow contrasting with blood and freezing temperatures and long nights. btw.

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FIND THE WORD TAG

i was tagged by @encrucijada (ty!!) and tried to challenge myself by not using anything from Lay Me Down, so these are all taken from what i've written for Burn The Stars (my sci-fi fantasy thats in perpetual planning hell lol)

my words were: necklace, sigh, dream & heavy

NECKLACE

No one could say that Anandi Alva was not talented. She could recite epic poetry from memory and tell you the name of an old world plant by the way it grew towards the light and slip into the faces of others as easily as slipping into water. But the dead girl was in possession of a holy name, a holy vantage point to the unguarded backs of the most influential the Colossus Rings had to offer, a holy collection of necklaces where each glittering gem was modelled after a specific star, and the Priory had no need for Anandi Alva in the face of that.

SIGH

“I deal in precision Silas,” Danny sighed, turning away from the pulsing emergency lights. “I only fail when I leave things to chance.”

DREAM

This is outside of her, controlled, soft, it washes easily away once she blinks and realizes that she’s sitting on grass with her back resting against the trunk of a tree, one leg drawn up, hands folded behind her head as if she’s been sitting there casually for a few minutes at most. For all she knows she has.

This is a dream.

HEAVY

“You have to stop saying things like that.”

Silas paused, halfway through tying his hair back into its ponytail. “Like what?”

“Us, we, when this is all over. If you keep it up I might start to think there’s a chance.”

“I think there’s a chance.”

“I know you do.” They made a fist and pressed it to the space between their eyes. It felt heavy. Everything had felt heavy for a very long time now.

i'll tag: @albatris @spideronthesun @strangerays @violets-in-her-arms-writes and anyone else who wants do it!!

your words are: slight, slip, silver and sharp

#CREMEWRITING FUCK YEAH #rb. #mm. #other's writing #url: cream-and-tea

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Why can't you accept that she might be living a good, honest life? That she's an attentive partner and a good mom?

Because I wanted that mom. I wanted the mom who made me afternoon snacks instead of telling me to look for loose fries in the third kitchen freezer. Why does [baby name] get that mom? If Hallariel Seacaster has truly changed then that means she was always capable of change but I just wasn't worth changing for.

Fabian Seacaster, going home from college a few years from now to find a warm and attentive home he never had

#good place quotes that make me sob even when this isn't the context #oh fabian #rb. #txt.